Off to the Vet again!

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“Then they gave me a loaf of bread and told me to walk through the forest and give some to anyone who asked. I did exactly what they told me, and the second beggar-woman was a fairy in disguise, but instead of saying that whenever I spoke, diamonds and roses would drop from my mouth, she said that since I was so kind, I would never have any problems with my teeth.”
“Really? Did it work?”
“Well, I haven’t had a toothache since I met her.”
“I’d much rather have good teeth than have diamonds and roses drop out of my mouth whenever I said something”
― Patricia C. Wrede, Dealing with Dragons

 

So yesterday Bert got the bucket off his head. All his stitches are out and he’s healing nicely.

But this morning we’re back at the vet again. Harry has been drooling and noisily rearranging his mouth and looking miserable the last day or so – the cause; a broken back molar.

Off to the vet for surgery this morning. He’ll have the tooth out, poor puppy. No more chomping on the right side for him. :(

 

How to Be An Everyday Mystic

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Image from thebluefish.com

“Rituals are like electrically powered transmitters sending stimulating sparks of electric current or inspirational feelings that connect us to our inner being or soul.”
~ Wes Adamson

 

 

Who doesn’t want to embrace their inner mystic? We want to be able to listen to our intuition, and to call on energies that help us find the right path, make better choices and summon forth clarity and direction.

We want to be in that place of flow.

But flow takes work, right?

So we make all kinds of rules and commitments. I will journal thirty minutes every day. I will meditate every Sunday for two hours, and each morning after my sun salutes. I will raw food, stand-on-my-head, honour the four directions, utter the magical affirmations, work on my yoga, do my deep breathing, consult my oracle, practice gratitude, heal all my everythings, fix myself for ten focused minutes, love myself unconditionally – even on bad hair days or after overt calorie consumption, and green juice twice daily. All while doing all the other everythings I need to get done each day.

Sigh.

No wonder we get overwhelmed, off track and downright resentful of this thing that could be a source of comfort, support and, dare I say it, pleasure in our lives.

Too often we complicate things.

Especially when it comes to spiritual and self-development.

So today I have a suggestion that comes from long experience. My own. And that of my students and clients who now also practice this simple technique.

Put your spiritual toolkit together. Put your cards and runes, your crystals and essential oils, your journal and smudge sticks or incense or whatever else you use in a place where you will see and use them.

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If you travel, create a little grab-bag of stuff to take with you when you’re mobile.

When you make these things central in your life you will be more inclined to use them as a natural part of your day, rather than some kind of imposed ritual intended to make you more spiritual or intuitive.

Go to your tools when you feel drawn to them. Play with them. Hang out with them. Practice using them. Do things that help you to feel more in flow, by being in flow rather than forcing it.

Some simple ideas to add to your everyday mystic practice:

  • Take a moment and just breathe. BE in awareness as you draw air into and then out of your lungs. It only takes a minute to bring you back into your body and being in the moment.
  • Light a stick of incense. Let it be a sacred act to purify and bless your surroundings and you.
  • Pause in front of your sacred space and offer up a prayer, or draw some positive energy into your body.
  • Choose a favourite crystal and hold it for a moment or pop it in your pocket.
  • Make a cuppa and write in your journal for five minutes.
  • Go sit in the sun with your journal and read through it for five minutes, reflecting on what you’ve written.
  • Play with your singing bowl, singing bell, magical flute or other funky sound-inspired wonder.
  • Gaze on a positive affirmation or saying and really think on it for a minute.
  • Draw a card for the day and spend a minute to think about what that card means for you.
  • Select an essential oil and apply or diffuse it.
  • Read a section from an inspiring book.
  • Stand with your bare feet on the ground and just BE with the earth for a moment or two.

This way these simple rituals will become a natural part of your daily life, and create pathways that lead us deeper into ourselves and our true nature, as well as pathways that connect us to our guides, angels and the Divine.

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One of those nights…

“She used to tell me that a full moon was when mysterious things happen and wishes come true.”
~ Shannon A. Thompson

Tonight will welcome May’s full moon.

