“Have you ever seen the dawn? Not a dawn groggy with lack of sleep or hectic with mindless obligations and you about to rush off on an early adventure or business, but full of deep silence and absolute clarity of perception? A dawning which you truly observe, degree by degree. It is the most amazing moment of birth. And more than anything it can spur you to action. Have a burning day.”
~ Vera Nazarian
I had a rough day yesterday, and then a rough night. In this week’s intensely intuitive energies some of my clients and students are struggling with the realisation that their lives that are far from alignment with their inner selves, or they have become overwhelmed with the weight of humanity’s problems. And there has been an influx of suicidal feelings for some, or for members of their family. So this week my phone has rung off the hook, my inboxes are jammed and the calls just keep coming. Since my fiftieth birthday in September I now feel every single emotion other people are holding within them as viscerally as if those emotions were mine. As you might imagine I went to bed totally drained, and woke the same, despite my regular meditation.
I had intended to blog, but nothing would come. So I walked.
In the murky twilight I threw a warm jacket over my pyjamas and put my feet into gumboots and I walked outside and into the paddocks.
The tawny frogmouth owls were singing to their chicks while feeding them an early breakfast. A powerful owl sat in the teak tree, feasting on the remains of a possum. Koalas grunted to each other in the trees, and the boughs above our house shook and danced as a group of possums jumped down and then ran across the roof of our tiny cottage, moving towards our shed where they will sleep throughout the day.
The air was alive with the sound of insects and birdsong as the sun slowly rose behind the hills, ready to illuminate the day.
As I walked further I saw one of our older cows lying down in the field. She was in an unnatural position, so I hurried over to check on her welfare, just as she finished pushing out a newborn calf. I stood quietly by while she broke open the sac and cleaned off the tiny animal, licking it until it began to push up on its brand new twiggy legs. Soon it was standing for the first time.
The cow and I both stood quietly together, catching our breath, and the newborn calf wobbled over to mum, found a teat and began to drink. Suddenly my world was calm and beautiful and milk-sweet.
Some ‘alone time’ in nature is always good medicine for me, and if you’re feeling things intensely this week I suggest it will be good medicine for you as well. Then perhaps some journalling and the pulling of a few cards so that you can explore your feelings and find pathways that give you choices, understanding and a way forward. Of course I also recommend a good cup of tea with that too!
Sending so much love your way, Nicole ❤ xoxo
Great post Nicole, I love how you take your time to describe the beauty of nature.
One of your ‘older cows’ loves you just that little bit more for posting this xxx
I found this post very moving it really touched me, for me each day is a struggle with pain and not being able to move much, I can’t walk very far even with my cane, I can’t stand without pain and I can’t sleep due to pain everything is such a struggle and I do not know why I feel the need to share this but I have
Blessings to you Joanne xx
Sending so much love to you, Joanne. Pain is a hard companion to spend time with. I want you to know that I see you, and I understand. Hugs, my friend ♥️💕🙏
Nicole thank you for the walk along. I’m in the ICU in Billings Montana. We were supposed to be in the midst of a grand adventure. We had sold our home in Western Washington bought an RV and were taking a long extended trip thru our beloved West. Of course things haven’t gone to plan but I firmly believe the greatest adventures stem from serendipity. However this unplanned don’t know what’s wrong extended hospital stay is wearing psychologically. Your blog boosted my spirits. Thank you.
Eileen! That’s no good, my dear, but at least you are being well looked after. I hope you get back to your grand RV adventure soonest. Will send you some extra healing and love in my meditation tonight, Nx
Thank you Nicole. Has been an intense week with our teenage daughter. Almost like a pressure cooker reaching explosion point. ….and then yesterday it all calmed dramatically like she finally passed the summit and could breathe again. As could we all! Went to bed after listening to your meditation for connecting with your ancestors feeling so much peace. I too have shared a lovely morning just enjoying all that is today. XX
It makes me feel good to know that in another little corner of the world someone had a morning as lovely as mine xx
You are a great observer and wonderful writer.
Nature is very good at calming us- if the weather suits!
Much loving strength to All of us in these times.
Xxx
Even when the weather is inclement I find it somehow soothes my moods. Much love to you xx
Just beautiful xx
Thank you, Ele x
Lovely gentle post reminding us of the healing power of nature, moment by moment…thank you…X
Moment by moment is the very best kind of life wisdom. Nx
Thanks Nicole. This one has made me cry with a sudden understanding of why it is that I have been struggling a bit this week; and for the beautifulness of your walk and your time witnessing the birth of that wobbly gorgeous calf, the tenderness of the mother, and the grace of your presence. Have a really good day today. I will carry your words with me up here in the city. Love Simone
Love, hugs and really good cuppas to you, Simone. It’s intense energy I know, but you can put that energy to use if you’re brave enough to dig deep. And nature is a magical remedy for maladies of the soul xx