Five Dishes to Cook for a Fabulous Easter Feast

Cooking is at once child’s play and adult joy. And cooking done with care is an act of love. ” 
~
Craig Claiborne

If you’re looking for inspiration for a tasty and easy meal to share with your family this Easter I have some simple suggestions for you.

There’s a creamy Celery Soup for starters, followed by Slow Cooked Leg of Lamb with a Ruby Grapefruit and Asparagus Salad and Hasselback Potatoes, and Hot Cross Bun Bread and Butter Pudding for dessert.

If you’re vegetarian or vegan I’ve added some tips and twists in for you too.

Then all you need are a few drinks, some family or friends, some music and some relaxation time. Easy!

Just click on the link to access each recipe.

Soup: Cream of Celery Soup Recipe This is a super-healthy and totally delicious soup that is also useful for boosting your immune system and warding off colds and flu bugs. It makes a lovely first course and is gluten-free and can easily be made as a vegan dish.

Note: If you couldn’t be bothered with a big meal or you’ve eaten too many Easter Eggs why not have some cheese, crackers and fruit as your first or last course and pair that with this soup. Make sure you have some good bread to go with the soup – you’ll find it tasty and satisfying.

Salad: Ruby Grapefruit and Asparagus Salad

This is a scrumptious and very pretty salad and the acidity of the grapefruit goes well with the richness of the lamb roast.

Vegetarian? Throw in some extra avocado and feta cheese, double the size of the salad and forget about the lamb roast. Make sure you have some yummy bread as an accompaniment. A good rye bread or grainy sourdough is a great choice for this salad.

Vegan? See tips for vegetarians and omit the feta cheese.

Carb:Hasselback Potatoes? Opera House Potatoes? Best Ever Baked Potato Recipe!

This potato recipe is a favourite in our household and I will often make them for special occasions or when friends come to visit (which is often for us because we are blessed with good friends and good neighbours). They are crunchy on the outside, soft in the middle, and you won’t be able to stop at just one!

Main: Slow Roasted Leg of Lamb with Garlic, Herbs and Red Wine

Easter and Lamb Roasts go hand in hand. This is a simple recipe – it takes little effort and the results are always a show-stopper. It’s a moist, flavour-filled, melt-in-your-mouth dish that is easy for beginner cooks. It’s almost impossible to stuff up. But you do need five hours of cooking time, and fifteen minutes prep, as well as fifteen minutes to rest the roast after it has cooked. Totally worth the wait though!!!

Note: Sorry, vegetarians and vegans. If meat is not your thing I have no substitute for this one.

Dessert: Hot Cross Bun Bread And Butter Pudding

This pudding is made several times over the Easter period in our house, as it’s so simple and easy for feeding guests and we don’t seem to tire of it either! It’s a silky smooth bread pudding with a lightly spiced sweet custard – heavenly!

If you manage to have any as left-overs it is great eating cold as well. (We have been known to eat the leftovers with a big mug of tea or freshly brewed coffee as breakfast when we have had a late night at Bluesfest.)

Note: Choose gluten-free buns or bread it needed. You can also use your favourite type of non-dairy milk, a butter substitute, and if you need to be egg-free replace the eggs with one cup of applesauce.

I encourage you to give these recipes a try.  Hopefully some of them will become an Easter Tradition in your household too.

Much love to you, ♥ Nicole xx

The Bad But Useful Dream


“The future depends on what you do today.” 
~
Mahatma Gandhi

I had a disturbing dream last week. One of those dreams where I knew it was more than just a dream, even as I was dreaming it. I was night flying, like my Aboriginal Aunties had shown me, but this was in a dream state, not in a meditation – which is my usual way for getting into that space.

I flew over a house that seemed familiar and suddenly I found myself inside. I was invisible to the occupants there and I could move through walls or furniture as though they were made of smoke. (On reflection, maybe it was me that was less than solid!)