I love a full moon. Unfortunately so does lyme disease. Many lyme sufferers find an acute ramping up of their symptoms in the day or two before a full moon.

Last night was a hell night for me. At the edge of sleep I woke up to that horrid wide-awake place. After which there was pain so bad that sleep, if I could have found it, was out of the question anyway.

Today I am barely functional.

It goes like that sometimes.

I’ll try and catch a nap today, and then brace myself for tonight. Or plan to be awake anyway and have a good book to read, a meditation to do, or some other welcome distraction.

It’s been a long while since I had a night like last night. They used to be a regular thing. So I know I’m improving. Gee, I HAVE improved so much. But lyme disease and its co-infection friends are still reminding me they’re here.

Truth be told I’m a bit over it today. A bit cranky. A bit disgruntled. A bit disappointed because of all the things I’d planned for today that will undoubtedly fall by the wayside now.

On the upside? The moon was beautiful last night, and the air, after all our recent rain, was sweet and cool and earth-scented.

To watch the transit of moon and stars across the dark bowl of the sky was a decent consolation prize.

Easy Orange Butter Cake with Cream Cheese Frosting

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“In Britain, a cup of tea is the answer to every problem.
Fallen off your bicycle? Nice cup of tea.
Your house has been destroyed by a meteorite? Nice cup of tea and a biscuit.
Your entire family has been eaten by a Tyrannosaurus Rex that has travelled through a space/time portal? Nice cup of tea and a piece of cake. ”
~ David Walliams

 

This is a lovely cake – moist and orangey, and easy to make. It would be the perfect cake for a Mothers Day tea. I often make this when friends come over. Friends, tea and orange cake is the recipe for happiness!

Ingredients:

Cake: 250 grams butter (one cup or two sticks) at room temperature, 2 cups sugar, 4 large eggs, pinch of salt, 2 tablespoons of fresh orange zest, 1/2 cup of orange juice, 1/2 cup of milk, 2 cups self-raising flour (self rising), 1 cup plain flour (all purpose)

Cream Cheese Frosting: 250 grams (1 cup) cream cheese, 2 cups of icing sugar (confectioners or powdered sugar), 1/4 to 1/2 cup of fresh orange juice

Variations: Add a teaspoon of orange blossom water or rose water to the cake batter for a flavoursome twist. If you love earl grey tea then another favourite variation is five drops of bergamot oil in the cake batter and two drops in the frosting mix.

Cake tin – one large bundt or ring pan, well greased and lightly floured or two loaf tins (23cm x 12cm – 9 inch x 5 inch) lined with baking paper.

Method:

Preheat your oven to moderate (160 degree celcius fan-forced or 180 degree oven – 350 degrees fahrenheit).

Chop the butter into cubes, and add to a large mixing bowl with the sugar, orange zest and salt. Beat with electric beaters until the sugar has dissolved and the mixture is creamy and pale. Add the eggs one at a time, beating well after each addition.

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Sift the flours into another bowl and stir gently so that they are well combined.

Gently add half the flour and fold through the butter mixture. Then add the orange juice, stirring gently to combine. Add the second half of the flour and fold through, then add the milk in the same way as the orange juice.

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Spoon the cake batter into your prepared tin.

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Bake the bundt or ring cake for 45 minutes and then test. A thin skewer inserted into the middle of the cake should come out clean. If batter still clings to the skewer cook a little longer and then repeat test. Bake loaf cakes for thirty five minutes and then test.

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Cool in tin for ten minutes before turning out onto a wire rack to cool completely.

If baking the night before, wrap cooled cake in plastic wrap or place in an airtight tin so that it does not dry out.

 

To ice the cake combine cream cheese, sifted icing sugar and 1/4 cup of orange juice. Mix on low speed until combined. If mixture is still too dry add a little more orange juice. Beat on medium speed for one to two minutes until thick and creamy. Spread over top of cake.

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Cake can also be garnished with toasted coconut or almonds, little flowers etc.

Best eaten on the day it is made but will keep, refrigerated and well covered, for three days.

