“There is freedom waiting for you,
On the breezes of the sky,
And you ask “What if I fall?”
Oh but my darling,
What if you fly?”
~ Erin Hanson
Yesterday was quite a remarkable day for me. In the morning I drove to the other side of town for a meeting with an illustrator who’s joining my team. We’ll be working on a few projects together, including a tarot deck, oracle cards and a fairy book. Squeeeeeeee!!!
From there I drove to a supplier to pick up a few things. Then I was STARVING and also quite urgently needing to pee, so I drove a little further to a shopping mall at Carindale where I was able to use the rest rooms and then eat some lunch.
Lunch was slightly delayed though. As I wandered the huge mall, trying to orient myself and find a lunch spot I saw a woman coming towards me, crying and in obvious distress. She stopped me to ask me where the bathrooms were, and as I touched her arm to ask if she was okay information and images flooded through me. She had just been told that her Nana had died. A lady who had brought her up, and been a steadying influence for a dysfunctional family.
“I’m so sorry about your Nana,” I said to her without thinking. “She loved you very much.”
The woman lifted her head in panic and stared at me. “How do you know that?”
“I’m psychic,” I said. “Sometimes I just know things.”
The woman began crying harder so I led her over to a bench and we sat down together.
I sat and waited as she cried. She needed someone with her, and I knew it was wrong to try and comfort her; she needed to feel her feelings.
Finally she calmed and asked me about a necklace I was wearing. It’s my meditation mala I made for my recent Temple of Light retreat. I explained that each crystal represented a student, and that the final few crystals represented my family, my community and the world. I then took my mala off and showed her how I used it to meditate and pray for them all twice a day.
“Could you pray for my Nana?” she asked me.
So I held her hands and we sat in the middle of Carindale with our heads bowed and our eyes closed and I prayed aloud for her grandmother, and for this woman and her family, and I asked for her Ancestors and Angels to gather around them and watch over them all.
After which we talked about death and souls and love, and how souls and love are eternal. Finally comforted and okay the woman thanked me. We hugged and then went our own ways. I’d never even learned her name or given mine.
A few minutes later I was sitting in a little corner of a sushi restaurant, watching the plates come towards me in an endless stream of yumminess. Now I began to cry. Not over the events with the distressed woman – anyone who knows me will tell you that my daily life inevitably looks like that. I’m here to be of service. My door is always open and my light is always on. Somehow, people find me when they need me. No, I wasn’t crying about that. I was crying about freedom.
I was sitting on my own in a sushi restaurant. I had driven myself from one side of town to the other, I’d merged with other cars on the freeway, I’d negotiated traffic, I’d parked the car, done hill-starts in a manual car on a steep road, visited places of business, enjoyed a fruitful design meeting about projects I had shelved several times due to poor health, and now I was in a fancy shopping mall buying myself lunch. After which I would drive myself home. ALL ON MY OWN after ten years of relying on Ben to drive me almost everywhere, and for the past five years of having been almost a complete prisoner to illness that had stopped me driving.
I was free. And it felt like a miracle.
After lunch I drove myself home and immediately rang my sister to share the adventures of my morning. Later that afternoon I drove to my elderly mother-in-law’s to drop off some groceries, make her dinner and keep her company. It was a very full day indeed.
Wow.
That’s all I have for yesterday… Wow. I got my life back. After years of suffering all kinds of horrors due to Lyme disease I am finally well enough to reclaim my independence.
Wow.
Thanks for sticking by me as I’ve walked this long road. I’m not done yet, but I’m well on my way. I think that deserves a few tears at a sushi train!
Sending the biggest love and hugs your way, Nicole ❤ xoxo
PS – if you want to join me for the last retreat of the year you can find out more here: Soul Sanctuary – Working With Crystals. But it’s almost full, so please act quickly. I won’t be running this particular retreat again any time soon, so this is your one chance for this one, and it’s going to be AMAZING!
You rock Nicole. You should be very proud of yourself.
Yayyy! <3 <3 <3
You are a beautiful inspiration.
You Go Girl !!!
Dear Nicole!! I am immensely happy for you!! You are a fine example of the miracle of coming out from the other side. I wish you many continued self-propelled outings!
It’s a magnificent life, Nicole. Thanks for sharing some of yours with me x
How wonderful to enjoy life the way you want to – hip hip hurray for you!
Dearest Nicole,
Its heart warming to see you reclaim your Independence in definitive steps. It’s positively encouraging for many of us. We enjoyed the day thoroughly just by reading your adventures as well. And lucky that lady had you by her side when she was shattered from the loss of her Nana.
Lots of love,
What a journey – wow indeed as you have wowed us with your approach to this journey. Inspirational – thank you for all you have taught in the process. Hugs x
JOY TO THE WORLD! I’m so happy for you, Nicole. You’re GLOWING. Sending tons of LOVE xox
Great to see you being so well
How absolutely fantastic. Well done you. It must have taken a lot of courage to take those first few steps (wheel rotations of the car) Brava!
Nicole I love following your journey. So happy and glad that you have your life back on track. Wishing you love and light!💕
That’s awesome, Nicole. Freedom! So thrilled for you. I can’t imagine how you feel after 10 years…
Wonderful news about the new artist on your team and your plans… can’t wait to see the results… What another exciting adventure!
xoxoxo
Freedom! Yeah Nicole!!
Xxx
Wow indeed Nicole! I am so excited for you!!! Hooray for independance❤️ And hooray for all those who supported you when you needed help❤️ And what a blessing for this lady to come across you.
And what amazing plans you have! Already looking forward to your tarot deck, oracle cards and fairy book!! ❤️💛💚💙💜
That was so beautiful to read Nicole, so so happy for you xx
Great to read!
Being independent is a wonderful feeling, is it not…………………..
Do you know how happy it makes me feel to read of your Lone Ranger adventures, Nicole?
Offering gratitude for the “Wow” moments in your day xx
Sending blessings to the young woman who now needs to negotiate life without the physical presence of her Nana. I get a strong feeling that that is not the last time you will meet each other 😀
So happy for you Nicole, you deserve all the joy, freedom and delicious sushi you can handle xxx
Your are now soaring and gliding, no schackles 💖💖💖
How wonderful! So very, very wonderful! I love the story and I love your pic–that great smile you are wearing says it all. I am so happy for you, Nicole.
Love and blessings,
Anne
How absolutely AwesomE Much Love <3 <3 <3
So happy for you Nicole ❤️🍷💥
You’re amazing! And looking stunning! 💞 Xx
Nicole I am so excited and happy for you! You are always amazing and there for us all, you go girl!!!! Xxxxx
Yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay go you good thing!!!!!?!!!?
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This is wonderful Nicole – how freeing. Made me smile
Jacq xx