The house was in darkness, it was late and almost everyone was in bed except for a man, who was standing at the kitchen sink, the refrigerator door still open, as he poured and drank a large glass of milk. I knew that man! He and his wife are clients and friends. He’s a doctor and he had just come home from late night rounds at the hospital where he works on rotation. I watched silently as he drank, and I saw how tired he was, and how rundown.

More than that, I saw a small hard round lump under the skin on the right side of his throat, and I watched it move as he drank. That lump wasn’t anything good. My heart plummeted. I knew I’d have to say something.

The next morning I woke with the dream still clear in my head. As soon as it was a respectable hour I called the man and we exchanged a few pleasantries, after which I said, ‘I’m worried about you. Can you feel a lump in your thyroid?’

‘F*ck’, he said to me. ‘I can feel something, it’s small but I can feel it. As soon as I heard your voice I knew this wasn’t a social call. It’s thyroid cancer, isn’t it?’

‘I think you should get it checked out,’ I said steadily. ‘Please.’

‘Yeah, I will,’ he promised. ‘Thanks for the call.’

He called me yesterday to update me. He’s already had the surgery and it was cancer. The good news is that it was contained and hasn’t spread beyond the thyroid. We caught it in time. His prognosis is excellent. Meanwhile, he and his wife are taking some time out to re-evaluate their lives and put some plans in place to slow down and ‘live a bit more’ after the shock of this unexpected news.

It was a bad dream with a good result!

Living as a psychic isn’t easy, but it’s worth it for moments like these. Please look after yourselves, look after your health, and take time out to slow down and rest – this is your one precious life and your well-being matters.

Much love, Nicole ❤ xx

Hot Cross Bun Bread And Butter Pudding – SO Easy and Yum!


“You don’t win friends with salad.”
~ Homer Simpson

Easter is nearly here. I love this time of year in Australia as the days get shorter, the nights cooler, and we begin our slow descent toward winter. Today’s recipe is a seasonal twist on one of my favourite easy-to-whip-up crowd-pleasing desserts. It uses Hot Cross Buns – a spiced and fruited yeast bun with a white flour paste cross on top which is made for Easter. (Note, these were in the shops in Australia on Boxing Day this year – the day after Christmas, which was very controversial!) If you don’t have Hot Cross Buns in your part of the world use a good fruit bread instead.

This pudding is delicious served warm with a drizzle of cream or custard or a dollop of your favourite yoghurt or ice-cream. Or go crazy and put it all on top of your pudding. Why not?

If you manage to have any as left-overs it is great eating cold as well.

I served this pudding with a Woolworths brand Hot Cross Bun flavoured ice-cream which was seriously good.

Ingredients:

  • 4 eggs
  • 2.5 cups of milk (625ml or close enough)
  • 3 tablespoons of sugar
  • 1 teaspoon vanilla
  • 1 flat teaspoon ground cinnamon
  • 1/2 flat teaspoon nutmeg
  • 6 Hot Cross Buns
  • butter
  • a large handful of dried fruit – sultanas, raisins, dried apricots or whatever is in the pantry and chop larger fruit into small pieces – I used dried dates
  • jam or marmalade of your choice – I used Apricot

Method:

Preheat your oven to 180C (moderate or 355F) or slightly less if it is fan forced.

Using butter grease a baking dish large enough to hold your buns and the custard mixture (a six to eight cup capacity should do it).  Slice your Hot Cross Buns vertically into three or four slices, butter each slice and spread with jam. Add a few pieces of your dried fruit between the slices. Reassemble Bun slices and place the buns into bowl. Don’t put any dried fruit on the top of the pudding as it may burn.

Whisk together the eggs, milk, sugar, spices and vanilla, ensuring that sugar has dissolved.  Pour gently over bread.  Wiggle the slices a little to ensure that the egg mixture has gone right to the bottom of the dish.  Then let it stand for 30 minutes so that the bread absorbs the liquid.  This will give your pudding a nice lift.

Put the pudding into a large baking tray with high sides and pour room-temperature water into the tray until it comes halfway up the side of your pudding dish. This will stop the custard cooking too fast and give your pudding a deliciously silky texture.