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Getting Ready for May 2015

“A lot of things are inherent in life -change, birth, death, aging, illness, accidents, calamities, and losses of all kinds- but these events don’t have to be the cause of ongoing suffering. Yes, these events cause grief and sadness, but grief and sadness pass, like everything else, and are replaced with other experiences. The ego, however, clings to negative thoughts and feelings and, as a result, magnifies, intensifies, and sustains those emotions while the ego overlooks the subtle feelings of joy, gratitude, excitement, adventure, love, and peace that come from Essence. If we dwelt on these positive states as much as we generally dwell on our negative thoughts and painful emotions, our lives would be transformed.”
~ Gina Lake, What about Now?: Reminders for Being in the Moment

 

Hello, Lovelies :)

Here we are in May! I promised that I would support you in making the most of this year’s opportunities, so here’s my Heads Up about the month ahead, as well as a few suggestions for embracing all that May has to offer.

There is some outer tumult going on in the world through May, or having rippled through to us from April, so it’s time to anchor ourselves in our essence and draw part of our attention inwards. This act serves to stabilise our energy and emotional state, helping us to be strong and grounded so that we can weather any storms and better support those around us.

Card for the Month:

I’ve chosen two cards for April for you: one from the Osho Zen Tarot Deck, and one from Colette Baron-Reid’s Wisdom of the Hidden Realms. Remember that I don’t use these cards in the conventional way, but rather as a stimulus for channelled information.

Here is what I have received from each card:

The message of this first card, The Creator,  is all about working on your own essence. For some people this will be about health. May is supporting us to take action with health – through diet, exercise, health programs and support from wise practitioners – so that we can purify our bodies, support our energy and wellness levels, and move into that space of feeling good, inside and out. Activities such as yoga, tai chi, qi gong and meditation will also be helpful for building your essence and energy.

For others, essence is about building confidence. Becoming clearer about who we are, what we want, what we’re keeping and what we need to let go. Developing a stronger voice in the world. Surrounding ourselves with supportive and healthy relationships. Speaking our truth. Skilled therapists and teachers can also help us with this.

Finally, May also gives us a powerful opportunity to be working on our offerings the essence of ourselves that we wish to share with the world. This could be a book, a course or workshop, a creative piece, performance, a competition, or even a service we want to offer. May is the time to work on it, to pour it forth and polish it. Focus on this offering, and make time for it above all else.

In May keep asking yourself  Who am I? How do I want to live in the world? What do I want to offer to the world? What best represents my essence?

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Image from lifeuncalculated.com

The second card I’ve chosen is a deep reminder of the universal energy, love and support that surrounds us daily. The Cosmos reminds you to breathe life into your creative projects. It also encourages us to be clear in setting our intentions, because we are powerful co-creators. Our energy, thought and action ripples out from us and will carry influence to others.

There are things hidden within you that need to be shared with the world. It’s time.

May allows us to draw on the wisdom and support of our ancestors, our guides and Spirit. It is a month that supports a deepening of our own mysticism and spiritual connection.

May is a fabulous time for journalling, spiritual work and path walking. Make sure that you leave some time for solitary work and self work. This journey will help you to get clear about who you really are, and to connect with your heart and soul wisdom. You’ll also find ways to resolve old hurts and leave old sorrows behind. There is plenty of energetic shedding to be done, as you clarify your essence.

Need some extra encouragement, support or inspiration?

Try these posts:

Writing Ourselves into Awareness – A journalling activity for providing clarity

Meditation – Taking Energy from Trees – A simple technique for building your energy and bringing inner peace

Writing Yourself into a Brighter Future – Some writing prompts to help you get clear about future direction

Manifesting New Directions and Opportunities – more lovely journal activities for getting out of stuckness and back into flow

Becoming Who You Always Were – activities to help you find your own unique essence

You are beautiful, and worthy, and there is an energy within you that is not duplicated anywhere else in the world. Allow the energies of May to help you understand yourself better, and to anchor yourself in what supports and inspires you. Be ready to start working on your offerings to share with the world. Invoke your essence.

