Bolts of lightning from the sky
And plant them in fields of life.
They will grow like tender sprouts of fire.
Charge somber thoughts
With unexpected flash,
You, my lightning in the soil!”
~ Visar Zhiti, The Condemned Apple: Selected Poetry
Hello, my Lovelies, and welcome to Week 2 of our Journal Challenge!
If you’ve only just found us now, it’s not too late to go back and start at the beginning. That’s the beauty of journalling. It waits for us, and works with our own time-frames.
I suppose you’ve heard about Lightbulb Moments. You know, that instant where the light comes on and you truly UNDERSTAND something for the first time. ‘Ah,’ you say, perhaps a little excitedly, ‘I get it!’
There’s another kind of awareness that can hit us too. It’s painful. It’s abrupt. It’s super-charged and the sting is so shocking that the memory is somehow imprinted into you at a cellular level. ‘Holy Shit!’ you manage to choke out, if indeed you can find any words at all. That ain’t no Lightbulb Moment, honey. That’s a Lightning Strike!
Some of our most powerful insights and guiding direction comes in the form of Lightbulb Moments and Lightning Strikes. This week we’re opening ourselves to reconnecting to the wisdom we’ve already received, as well as inviting more of these moments into our lives.
Are you ready? Courage, my dears.
Choosing a Crystal
You may wish to choose a crystal to work with this week. It is entirely optional, and you’d be fine without one too – but for my fellow rock lovers, read on…
You can hold this crystal as you write or meditate, place it under your pillow or beside your bed while you sleep, or carry it in your pocket to help you stay focused.
You could choose your stone based on what most appeals to you. That’s a very valid approach. But if you need a little direction, good crystals to work with this week include:
- Clear Quartz of any kind
- Orange or golden calcite
- Black Tourmaline
This week I’m using a rather comforting Labradorite that fits perfectly into my hand. Feel free to let us know what kind of crystal you choose by leaving a comment below or over at our facebook page.
Week Two Meditation:
There is so much wisdom already inside you. It stretches back through your family tree, and through your past lives. This week, before you begin to reflect on and journal your exploratory questions, take a minute or two to perform this simple meditation.
Ancestor Activation Technique
Before you begin writing, sit or lie quietly. One by one, raise your palms and look into them, seeing all the lines and contours. Know that your entire family lineage is held within these hands, and that your hands link you back through time to loved ones who still watch over you and guide you. It doesn’t matter if you don’t know or feel connected to your family, or if you don’t know your family history. It doesn’t matter if the family you are born into is a family with whom you don’t resonate. Family is bigger than that. It goes back so much further than you might know. These bonds anchor us in a love far beyond our conscious understanding. We reincarnate into our family tree over and over again. None of us is ever alone. We are always well loved, although we may not always understand this.
If you are using a stone, cup your crystal in one hand and then place your other hand over the top. Rest your hands comfortably in your lap. If you’re not using a crystal, place your hands palm down on your belly.
Visualise a rainbow in your crystal, or if you are just using your hands, visualise a rainbow in the palms of your hands. Breathe in to activate your hands and let that rainbow of colour expand, flowing out into your aura and into your body on each outbreath. Close your eyes if it feels comfortable to do so.
Now in your mind offer up a prayer to your Ancestors. Ask them for guidance and help. Ask them to flow wisdom and opportunity to you. Say anything else that feels right for you.
Then sit in this energy a little longer and be open to any thoughts, images or ideas that come.
Finally, take six breaths deep into your belly, letting your body relax completely.
Now you’re ready to write!
You can choose any or all of the questions below. Some will be asked as traditional questions, and some are sentences that give you a place to start by leaving a space for you to complete that sentence.
I suggest going with what resonates and repels for a good balance. Write as much or as little as you need. It could be three words or three pages. Spread it out over a week, or spend a solid hour or two over one day – it’s up to you! If you’re in flow, keep going and see where it takes you. Be brave here, sweethearts. Pry open those tightly closed doors. Fling open the windows and let the light in. We can’t operate in darkness. Healing needs air and sunlight.
You can also write over more than one sitting, even beyond this current journal challenge, taking yourself deeper and clearer each time you come back to that question. Trust that more will be revealed as your own wholeness is revealed.
If you’re using a crystal, hold it in your non-writing hand, or place it in your lap or pocket. Feel free to get yourself a beverage, or to sit in a coffee shop while you do this. Enjoy the process!
This week we’re bravely peeling back the layers, seeking to own all the parts of us. Including those things we have pushed away, rejected, been shamed for, or that give us embarrassment or pain. I’ve grouped the questions together for a reason.
If you don’t know how to answer something, ask yourself again, and then wait.
Ask again and wait some more. Then ask – What am I afraid of here? Bravely wait for the answer, and then ask yourself the question again, knowing that your fears cannot harm you.
Also ask yourself this, if it feels right: Is this a family pattern? How might I break this pattern, so that Ancestral Patterning stops with me?
- What is my most insidious (subtle and sneaky) self-sabotaging behaviour?
- What is my most overt (obvious and visible) self-sabotaging behaviour?
- Why did I start this behaviour? Who did I pattern it (copy or learn it) from?
- What are the benefits of this sabotaging behaviour? How does it keep me ‘safe’?
- What would happen in my life if I gradually replaced this behaviour with one that genuinely supported and sustained me?
- What positive behaviours could I choose?
- How does this knowledge make me feel? Why?
- The people I resent most are…
- The reasons I resent them are…
- It’s so unfair for me because…
- I’m so worried that I’ll never get time to…
- I hate that I’m always the one who has to…
- What do I resent that others tell me about myself, or expect me to be?
- The thing putting me under all this stress is…
- What do I tell myself that keeps me small?
- Who else do I know who behaves like that?
- What virtuous or ‘good’ patterns or behaviours do I use to avoid dealing with my own stuff?
- What am I so afraid of here?
- What am I stopping myself from doing?
Oh, the Shame!:
- The incident I am most ashamed about is…
- The thing I still hate to have people bring up about me is…
- The thing I still feel most guilty about is…
- The most embarrassed I’ve ever been is…
- I feel such a failure because…
- I could never be that thing I so desire to be, because…
- The one thing I wish I could erase from my life is…
- The powerful and painful learning burned into my brain like a Lightning Strike about this is…
- I could reframe that learning into something good and wise by seeing it this way…
And now for some healing and expanding life energy. Be informed by the writing you have done with your exploratory questions. Choose one or do them all. Let yourself step into the energy of possibility and growth. Let your own inner knowing be a healing force of good in your life. Write at least a paragraph. Be detailed and specific where you can.Turn pain and suffering into wisdom. Let yourself be lit up with Lightbulb Moments and Lightning Strikes.
If you’re uncomfortable, then write it as a wise fairy-tale that might be good advice for someone else.
1. The lesson my self-sabotaging behaviour teaches me is…
2. As I embrace this lesson, with love and compassion for myself, I can see my life becoming…
3. My resentment is a powerful voice inside me showing me what’s truly important to my heart and soul. This resentment has taught me that what matters is…
4. I will overcome or deal with my fear by…
5. These painful things have taught me some beautiful lessons about myself. I can now become wiser, kinder, more uplifted and more inspired because I understand that…
6. The parts of myself that I lovingly reclaim are…
Do pop over to our facebook page this week. There will be some rune guidance for you. I’ll be giving away some lovely surprises and there will also be an online party next weekend where I’ll be available to answer your questions and have some fun!
I have so much faith in you. We have a big year ahead in 2015 – full of opportunity and possibility – and I know you’ll be well positioned to make the most of it by doing all of this self-work!
Big hugs to you and lots of love, Nicole xx