Bake for one hour or until the top has risen and is golden and nicely firm. (If it feels really wobbly in the centre give it another five to ten minutes.) Don’t panic if it sinks again after it’s been out of the oven for a bit – it shall still taste delicious.  Carefully lift the pudding bowl out of the water bath. Serve with ice-cream, custard or cream.  Heavenly.

Find Your Voice! Monday Oracle 15 April 2019

“The things I carry are my thoughts. That’s it. They are the only weight. My thoughts determine whether I am free and light or burdened.”   ~ Kamal Ravikant

Hello, Lovelies!

April calls you to live from your heartspace. This month lifts you above your obstacles or helps you to blaze a trail through them. Expect magical insights and guidance to help light the path ahead. It’s time to believe in yourself and your dreams even if no-one else yet believes. Keep that in mind as we look at the gifts of inspiration which the card Sound brings us.

This week Sound calls us to stand strong in honouring our own truth and honouring our own voice. There are so many ways that we quieten that voice and so many ways we diminish our truth. Not all of that is deliberate. As a society, we are taught to be polite, to get along, to put the needs and happiness of others before our own. (You can read more about this here). But our voice matters too. Speaking and living from our heart space and living our truth helps bring us into alignment with situations, opportunities and relationships that are more suited to our ethics, values, beliefs and talents.

Of course, I urge you to be sensible. Sometimes that truth doesn’t need to be spoken aloud, because doing so might put you in a difficult or dangerous position. But even acknowledging that truth to yourself can help you to choose a different course of action, to leave a job or relationship that no longer works for you, and to begin thinking about options that will suit you better than your current situation.

Sound is also about leadership. It is about being in that place where we can lead family or friends or business or a community by being ourselves and singing our own song in a way that attracts everyone else to us.

When we speak our truth, when we’re speaking our message we attract the people who need that message or who are aligned with whatever it is we are sharing.

If you’ve got a dream, a vision for a business, or something you’d like to offer in the world Sound encourages you to work towards making that a reality this week. Trust that someone will want what you have to offer. Be a contributor – add your voice and energy and know you were given these ideas or gifts for a reason.

Most of all, seek out what makes you happy and reach for what gives you joy. Life is too short to be miserable, stuck and unable to express your true feelings and innermost self.

Supportive crystals this week?

Malachite is a stone to help you overcome perceived limitations. It is a stone of manifestation and abundance that gifts focus and resilience. Amethyst helps us to tune in to all forms of spiritual guidance and to make wise decisions. Blue Kyanite (pictured) will enhance your communication skills, helping you to find the right words and best timing for your message – and helping you avoid self-destructive tendencies. Blue Lace Agate supports your Throat Chakra, helping you to find your voice and speak your truth. It’s a great stone for all forms of communication, and it also brings a sense of calm. 

Helpful essential oils?

Helpful essential oils?

Combine Frankincense, Lemon and Peppermint Essential Oils for an energising and focusing diffuser blend this week. A ratio of 2 drops of Frankincense, and 3 drops each of Lemon and Peppermint is delicious!

Frankincense helps you to be grounded and connected at the same time, and reduces stress and inflammation within the body. Lemon is uplifting and helps bring focus and clarity, and Peppermint refreshes the mind and spirit.

Need an oil to enhance your creativity, and to help you move out of overwhelm or anxiety? Use Neroli by diluting and applying to your pulse points as a perfume or add it to your diffuser alone or with a couple of drops of Frankincense to bring back a sense of being grounded and connected.

I’m passionate about essential oils and their capacity to support our wellness journey and our spiritual and emotional wellbeing. If you’d like to know more or want to source the oils I recommend and trust visit this site or contact me at channelnc@gmail.com

Guided Meditation Bundle

I’ve bundled together four powerful guided downloadable meditations and created a companion workbook to support you in your spiritual journey. The Stardust Connection Meditation Bundle will help you to connect with and explore Earth Energies, Ancestor Energies, your Solar Plexus energies and personal power, and the Stardust Energies. There is over an hour’s worth of Guided Meditations and a 38-page workbook. The workbook holds specific instructions for using the four guided meditations, as well as journalling activities and reflection/awareness exercises.

