It’s Finished – Our Mala of Love

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“Be not forgetful of prayer. Every time you pray, if your prayer is sincere, there will be new feeling and new meaning in it, which will give you fresh courage, and you will understand that prayer is an education.”
~ Fyodor Dostoyevsky, The Brothers Karamazov

“It does not matter how long you are spending on the earth, how much money you have gathered or how much attention you have received. It is the amount of positive vibration you have radiated in life that matters.”
~ Amit Ray


Well, my lovelies, it is meditation time and I am about to begin prayers and affirmations on my new mala. Many of you are represented personally here in the beads that will move between my fingers this morning. All of you are represented on the last bead, which you’ll see above is the teardrop-shaped clear quartz before the crackle quartz Keeper Stone. There are crystal beads chosen for their energies, and wood, glass and ceramic beads chosen for their colour or symbolism. Every bead has been chosen with love and careful intent.

I’ll be praying this mala twice a day for the next thirty days. Already I have prayed and blessed each bead as I named it and strung it. Already I can say, yes, this pearl is Liz, this banded agate is PJ, this celestite is Jacob, this owl is Joanne.

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My intention for the next thirty days is to use my meditation and prayers to aid in our emotional healing, and that will be my theme in my twice-daily meditations. This is a mala for forgiveness and self-love, for ending guilt, regret, fear and shame and embracing love and flow and abundance.

Each day I’ll hold every bead, one at a time, between my fingers and pray my mantras and then a specific prayer for each bead – each person. I’ll wear this mala every day, all day, so that I carry you with me.

Today, know that I am holding you in my thoughts and prayers. That I am carrying you in my arms. That you are very much loved.

Nicole xx

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Mala Update

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“The inner voice is something which cannot be described in words. But sometimes we have a positive feeling that something in us prompts us to do a certain thing. The time when I learnt to recognise this voice was, I may say, the time when I started praying regularly.”
~ Mahatma Gandhi


I’ve been moved to tears by the many messages you’ve sent me about inclusion on my Mala of Love.

Truly, I was not expecting such an outpouring. So many of you asking not for yourselves but for those you love to be included on a bead. So many of you brave enough to finally put your hand up and say, yes, I’d like some support.

I have many more requests than I do beads.

So, what I propose to do is this:

I shall contact all of you. Be patient. That might take some time. I’ve had over five hundred messages. 106 of you shall be included on my first mala, and then one bead for my friend Liz and one bead to represent ALL OF YOU.

Thank you to everyone who asked that I include a bead for myself. I promise I will.

I will use the Keeper Bead for myself. The Keeper Bead is the bead at the beginning and end of the prayer or mantra cycle where your thumb and finger come to rest. It is both bead 0 and bead 109.

When I have finished this present mala cycle of one month, I shall make ANOTHER mala. I will allocate 107 places keeping bead 108 to represent all of you, until everyone who has contacted me has had the chance to be included in a month of  my prayers and meditations.

Once again, please be patient. It will take a good few months to pray for all of you individually.

But I shall. That’s my sacred promise to you.

Big love and hugs, Nicole xx

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Mala of Love

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“Prayer is not an old woman’s idle amusement. Properly understood and applied, it is the most potent instrument of action.”
~ Mahatma Gandhi


I meditate twice a day; once in the morning when I first wake up – at around 4am, and once in the evening before I go to bed. This has been my practice now for over thirty years. Still, I feel I am only just stepping into a place of truly understanding meditation. And there is so much more yet to learn and experience.

Anyway, I digress.

What I’d like to do on my blog this morning is make an offer. I usually meditate on a mala for at least part of my meditation session. A mala is a string of prayer beads.

Whenever I run a long retreat or course I make a mala with the intent of working for that group, with a bead for each person. Then twice a day I meditate on and pray for the students in my group. I do this for one month leading up to the course, and sometimes more. At the end of the course I gift them their bead.

My offer this morning is this: I’m about to make myself a new mala of 108 beads, that I will use for thirty days. I’m making this mala specifically to aid in emotional healing, and that will be my theme in my twice-daily meditations. It’s a mala for forgiveness and self-love, for ending guilt, regret, fear and shame and embracing love and flow and abundance.

Each day I’ll hold every bead, one at a time, between my fingers and pray my mantras and then a specific prayer for each bead – each person. I’ll wear the mala every day, all day, so that I carry you with me.

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Would you like one of those beads to be for you, or someone who you know?

That way I can hold you in my daily meditations, and you’ll know that someone loves you, and is thinking of you, holding an intent for healing, and sending energy and love to you.