Much love, Nicole <3 xx

Crazy Wild Weather

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“From where we stand the rain seems random. If we could stand somewhere else, we would see the order in it.”
~ Tony Hillerman

 

It’s crazy wet in the Northern Rivers right now. It has rained, and rained and rained, and more rain is coming.

Yesterday we moved the cows and baby calves from the river paddock to higher ground.

Not long after sunrise the internet went down. A few hours later the power went out.

Then the phone went. The creek had already come up the banks overnight. A friend had come to visit the night before and we were glad she didn’t stay – because her low van would not have made it over the flooded crossing.

But eventually we knew we wouldn’t either if we left it much longer. And I have doctors’ appointments and other important things next week that I can’t afford to miss by being stranded.

So we packed the truck and headed for the city.

This morning I’m sitting in a dry cosy city house with a working phone, power and internet.

The dogs are forlorn. And we’ll be in town for a few days at least.

But there’s an upside. Fast internet, and good coffee just up the road. So we’ll settle Nurse Bert on the couch for a nap, and take Cafe Dog for a quick latte and a bite.

Then I’m coming home to answer my mountain of emails and to get ready for Witch Camp, the fabulous own-pace online course which starts this weekend (or whenever you’re ready!)

Lots of love to all of you, Nicole xx

 

Seeing Auras – The Day My Life Changed

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Image from lintas.me

“When we least expect it, life sets us a challenge to test our courage and willingness to change; at such a moment, there is no point in pretending that nothing has happened or in saying that we are not yet ready. The challenge will not wait. Life does not look back. A week is more than enough time for us to decide whether or not to accept our destiny.”
~ Paulo Coelho

 

If you regularly read my blog you’ll know that I am psychic. I was born that way, and I believe all of us have intuitive capability. But in some of us it is more focused than in others, as with any kind of ability.

For most of my early life I considered this psychic capacity a curse. I was ashamed of it. I wanted to be normal. Like everybody else. In fact, I did everything I could to ignore the feelings, visions and experiences that came unbidden. In doing so I hoped that all of it would somehow just go away.

Of course it didn’t.

Still, I managed to keep a lid on things until I moved to the Kimberley and met the women who would become my Aboriginal Aunties. Under their watchful eye and gentle tutelage I began to trust my abilities and to grow in the using of them.

Then I came back to the city and did my best to shut things down. I managed to co-exist with the abilities but keep them shoved to the side most of the time, while I pursued a more ‘normal’ life. Corporate by day, psychic when no-one corporate was looking… I managed to do both, without having either world collide.

But that all changed on my thirtieth birthday.

I was staying in Sydney while I attended a conference, hoping to use the skills I was gaining to further my corporate career. The hotel hosting the program was prohibitively expensive so I’d chosen to share a room at a travellers’ hostel with another course participant – a lovely stranger named Robyn.

On the second morning of the course I woke early, and stood on my bed to peer out of the tiny high window that looked down over the beach. It was sunrise, and I hoped to see the sun come up to welcome in my thirtieth year.

Bondi Beach - photography hotspots

Bondi Beach – photography hotspots

Everything looked blurred. I rubbed and rubbed my eyes but still nothing came clear.

No, that wasn’t quite right. The people were blurry, but the landscape remained unchanged. All of the people looked as if they were encased in bubbles of translucent multi-coloured light.

It began to freak me out. Slowly I climbed down from my bed and looked across at my sleeping roomy. She was a bubble of light too.

I grabbed my towel and a change of clothes and made my way down the corridor to the women’s bathroom. Things went from bad to worse. A man walked towards me and I felt myself flinch and press myself to the wall, trying to stay out of the way of his ‘bubble’ which seemed to me to be a tangible thing. I was sure he would run into me.

After my shower more people were up and about and I became distressed as they walked past me, crowding me with their strange bubbles of light, which pressed in all around me. I felt invaded by their energy, and panicky. Something terrible was happening to me, and I worried this might be a stroke or brain tumor or some other kind of medical emergency.