The material in the Stardust Connection Meditation Bundle can be used at any time over the next four years, and beyond. My intention with this bundle is to help you become confident in your direction, your intuition, and your contribution to the unfolding history of the world and humanity. To access the bundle or to learn more about it go to my store or click on this link.

Wishing you a week of clarity, insight and understanding. Be determined to find your joy! Aim high, give life your best shot, and no matter what you do, be true to YOU.

Lots of love, Nicole ❤ xx

PS: Monday’s oracle card, Sound’ , is from the Sacred Power Reading Cards by Anna Stark . I use any cards shown as a prompt for channelled messages and my own own intuitive wisdom, so my take is sometimes quite different to the meaning found in a book. 

Five Yummy Easter Treats to Try at Home


“It’s not how much we give but how much love we put into giving.” 
~
Mother Theresa

I thought I’d share some of the recipes I’m making for Easter. Don’t worry if you’re not an experienced cook – these recipes are EASY, tasty and lots of fun, and there are plenty of ways to get the kids involved too. Giving home-made treats at Easter is a lovely heart-felt gift.

Or, of course, you could just eat them all yourself! Just click on the link to go directly to the recipe.

1.Green Goji Bliss Balls

I often whip up a batch of these healthy, yummy snacks. Green Goji Bliss Balls are packed full of nutrition, and the lemon gives them a lovely fresh tang. They are vegan and gluten, dairy and refined sugar free.

They are incredibly easy to make, especially if you have a good food processor or blender. If you’re looking for a super-healthy Easter Treat this one works well.

2. Healthy Bounty Bar Easter Eggs!

Bounty Bars are one of my favourite chocolates. Ben’s too. They have a creamy coconut centre covered in chocolate. Who can resist that kind of flavour combo? But they are full of sugar, so I decided to have a play around in the kitchen and see what else I could come up with that might be a bit healthier.

This version is refined sugar-free, and can be made gluten-free, dairy-free, soy-free or vegan depending on what kind of chocolate you use.

3. Walnut and Dark Chocolate Coconut Bites – Fit for a Prince!

In our household we call these little treasures yummy ‘uglies’.  They may not be the prettiest treats, but the taste more than makes up for it. Walnut and dark chocolate is a heavenly combination, made even better with coconut, and they are quick to whip up.

A variation of a macaroon, these Bites are gluten-free and can also be sugar-free, so they are great for diabetics and people with food intolerances or following a paleo diet.

4.Five-Minute Fudge Recipe

A few years ago a friend gave me a recipe she uses to make commercial quantities of fudge for a fudge house.  I couldn’t believe how simple it was, or how great it turned out. And it only takes five minutes.

I make this often for street stalls, gifts and bribes. It may be a cheater’s kind of fudge but it is every kind of delicious. It will be one of the things in my Easter Basket presents for loved ones this year. Sorry, this one is FULL of dairy and sugar. But as an occasional treat it’s just grand!

5. Marshmallow Recipe – Perfect for Easter

Homemade marshmallow is the yummiest, fluffiest thing. Easy and inexpensive too. The recipe will make the sort of standard coconut-covered marshmallows most people know, but it can also be used in moulds to make cool shapes. At Easter, marshmallow eggs or bunnies are very appropriate, and make delicious gifts.

This Easter I’m making quite a lot of marhsmallow eggs for my loved ones – they’ll be nestled in a basket with my home-made fudge, and some rich, moist fruit cake.

I encourage you to give these recipes a try.  Hopefully some of them will become an Easter Tradition in your household too.

Much love to you, ♥ Nicole xx

My Top Tips For Managing Overwhelm

“That’s your solution? Have a cookie?’ Astrid asked. ‘No, my solution is to run down to the beach and hide out until this is all over,’ Sam said. ‘But a cookie never hurts.” 
~ Michael Grant

Goodness, lovelies, my inbox is FULL of messages from those of you who are majorly stuck in overwhelm right now. It’s a space I am well acquainted with, and as much as I would like to say that with maturity has come the capacity to not succumb, the truth is that I sometimes still move into overwhelm too. So I figure it’s not whether you’ll ever find yourself in overwhelm but when!