There are 107 beads available, because I have already purposed one to my friend Liz.

At the end of the thirty days, I’ll send you the bead for the cost of the postage. Or if you’d prefer, I can make the bead into a necklace or your own meditation mala for you, although there would be additional cost for that to cover the materials and postage.

If you’d like me to include you, or someone you know, please contact me by leaving a message below, or over at my facebook page. I’ll then contact you within the next few days to let you know more.

I will be making the mala on Wednesday March 4th, and starting my prayer and meditation cycle on March 5th, concluding the cycle on Friday, April 3rd which is also Good Friday of the Easter Weekend.

Much love to you. Please know that I’m thinking of you, and that you’re never alone,

Nicole xx

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A Snapshot of My Psychic Life

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“Now I know what a ghost is. Unfinished business, that’s what.”
~ Salman Rushdie, The Satanic Verses


As a psychic, I can never truly plan what happens in my life. I’m in the city just now. Working.

I didn’t blog yesterday because it was one of those days .

After one of those nights.

A young girl died.

I took the call a little before ten at night, while she was still alive – but precariously, and caught a taxi to the hospital.

I was there to hold her hand until her mother came.

I held her mother in my arms after her daughter passed away.

I came home as dawn was breaking, and climbed into bed, bereft and emotionally drained.

A short time later the young girl, recently dead, began whispering in my ear. She came back again and again until she’d told me everything she felt I needed to know. I didn’t end up getting much sleep yesterday, or again last night.

Some of what the girl revealed was deeply troubling. All of it needs to be passed on to her parents.

I don’t focus on mediumship as part of my work, usually. It’s just something that happens sometimes. (You can read more here and here)

Yesterday I blew up nine lightbulbs, tripping the safety switch and plunging the house into blackness nine times. All I had to do was reach my hand out to a light switch and BANG. A bulb would blow. Sometimes my hand didn’t even make it to the switch.

After a while I left what lights were on, on. I didn’t touch any more switches. I stayed away from my computer. I stood barefoot on the earth for the longest time.

It happens like this sometimes. It’s as if all the energy builds up in me and needs somewhere to discharge.

Finally, when I was almost on my knees from being psychically available and in that heightened energy for so long, I spoke to upstairs (You know what I mean – I spoke to God, Guides, Ancestors – whoever was listening). “Enough for now, okay? I could use some time out. A break would be good.”

My husband rang five minutes later. He’d gone home to our farm to move our cattle to higher ground before the predicted heavy rain and floods later this week.

“You’ll never believe this,” he said. “I found my glasses.”

Ben lost his reading glasses a fortnight ago. He only uses them for computer work, and he usually keeps them in his computer bag in a little case. He’d had them in the bedroom at the farm, staying up one night working on his laptop. The next day when he was packing up to come back to Brisbane he couldn’t find his glasses. He searched everywhere.

Over the past two weeks we have torn both houses and the car apart, looking for them. Nothing. Finally, Ben asked me to ask my fairy friend, Sokli, who is sometimes helpful with lost things. “Oh no,” she said. “They’re not there, silly. They’re in the other place. The sometimes place.”

In other words, they were gone, so stop looking.

It has happened to us so many times before. Things disappear. Days, weeks or months later they turn up again, in plain view.

Ben’s glasses were suddenly on top of a bunch of papers in a drawer he has checked at least seven times.

Today I’ll be spending time with my friend who has just lost her daughter. I’ll be helping her navigate this terrible next part of the journey. I’ll be passing on the last of her daughter’s messages. I’ve not had much sleep this past forty-eight hours. It gets like that sometimes.

I’m still in that heightened place, psychically. It’s as if my skin holds an electrical charge. Everything looks enhanced. Brighter. More defined. My heart beats a little faster. I feel deeply in my body, and not. All at the same time.

My husband rushed back to Brisbane to be with me, so he’s in charge of turning lights on and off until things settle down again for me, energetically speaking.

He knows, and I know, that when this is all over I shall crash in a heap for a while. That’s just how it is.

This is what it is to be psychic. This is my life…

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The Winner of the Chlorite Phantom Quartz

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“Home is not where you live but where they understand you.”
~ Christian Morgenstern


I’m so happy to announce that the winner of this beautiful little Chlorite Phantom Quartz Crystal is:

Pauline Longdon 

Congratulations, Pauline! I know you’ll take good care of her, and I look forward to hearing all about your adventures together.

