Recently I was driving from my farm back to Brisbane, a two hour drive – mostly along a highway – so that I could begin a stretch of work.
The trip started well. I made good time, it was a beautiful day, and I was enjoying some music, singing along as I drove. The first hour passed quickly and I began thinking about the next day’s psychic appointments, and the clients I’d be seeing.
But then I started to feel a little nauseous. I began to feel a little anxious.
There was no reason to. The traffic was flowing freely. The weather was perfect. I was well rested and stress-free, and it was a beautiful day.
My palms began to sweat.
I was travelling in the far right-hand lane. That’s the faster lane in Australia. Suddenly I began to feel very exposed and unsafe, with the traffic roaring past in the opposite direction just metres from me, separated by a garden bed, and in places a wire rope barrier of sorts.
I felt worse and worse. That horrible premonition of impending doom. I wondered if I should call my husband, just in case…
But that was silly. There was nothing wrong.
It got to the point where I could no longer stay in that outside lane. I dropped back into a middle lane, and drove more slowly. Still I couldn’t get that feeling out of my mind, that the traffic on the other side of the road was dangerous – too fast, too close. I began to drive strategically, so that I was shielded from them by a car in the outside lane.
After a while even that didn’t feel any better. I dropped over another lane, so there were two lanes and more cars between me and the oncoming traffic on the other side of the highway. I felt like I was in a war zone, nervously anticipating the next attack. By now I wasn’t even joking with myself that I might be a bit mental. Instead I was working very hard to stay calm, and to stay on the road. I felt like I was about to be hit by an oncoming car at any minute. I could see it and feel it as if it was unfolding in front of me.
Finally the premonition overwhelmed me, and I actually pulled right over to the left and into an emergency stopping bay. My heart was pounding, and I was close to tears.
I stayed that way for about ten minutes, hands clenched on the steering wheel, unable to drive. Eventually the feeling passed, and I nudged my car back onto the bitumen.
Just around the bend in the road the traffic slowed. Then it stopped. I turned on the radio. Traffic banked up all around me. A sea of stationary vehicles. They broadcast a traffic report – just ahead of us a car had left the other side of the highway and crashed through the barrier before plowing into five cars. It was a very serious accident, and the highway was now closed in both directions.
I shut down my engine. I called my husband. And then I prayed for all of the people involved in the accident, the emergency services workers who were helping them, and the families and friends who would pick up the pieces.
I really believe that my premonition saved my life. I felt simultaneously guilty and relieved. Guilty, because I was safe. Relieved, because it hadn’t happened to me.
It was a long, slow trip back to Brisbane, taking nearly five hours. It was agonising to edge past the crash site when they finally opened one lane to traffic again. I could feel the crash, I could feel the panic and the horror and the finality. The feeling didn’t leave me. The people didn’t leave me. That’s what it’s like for me, being psychic. It’s a blessing, and a raw wound.
But I was safe. I went back to my home in Brisbane, lit some candles, took out my Tibetan Prayer Bowl, and meditated and prayed until bed.
I’m so happy you’re fine, but i understand your guilt feeling too. I felt the same any time I escaped an accident where others were injured
So glad you are safe Nicole! You so humbly and sincerely convey through your blogs the beauty and the great responsibility of spiritual gifts.
You are a treasure of a being bestowed upon this world.
Bless You <3 ….Ura
Oh Ura… thank you ♥ and much love to you too xoxo
Hi Nicole, I’m crying as I write this and I have experienced what you experienced so I was feeling very anxious all the way through your post and was screaming at you to just PULL OVER! And finally, you did 🙂 Devastating for those who didn’t but I’m relieved to hear you are okay but I know how distressing it is and I can be disturbed for days after an episode like that.
Big love ♥♥
I’m so grateful that you’re safe. Wow. Blessings. Know that you are still meant to be in this world, and that we (even those who only know you from afar/online) are blessed by your good work.
~Mia
Oh my gosh. I am glad that you are safe. Terrifying! And how strange it must feel to know that you are lucky and to feel for those who were not.
So much love and light to you and all involved. I was thinking this morning how trauma just sticks to you sometimes and those flashes can protect and haunt. Being raw, open and vulnerable to all the world holds is sometimes quite a journey. Gratitude for all you do and are.
An excellent example of why it’s important to pay attention to your instincts, this must have been very upsetting for you. I can’t help wondering if anyone else on the road at the same time had the same sort of premonition, particularly any of those involved in the crash. It’s inexplicable isn’t it, how you would know in advance of an accident like this, but then this is what you mean by being psychic isn’t it? I sometime have these sorts of fears but then they come to nothing, or so it would appear. Maybe I have avoided dreadful things by listening to my gut, I just don’t know it. Did the driver of the car that crashed through the barrier know that this was going to happen, I wonder? Could he/she have prevented it if they’d listened to their gut instinct? I’m very glad you’re safe, and that you took the time to pray for those less fortunate, your instinctive reactions are inspiring.
It’s a perfect example of listening to our intuition isn’t it? I am reading and hearing about this more and more. So glad Nicole is okay. And very sad about those who weren’t…
How frightening and tragic but I am so glad you are okay.
Pretty scary experience for you. Glad you are safe.
Wow Nicole reading this story made me cry. Thank you for sharing and I hope you’re doing ok. A big reminder to trust our gut and those feelings.. It won’t lead us astray x
Absolutely! I’m fine. Thank you so much for your kind words, Jo. Yes, listen to your gut!
Much love to you xoxo
So glad you are safe Nicole and for your lesson in following your intuition & to not dismiss these feelings. Blessings to ALL involved in this misfortune. Life is precious for sure…XXXX
It is a great responsibility this gift, both a blessing and burden not to be glamourised. Wishing you peace. Sx
Blessings on all those involved. May those still with us recover in all ways and may those who have passed journey sweetly to the light.
…and may we celebrate life and you Nicole and your guides for saving your precious life
Breathing this day in…
Love and ((( HUGS )))
Way to honor yourself and feelings. Our bodies communicate with us all the time. Most of the time we just brush it off or downplay it. I am glad you chose to listen to yourself and are safe. It is so very sad about the accident and all involved. Sending love and light to you and everyone affected.
Nicole I got goosebumps and your story brought tears to my eyes. I reaaly felt for you and the other people. At the same time I felt I was getting a message to really pay closer attention to my feelings and follow and listen more to my knowing
In gratitude and blessings xxoo
Wow, that’s quite a story/experience. I’m glad you’re safe. Sorry about the other people involved though.
I am so enjoying your guided imagery clip, that I found here a while back. It has really helped me. 🙂