“I still think that everyone’s life, no matter how unremarkable, has a singular tragic encounter after which everything that really matters will happen. That moment is the catalyst – the first step in the equation. But knowing the first step will get you nowhere – it’s what comes after that determines the result.”
~ Robyn Schneider, The Beginning of Everything
It’s a little over a year since I began my treatment for Lyme and various co-infections, and this morning my husband is taking me back to my doctor to get the results of a huge barrage of tests to see what progress I have actually made since beginning my drug and herb regime.
There will be a lot to talk about. In this past month I have had brain scans, heart scans, bone scans, and innumerable blood tests. Among other things…
I admit to being nervous. I want for this appointment to go well. I want to hold in my hands some tangible proof that all of this suffering has been worth it in the name of progress.
Truth be told, despite the horrendous nature of the drugs, and the herxing, and the misery, I really do believe that I have turned the corner. My brain is working again. I can feel a strength in me that wasn’t there even a month ago. But will this feeling translate into some kind of scientific evidence?
Yes, I am the psychic who needs proof. I don’t want to trust ‘just a feeling’. I want that feeling validated by objective data!
This morning I’ve meditated, sipped tea, hurried down a little food so that I could take my meds, and now I’m dressed and ready to go just as the sun is coming up. It’s a long drive, and today I will be the first appointment in my doctor’s day. Oh, the butterflies in my stomach. Oh, the apprehension.
Fingers crossed…
I promise I’ll let you know how it all goes. 🙂
I have just started following your Blog – oh, about 2 months ago. I look forward to reading it. I live in Alberta, Canada and reading your blog makes me feel like I’m touching the soul of a special person on the other side of the world – haha – which you are. I wish you all the best – stay positive and I’m sure you also know you have the ability to heal yourself. Our bodies are truly a miracle machine.
Wishing you the best of luck Nicole 🙂
I hope all went well today and the results were marvellous. Thinking of you.
XXX
I have been following your blog for a long time now , Nicole , and I have fingers , toes and the in between bits all crossed good luck my sweet .
Cherry x and Oscar ( he has his paws crossed )
Look forward to hear results! Your amazing! Sending love & prayers!
Saying a prayer for you!
You are in my thoughts and prayers as per usual, how was your Mother’s Day mine was bloody awesome
Sending positive energy and loving thoughts. I believe you will receive the positive data you need. xxxx
Good luck out there blossom-possum 🙂
Nx
Thinking of you and sending huge support waves your way Nicole – I am also so-o-o hoping for good news Huge hugs X
I do hope you get the positive results deserving of your suffering. You are amazing.
I hope all goes well for you.
May the stars and the results all align for you Nicole. You will have lots of virtual support in that room today I know! Much love Nikki 🙂
Light, love, luck and grace be with you. Just breathe and keep smiling your beautiful smile! 💜much love, Sue xxx
Thinking of you! Wishing you positive scientific evidence. 🌺
Wishing for wonderful results!
My thoughts go with you
My thoughts are with you Nicole! And my fingers and toes are crossed on your behalf! Hoping you get the positive scientific data that you’ve strived so long, and bravely for ! Sending lots of love & hugs your way!
Thanks lovely Paula! (((HUGS)))
P.S. I am going with your “quietly confident” as a pretty good validation!
Wishing you hear the evidence you need this morning; there has to be some confirmation of improvement if you are feeling so noticeably different. love Gabs
Let’s hope so! I am quietly confident, but also nervous as anything *grins stupidly*