For those of you who entered but didn’t win, thank you for supporting my blog! It means so much to me that you are here, sharing the journey, and being part of my community.

Stay tuned over the next few months as I give away a few more special stones from my personal collection.

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In other news, Ben is feeling much better and so is Harry. My biggest issue will be keeping both of them quiet during their recoveries now that we are back at the farm.

Now I’m off to water my vegetable garden before the heat of the day, harvest my cherry tomato glut, and plan out some kitchen time. I feel the yearn to cook!

PS – It’s so good to be home!!!

Win a Chlorite Phantom Quartz

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“The world is full of magic things, patiently waiting for our senses to grow sharper.”
~ W.B. Yeats


Hello Lovelies,

I promised that during our Journal Challenge I would be having some giveaways, and here is the most precious of them all. A stone from my own personal and much-loved collection.

This is only a small crystal – in fact, as you can see from the picture, it is just over an inch long and oh so magical. Alas my photos don’t do this stone justice. There are whole worlds inside this crystal.

But size truly is irrelevant. This is a powerhouse of a stone! This crystal is a Chlorite Phantom Quartz – an Australian stone, from the wilds of the west coast of Tasmania. Originally the crystal stopped growing, and then was covered with a mineral called chlorite. At some stage the crystal began growing again and now the original crystal is still apparent inside the larger stone – a crystal inside a crystal. That is why it is now called a Phantom. Other names include a Ghost stone or a shadow or spectre crystal.

This Phantom Quartz will help to focus your meditations, and to connect you with your guides. Additionally, with the energy of the Chlorite Phantom, this stone can help you connect deeply with the Great Mother (Earth), nature, and the devic kingdom (all of those lovely fairies and their friends). It will reawaken your memories of similar connections from other lives, and gently open you up to your spiritual and metaphysical gifts.

Additionally, I programmed this crystal during the 2012 Transit of Venus as a Devotional Crystal. This makes the stone exceptionally powerful as a tool of personal transformation.

For a chance to win this magical crystal add your name to the comments at the bottom of the page for a place in the draw. For additional entries in the draw go over to the Cauldrons and Cupcakes facebook page. Add your name to the post about the crystal draw and get an additional place. If you share this post or the facebook post on social media you get five extra places in the draw for every share.

I’ll put all of your names into a hat and make the final draw at 4pm Brisbane time on Sunday November 23. The winner will be announced on facebook straight after the draw, and then on the blog the following day.

Good Luck!

Nicole xoxo

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Journal Challenge Week 3 – After The Rain

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“You have to get through the rain if you’re ever going to see a rainbow.”
~ Karen White, After The Rain


Hello Lovelies, and welcome to Week 3 of our Journal Challenge!

If you’ve only just found us now, it’s not too late to go back and start at the beginning. That’s the beauty of journalling. It waits for us, and works with our own time-frames.

Have you ever gone outside after a really good downpour? The world looks washed clean. The air is fresh and cool, and once again vibrant with possibility. Even tired, jaded places take on a soft beauty. It’s hard not to believe in new beginnings in the light of such positive energy.

Before we launch into Week 3, let’s have a quick recap of the last two weeks of journalling:

1. In Week One we called on our own insights to discover where we have held ourselves back, what worries us, and what we might do to bring more balance, healing, sustainability and joy into our lives.


2. In Week Two we bravely called upon the love, wisdom and strength of our Ancestors as we tackled our patterns of resentment, the excuses we use that prevent us growing and moving forward, the areas and relationships where we hold resentment, and the things in our life over which we feel shame. We then looked at how to turn all of this hurt into wisdom, helping us to reclaim the aspects of ourselves that we had shunned.

This week, with our dawning awareness of self we’re going to ask more questions, look from new perspectives and in doing so identify our endings and beginnings.

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Let’s Begin!

Choosing a Crystal

You may wish to choose a crystal to work with this week. It is entirely optional, and you’d be fine without one too – but for my fellow rock lovers, read on…

You can hold this crystal as you write or meditate, place it under your pillow or beside your bed while you sleep, or carry it in your pocket to help you stay focused.

You could choose your stone based on what most appeals to you. That’s a very valid approach. But if you need a little direction, good crystals to work with this week include:

  • Aventurine
  • Any of the Obsidians
  • Lapis Lazuli
  • Fluorite
  • Ruby in Zoisite
  • Opal
  • Tiger Eye
  • Blue Kyanite
  • Clear Quartz, with or without inclusions
  • Moss Agate

This week I’m wearing my crystal – a beautiful and delicately carved Buddha of Tiger Eye. If you’re working with a crystal too why not tell us about it by leaving a comment below or over at our facebook page. I’ll also be holding my Clear Quartz from Week 1.

