If you go out for several hours into a place that is wild, your mind begins to slow down, down, down. What is happening is that the clay of your body is retrieving its own sense of sisterhood with the great clay of the landscape.John O’Donohue
I was reflecting on this time a year ago. We had just come out of a savage year of drought and bushfires, and then into our first COVID lockdown at our farm. If you’d told me then that in twelve months I’d be living back in Queensland, in a treehouse on a mountain by the beach, I’d have laughed in your face. I had no plans to be anywhere other than where I was.
And yet here we are…
The Universe somehow contrived to reposition me, and this new place just works better. It’s flowing better. It feels more right.
It’s hard to explain how living in our new treehouse makes me feel.
It’s as if a lost part of myself is coming alive again.
Although I am deeply fatigued, and we are far from finished this move, I already feel renewed, hopeful, and supported.
It’s as if something inside me has realigned itself with a version of me I’d forgotten was possible.
So, amid all the busy-ness I am taking frequent breaks to stop and breathe it all in. I’m surrounded by old trees and rainforest. I’m serenaded by birdsong. The ocean is right at my doorstep. I’m connected to family, to old friends, and new ones. There’s good coffee and bookstores and so many things to love.
I want you to know something. This kind of shift is possible for you too. There have been so many times in my life when I have been despairing, unwell, unsupported, dying even, and where anything good seemed impossibly far away. At those times all I could do was trudge forward. Or stay stuck but keep breathing. The only thing I can say for certain is that I never gave up.
Now, suddenly, it feels like I have stepped into a beautiful dream. It’s a dream I’ve worked hard to achieve. And let’s be clear – I still have health issues, my energy is still variable, and there are still plenty of things that need to be dealt with or suffered through. But even so, I’m in a place right now (physically, emotionally, financially) that for a long time I thought was impossible.
Please, don’t give up on your dreams. Even if you have no idea how to make them happen. Even if they seem completely impossible.
If you can hold the thought, and carry that dream in your heart, there is ALWAYS a possibility that your dream, or better, will show up in your life.
That’s what I’m holding space for, in my daily meditations and prayers – that you find your way forward to your dream too.
Love, cinnamon buttered pretzel donuts (who even knew these were a thing???) and dreams come true, Nicole xx