“To conquer frustration, one must remain intensely focused on the outcome, not the obstacles.”
― T.F. Hodge“A bruise is a lesson… and each lesson makes us better.”
― George R.R. Martin, A Game of Thrones“The lotus is the most beautiful flower, whose petals open one by one. But it will only grow in the mud. In order to grow and gain wisdom, first you must have the mud — the obstacles of life and its suffering. … The mud speaks of the common ground that humans share, no matter what our stations in life. … Whether we have it all or we have nothing, we are all faced with the same obstacles: sadness, loss, illness, dying and death. If we are to strive as human beings to gain more wisdom, more kindness and more compassion, we must have the intention to grow as a lotus and open each petal one by one. ”
― Goldie Hawn
Hi Lovelies, I thought I’d better update you on why I’ve been so quiet…
One of the drugs I’ve been on for my Lyme treatment has an unfortunate side effect in some people of shortening and stiffening ligaments and tendons. As they lose their elasticity they become prone to tears and rupture.
A few weeks ago I tore ligaments in my right knee as I was getting into bed. It’s healing, slowly, but it has certainly slowed me down. Then on Monday night after I came home from my Lyme Doctor I had a tear and a bleed in my left Achilles tendon caused by Harry the dog bumping into me.
Rolling over in bed a few nights later I ripped ligaments in my right shoulder and injured tendons in my right thumb.
I would not be lying to say that right now I’m feeling a little over it. 🙁 If I were really truthful, I might even admit to having indulged in a full-on howly little emotional breakdown for a minute or two.
So for now I am on bed rest, being well looked after, and trying not to injure myself further until these drugs get out of my system.
I’m also not having such a fun time on the new ligament-friendly lyme meds I’m on either (think vomiting, pain, blurred vision and misery) although that’s a whole other story…
But on an up note I AM getting better. It’s just a lesson in patience right now, like typing this blog with my left hand so at least it’s done, even if it is a very slow process.
This morning my mum rang, and gently suggested I should try and blog something, anything, just to let you all know that I am okay.
I am mostly okay. 🙂 Really.
Forgive me if my blogging remains a bit erratic until I get my body under control. We’re working on it, but like most things, it shall take time. Still, I’m already feeling a bit brighter. Fingers crossed this uphill trend shall continue. I’ll post as I can, so stay tuned.
Thinking of you and sending love, Nicole xx
PS – here’s a useful little quote for times like these:
Sending much love to you, Nicole! I wish there was a hug button instead of a like button, because I obviously don’t like hearing about torn tendons and ligaments. Please consider my like as such!
Wishing you peace and health
Hey Gorgeous One, you are in a mega-tough spot right now however we know that you are in the love and tender gentle care of Beautiful Ben and your doggy lads, and you have an awesome amount of love and healing support from all of us who love you from a distance. Much much love and light to you and your body as it gets you on the path to better days bella. Mwah!! xx
Thank you for sharing so heartfully and truthfully what is going on for you right now Nicole .. you are remarkable and truly inspirational in telling it like it is … a rare and precious gift … sending you mega love and hugs and may the month of July bring great gifts of healing and health to you xo Lynn Solang
You are the most amazing woman. You have the personal strength of the largest dinosaur even known to man. I am always just so blown away by what you can tolerate and how you keep going without going completely bonkers. You are a testament to the power of faith and believing in oneself. You are getting better every day. So sorry those drugs keep kicking your butt. It must mean they are doing their job. I only wish they could be a little kinder to you. love, pamela
Wishing you a speedy return. Love and positive thoughts coming your way. xx
It’s always lovely to read your blogs, but your health is infinitely more important. The course is long and bumpy…but you’re going to cross the finish line stronger and healthier than ever! Sending prayers for massive healing your way. –Lucinda xo
Nicole so glad to read this blog. Such a pity the meds are so woefully strong and causing all that trouble, but so glad to read this and know you are writing away however gingerly now so that you don’t hurt yourself further..massive warm get well wishes and much love your way. Keep on keeping on. X
Sending you loads and loads of love and healing light.. 🌈🍀✨❤️
Oh and a big big hug😊
Cry, cry, cry! Let it out and let the warmth and healing in! xxx You are one very brave lady Nicole, you always find goodness and courage, you truly deserve the best! xxx I read your emails from here in the UK and always send you warm thoughts. You are truly an inspiration to many and I always look forward to hearing from you. Best love, kind thoughts and tender healing to you xx
There is nothing to forgive,
but maybe my own feelings of wanting to kill those who create such drugs which cause more damage than good, and that there are so many people suffering needlessly even if they are magnanimous spirits in how they perceive it. I bow to you.
Given your circumstances the blog was great. So sorry though to hear all the pain and frustration. It’s amazing what you can do and find when you’re bed ridden with a laptop. Look after yourself and look forward to hearing the recovery story.
I’m sending healing Nicole.
You are okay. You are allowed to howl at the moon, sky, sun and stars. You are allowed to rest. A lot. xox
Sending all good thoughts and wishes that you continue to heal (albeit a bit more quickly and without such pain) and feel better each day..
Aarrgghhh! Really, that is too much for one woman to bear. I love that picture of the screaming girl by the way – perfect. Here’s to temporary road blocks on the way to perfect wellness xo
Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers, Nicole. I am experiencing health issues as well and in constant pain, but this too shall pass! Hang in there, Nicole. 🙂
Sending much love and healing to you.
Sending loving and healing thoughts your way. Joan
I hold you in my heart. Your are amazing. Lots of love
Aaaah big hugs Nicole – so appreciate your update. When I don’t get your blogs I realise how much I enjoy them! Sending lots of healing e-love and e-hugs X
I’ve ben thinking of you also and just knew that you were having a rough patch so I sent some healing love your way . Please rest and heal and don’t worry about us… we do miss you thoughHeres some more ALOHA from me and the dogies.
Poor you I was sending out a search party . So lovely to hear from you …rest dear one .
Cherryx
Lovely Nicole, so sorry to hear of your latest battle. I’d have a sulk and a wallow for a while myself. You are handling these travails so beautifully. I have been loving your meditations. They’ve been helping me in an interesting health journey – not nearly as interesting as your though 🙂 So thank you for your soothing words. x ML
Much love and healing love to you from me…x
Hoping you mend quickly! <3 tendon & ligament pain is awful! It's been such a long and uphill battle for you. Your strength of spirit is amazing! So many would've folded by now. I thank your mother for her gentle suggestion, as I was beginning to worry. You take care and rest your weary body. Much love to you Nicole! <3
i agree with rhonda! sx
I think you have every right to be raging at the universe about now – you deserve a break! xo
Sorry to hear you are having such a hard time. sending you good vibes and love xxxxFaith
I pray. It’s all I can do. Much love
Dear Nicole sending you much much love as you transition through this next stage of your journey. Your authenticity, honesty, courage and deep humaness are so inspiring and I am deeply grateful to you for sharing it and giving me the opportunity to grow with you. Love Nikki XX
Ah – what a long tunnel! But there is light waiting for you – I am sure of that! It feels like you will reap some unexpected rewards as you heal now– I am sending great green healing energies – the color of not quite ripe limes. Be blessed and comfortable.