Back at the room Robyn was so kind. She fetched me some water, sat beside me and asked me to explain what was happening. We came up with possibilities, including a migraine.

Eventually she went off to the course and I took myself to a local doctor and then to hospital.

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Image by Kiah VA

Even in my panic I began to notice that the bubbles of light were different colours. At the hospital many of the nurses had pink in their bubbles. Many of the doctors had a particular shade of blue, and both groups seemed to have a lot of yellow.

After seeing a couple of different people I was sent to a calm, quietly-spoken older man. A neurologist. He believed that I might be seeing auras. He had another patient who saw words as colour, and a patient who saw music as colours. He didn’t seem to be freaked out by what was happening to me. Instead he was curious, and encouraged me to be the same. I was given a referral to a practitioner back in my home state, and told to come back to emergency if I experienced mental confusion or chest pain.

I went back to the hostel feeling frightened and very much alone. I was still very panicked, hoping that these colours would wear off soon and my eyes would go back to normal. I didn’t know how I’d go home to my relatively new relationship and explain this latest shame to my boyfriend. I was sure he’d end it with me. I mean, seeing bubbles of light around people? That was the ravings of a crazy person.

How would I tell my parents? What if people found out? What if it never went away?

I worked myself into quite a state. I already had an illness no-one seemed to believe was real. (Yep, that was undiagnosed lyme disease, making my life a misery even back then!) Now I had this bizarre  awful thing happening with my eyes. My world had turned foreign and dangerous overnight. Everything looked strange. My spatial knowledge, my personal space, my sense of safety and boundaries were all being challenged. Walking, crossing the road, negotiating pedestrians and traffic – all of it was terrifying. It was as if I’d woken up in someone else’s life, or someone else’s sci-fi dream. I couldn’t turn it off. I couldn’t make it stop. All I wanted was to go to sleep and wake up the way I’d been the day before. Was this what my life had been reduced to? Was I mentally ill?

Before, I could hide the fact that I was different. Now I had no chance of that. The worst thing was I could no longer deny this to myself. How could I kid myself I was normal, or that being psychic was ‘just a phase’. What would my life look like now? What would this mean for me? I seriously considered walking to the next beach and throwing myself from the cliff there.

My roomy came back late that afternoon, and insisted in taking me downstairs to a cafe for celebratory coffee and cake. She didn’t treat me like a lunatic. Instead Robyn had bought me a birthday present – a notepad and some coloured pencils from the local newsagency. Draw what you see, she said. Draw me! And so I did my first aura reading, without knowing yet that this is what I was doing.

Robyn truly saved my life that day.

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Image from goodfon.su

This gentle wise woman held my hand, sat patiently, and talked me into staying on the course, and calling my boyfriend, Ben to tell him what had happened. By the end of the week I was even drawing auras for other people Robyn had befriended and brought to our table.

Then my dear new friend stayed in touch. She rang me after we both went back to our interstate homes, to see how I’d settled in and how my reception with Ben had gone. Robyn kept quietly encouraging me and accepting me.

And that made all the difference. She handed me a lifeline via her kindness and compassion, helping me to find my way back from a dark and frightening place. Because of Robyn I stayed present, I sat in awareness and I stopped fighting this thing that radically changed me overnight.

That’s a long time ago, and I’m used to seeing auras – around people, and animals and plants and places now too. I even know what they mean. This seemingly terrible thing has radically changed my life in so many good ways. Yes, there is some not so great stuff that comes with seeing the energy of others, all the time, but doesn’t everything have its ups and downs. It’s taken a while but I accept myself with grace and good humour. I am what I am. Just as you are what you are.

I’m sharing my story today for two reasons. One: for you to know that it’s okay to be different. You’re you for a reason. Embrace that! If it’s challenging you, sit in awareness and wait to see what happens next. Be curious and non-judgmental. Most of all be gentle with yourself. And Two: to help you understand that through kindness and compassion – even the smallest and simplest of gestures – you can radically change the path of another, and perhaps even the wider world.

Bless <3 xoxo