Two crystals, I hear you ask? You bet. I can feel it’s going to be a BIG week of breakthroughs for me, so why not! :)

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Week Three Meditation:

This week’s simple meditation gets us out of our head and back in our body!

The Seed Meditation

If possible do this meditation outside, on the ground. If weather or illness prevents this, improvise with your imagination and do your best.

Kneel or sit on the ground and curl yourself into a little ball. You might hunch your shoulders over and drop your arms into your lap or use them to grab your knees, or place your forehead on the ground in the yoga child pose. Whatever you do,let your mind and body relax.

Now imagine that you are a tiny seed, cradled safely within the nourishing soil of the earth. You are warm, safe and deeply rested. Rain has activated you, and you can feel the possibility of life within you.

One finger begins to stretch, like the tendril of a small vine. Feel the energy of waking up begin to course through you. Feel yourself wanting to grow.

Slowly allow your arms to move and stretch. As your arms move like the shoots from a small seed seeking sunlight, all ow your shoulders and the rest of your body to gently rise, until you find yourself standing, or in an upright seated position.

Keep stretching upwards, swaying and reaching for the sky. Let the energy of growth completely fill you. Take some deep breaths and allow yourself to connect to the life force of earth, water, sun and air. When you’re ready, open your eyes.

Sit in this energy a little longer and be open to any thoughts, images or ideas that come.

Finally, shake out your arms and legs, take six breaths deep into your belly, letting your body relax completely.

Now you’re ready to write!

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Journal Questions:

You can choose any or all of the questions below. Some will be asked as traditional questions, and some are sentences that give you a place to start by leaving a space for you to complete that sentence.

I suggest going with what resonates and repels for a good balance. Write as much or as little as you need. It could be three words or three pages. Spread it out over a week, or spend a solid hour or two over one day – it’s up to you!

If you’re using a crystal, hold it in your non-writing hand, or place it in your lap or pocket. Feel free to get yourself a beverage, or to sit in a coffee shop while you do this. Enjoy the process!

Let a feeling of gentle excitement and possibility dwell with you this week as we start pulling things together. Your writing and your ideas will begin to start forming shapes and directions. You’ll be at the edge of clarity.

After the rain we can see everything in a kinder light. We accept what is, and may even begin to see some beauty where before we found none.

Ready? Let’s go!


Talking about Endings:

  1. I’ve decided that I no longer want to…
  2. I’m actually okay with letting go of…
  3. I suddenly see that holding onto _______ is not doing me any favours because________
  4. It’s okay for me to stop doing…
  5. I’m going to simplify my life by finishing…
  6. The person I still need to forgive is….
  7. The thing I still need to forgive myself for is….
  8. The dream I’ve outgrown is…
  9. I need to stop…
  10. By the end of this year I’ll finalise…
  11. I don’t need to do it all myself! I’m going to delegate or get help with…
  12. The biggest project I need to get done is…
  13. The fastest project I can finish and put behind me is…
  14. The project or situation I am procrastinating about the most is…
  15. In 2014 I’m going to wrap up and complete…

Inviting Beginnings:

  1. Even though it’s challenging for me, I know I need to start…
  2. The dream that is dearest to me and that scares me the most is…
  3. A tangible step I can take toward that dream is _____________ and I could start __________
  4. I need to acknowledge that the strength inside me I most take for granted is…
  5. I’m really good at…
  6. I’ve always wanted to work at…
  7. My heart is yearning to…
  8. In 2015 I’d be excited to…
  9. I’ve decided that instead of seeing these parts of me as a flaw or a weakness, I’m going to embrace and acknowledge my _________
  10. My 2015 support crew will include…
  11. What holiday could I plan for myself that I will really look forward to?
  12. What new thing would I like to learn in 2015?
  13. What small adventures or outings will gladden my heart?
  14. How can I make myself feel more beautiful for 2015?
  15. To what music will I dance, create and grow? What can be the soundtrack of my life for 2015?
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You may also find it useful to listen to this simple guided meditation for Abundance and Blessings:

Do pop over to our facebook page this week. There will be some rune guidance for you. I’ll be giving away some lovely surprises and there will also be an online party next Friday evening (14th Nov – Brisbane time) where I’ll be available to answer your questions and have some fun!

Big hugs to you and lots of love, Nicole xx