I drove from my farm to Brisbane very early this morning, leaving before dawn. To be honest, I was feeling a little flat. It’s something I know you can all relate to. Sometimes life just weighs you down a little.
As much as I love my work, I felt sad to be leaving my husband and animals for a week, and the energy of my land, and the love and support they all give me.
I am in the middle of a stoush with my insurance company for a property badly damaged in the floods over a year ago. Still nothing has been resolved, nothing repaired, nothing agreed to. This week I really need to take the fight to the next level. It’s exhausting and relentless.
My heart is bothering me, as much as I am hoping for it to settle down. The heat of the past week or so has seen me gasping like a fish and unable to do farm work or even gardening. The tightness in my chest is back. I have had to rest, to take things easy, to sit or lie down when I would prefer to be active and involved. This week I had to watch as neighbours lent a hand to do the cattle work I would normally do. I’m grateful for their kindness and their help, but I’m aching for my life to get back to normal.
So I am driving to Brisbane, feeling a little blue, with the work week stretched ahead of me. Suddenly the cabin of my ute fills with the scent of full-blown roses. A great feeling of peace comes over me. I feel a warm unseen hand on my own as it rests on the steering wheel. It feels as if a golden river of light infuses me.
“Courage, my dear.”
Those simple words, spoken as if by someone right beside me.
I know it is my Great-Aunt, who passed many years ago. She is always recognised by the scent of roses. She looks out for the women in my family. Today she looked out for me.
I am buoyed by this wonderful energy, love and connection. I am reminded of my own strength, and the strength of my family line.
And I am shown, once again, that love and connection are eternal – stretching well beyond our own lifetimes. I’ll get through this. These trivialities of life are nothing in the end.
Sometimes comfort and support come from the most unexpected places. ♥