“My head aches, my eyes burn, my arms and legs have given up, and my face in the mirror has a grayish cast. The bed, across the room, calls in its unmistakable lover’s croon, Come to me, come, only I can make you truly happy, oh, how happy I’ll make you, don’t resist, remember how you moan with pleasure the instant we touch…..”
~ Lynne Sharon Schwartz, Fatigue Artist
It had to happen.
I’ve been travelling so well these past weeks. Feeling almost normal, almost human, almost well.
And then I began to herx. That thing Lyme sufferers do when the bacteria inside you die off with a flourish, dumping toxins and misery into your systems.
Herxing is a good thing – it means that all of these wretched pathogens are being slaughtered by my heavy-duty drug regime and shall bother me no more. Once I get past their death throes…
So I went to bed on Saturday afternoon, and am only emerging now, on Monday (hahaha, have just been pointed out that I’ve missed a whole extra day!) Tuesday morning after a fever-soaked delirious haze of agony. I’m wrung out and I feel like I’ve been run over by a bulldozer, but weirdly, I’m happy.
My mind is clear, and I can feel a huge shift. I’m crossing off more of that Lyme Load on my return to health. And I’m ready for a drug re-adjustment, which shall happen at my doctors’ meeting next Monday.
We’ll return to normal blogging tomorrow. Right now, I’m taking my cup of tea and going back to bed.
Much love to you all, Nicole xx
Bloody hell – so NOT fair – I am so angry with the the disease that saps your beautiful energy. I know you will get through this as you always do but I cannot understand how and why a person of such integrity and empathy and givingness would have to go through this hell – so sorry Nicole but so worried about you and sending love with all of my clumsy words!
Sis, Take care! Get well! Cheers!
I love ‘What The Fox Say ‘ ha ha !!!really coooooooolll
Cherry again x
Gosh Nicole did we all miss you . So lovely to have you back after your rest . Enjoy your cuppa and look after yourself. It’s bonfire night here in G.B so happy bonfire to you and your readers .
Cherry x
so glad you back on the road of recovery, wish you well my friend
Very pleased you are back on line. I was worried about you and trusted all would be well. Welcome back ! xx
Some days we just have to break our routine & attend to different priorities than those we had planned. Rest easy Nicole xo
Don’t ever feel the need to apologize for not blogging. We understand. I’m happy that you did though because it means you are feeling a bit better, which is what we all wish for you. Love to you xox ps I have never heard of herxing. It sounds disgusting. I’m sorry you have to go through that.
It’s worrisome when you don’t post, so was happy to read that you are feeling better and that this particular herxing episode has inched you further along the path of wellness. I’m off to meditate in front of one of those lotus cakes …. Have a great day Nicole xox
Enjoy your day of rejuvanation as much as you can!
Love, healing, and well-wish-happy vibes,
Kiera
You are such a trooper. Thank you for your strength and courage and keeping us in the loop. Big health and hug bubble coming your way Nx
the fox says “hope you feel better real soon nicole!” i watched it and it certainly made me feel better! my mother told me that they were on the ellen degeneres show here in the states and it made my 88 year old mother feel good watching ylvis perform with ellen. she had to call and tell me about them!
I’d never heard about it until this morning, but it’s very catchy! Made me smile too.
And now I’m thinking about what sound a fox makes… Madness.
😀 xoxo
so glad you are feeling better…this is a really long hard recovery…heres some love
Thank you. Gratefully received xx
Take it easy sweetness. If you feel like watching something strangely amusing, search “What the Fox Say” on Youtube. 🙂
I did. Oh my goodness. Ben should write songs… 😛 Love you xx