Here are my top ten tips for managing myself when I get into overwhelm. I hope you find them useful too.

1.Check my energy levels. Am I exhausted? Dehydrated? Are my blood sugar levels low? Can it be as simple as that? Yes! Sometimes what I need is to chug some water, eat a decent meal and have a good long sleep. Things usually look more manageable after that.

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2. Go for a walk in nature. Walking clears the head, oxygenates the body and helps ground me back into my self.

3. Take a break. Sometimes I just need to step back from my desk or project and disengage for a while. This refreshes and renews me, and is often enough to help me find my flow again.

4. Clutter really contributes to my sense of overwhelm. When things get on top of me I clean my desk, clean my house, put a load of washing on, clean out the fridge, take out the trash, vacuum, diffuse a favourite essential oil. As things move from visual chaos back to calm it helps me find the peace within myself too. Plus it is giving me a much-needed break from my workload or emotional burden and I get the benefit of satisfaction for having cleaned up after myself.

5. I take an hour or two and write down EVERYTHING that needs doing. Even the act of writing it down helps pull it back into some kind of manageable shape for me. It’s always better when I have gotten it out of my head and onto a list.

6. I pick one small thing from my to-do list. I do that thing and I don’t start a new thing until this first thing is done. There is a lot of satisfaction to be gained from actually completing something.

7. I chunk big scary goals or projects down into bite-sized tasks. Then I do those tasks one after another. Anywhere I can I delegate whatever is possible to delegate so I am working on the things that only I can do.

8. I make sure I have time for me to do things that fill me up and make my heart sing. Sunday is always a day off and planning day and I don’t compromise that for anything. Working madly 24/7 will only burn me out and create resistance and resentment.

9. Talk with a mentor, coach or friend. Someone who has walked the road ahead of me can often give me a new perspective and some handy tips. Why reinvent the wheel?

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10. Believe that I WILL get it done, and manage my expectation so that I am not unrealistic about getting a gazillion things done in one day!

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I’m cheering you on. Lots of love, Nicole ❤ xx

It’s Okay To Choose For Yourself


“Look to your heart and soul first, rather than looking to your head first, when choosing. Rather than what you think, consider instead how you feel. Look to the nature of things. Feel your choices and decisions. It just might change everything.” 
~ Jeffrey R. Anderson

Hello, Lovelies.

Today I have a favour to ask of you. Today I’d like you to choose for yourself.

You might think that’s an odd request. You might also think it doesn’t apply to you. But if you are in love, empathic, sensitive, a parent, a partner, a people-pleaser or a soother of others I think it does.

You see, so many of us (myself included), will make choices in life with another person in mind. Your sweetheart loves the apple pastry so you take the lemon one. Your friends love sci-fi so you go see the latest movie with them even though it’s a genre you’re not fussed about. Your partner doesn’t eat seafood so you just don’t cook that anymore. When a family member offers to make dinner for you, you ask for spaghetti because that’s the kids’ favourite. You make choices that make others happy. And it’s not a drag for you, honestly. You don’t mind the lemon pastry. It’s good just to hang with your friends. Chicken’s as tasty as fish. It’s just nice to have someone else cook. No biggie, right?

Still. what if you constantly make small choices – ones that don’t really matter to you – that suit the preferences of other people over your own?

It might seem inconsequential but it soon stacks up. How many decisions and choices will you make in a day that completely negate what you might want? What message does that send to the Universe?

Each time you put the well-being and happiness of someone else over your own you are asserting to the Universe that they matter more than you, that their happiness and positive life experience matters more than your own. And even though you may start out being happy to have made someone else happy that joy will eventually wear off if your own needs never get any airplay. What’s worse, you train the people around you that these decisions you make are okay for you, or even great for you. So how will they ever know what you really want? How will they ever know you’d have preferred an apple pastry too? Trust me, this is the kind of behaviour that eventually breeds simmering resentment and misery where the only person who’ll be suffering is you.

So, just for today, I’m asking you to choose for yourself. Choose the cooking show over the football. Choose to hang out at the art gallery while everyone else goes to the museum. Eat pasta when the gang has burgers. Choose what you really wanted to say yes to, even if that means you go on your own or eat on your own.

That’s okay. Your life is valuable too. Your choices and happiness matter too. This is your one shot at this precious life. Don’t waste it by never giving yourself the chance to experience all the longings of your heart.

Much love, Nicole ❤ xx

Our Second Winner is…


“Positive feelings come from being honest about yourself and accepting your personality, and physical characteristics, warts and all; and, from belonging to a family that accepts you without question.” ~ Willard Scott

I’m a firm believer in the power of community.

There is something wonderful about finding a place to belong, a place where you can be yourself, a place where you can find support and acceptance.

It’s one of the things I love most about my online membership and YOM group. They are an incredible bunch of people and the friendships within that group re solid gold.

With every Planner purchased I’m giving a trial month membership so you can feel for yourself what a difference being in a supportive community and learning space can have on your life.

I also promised to give away some annual memberships for free.

And today I’d like to announce our second winner…

Karen, one of our team will be in touch shortly to confirm your free subscription to the YOM Academy and membership group.

We’re delighted to have you join us as 2019 unfolds.

Much love, Nicole ❤ xx

How to Move into Alignment – Monday Oracle 8 April 2019


“When you start doing things that are truly in alignment with what your true self wants, what your soul wants, you flourish and life becomes a lot easier.” ~ Joel Annesley

Hello, Lovelies!

April calls you to live from your heartspace. This month lifts you above your obstacles, or helps you to blaze a trail through them. Expect magical insights and guidance to help light the path ahead. It’s time to believe in yourself and your dreams even if no-one else yet believes. Keep that in mind as we look at the gifts of inspiration which the card Energy Balance brings us.

This week speaks of the importance of being in alignment. I’m not talking physical alignment (although you may want to get some bodywork or structural work done!), I’m talking about how your external life aligns with your internal values and sense of self.

When you are OUT of alignment it’s easy to become physically and emotionally exhausted, sad, angry, resentful, anxious, depressed or lost. That’s because you’ve created an energetic conflict between who you are, what you believe and what matters to you on the inside and your choices, behaviours and relationships out in the world.

You may even feel like you have no right to feel this way because your life is abundant or blessed or privileged. That’s okay. These feelings are red flags that lead to deeper self-awareness if you are brave enough to follow them. So, if you feel this way, find some quiet time and explore those energies. Explore WHY you feel the way you do, and what flag that raises for you about an aspect of your life that is out of balance.

The more you move into alignment with your values the more your mood will lift. Your optimism and creativity will return. As you make space in your life to live by your values and give energy to your goals, your hopes and your dreams, the more you will find that ideas will flow, inspiration will flow, healing will flow, energy will flow.

So use the gifts of Energy Balance this week to really pay attention – going deeper to find out where you’re blocked, and where things are flowing and what you can do to live more authentically in the world by honoring the truth of who you are.

We need you in the world. That beautiful, authentic, original you. You don’t need to be like everyone else. You are precious and worthy just as you are, and you validate and empower yourself by being true to you. Blaze a trail for that you this week. I promise, it might be hard but it will be worth it.

The extra blessing of that? Being yourself gives others permission to be themselves too, and you become a positive role model for other people who are like you (including your children!).

Supportive crystals this week?

Malachite is a stone to help you overcome perceived limitations. It is a stone of manifestation and abundance that gifts focus and resilience. Amethyst (pictured) helps you to tune in to all forms of spiritual guidance and to make wise decisions. It helps you to become comfortable with an expanded sense of yourself. Clear Quartz amplifies intuition and your ability to tune in to Universal and Personal Wisdom. Use it to get clear about what matters in your life! Orange Calcite connects you to creativity, inspiration and your heart’s desires and helps you to develop confidence in yourself and your dreams. Use it to help you see your next steps forward.

Helpful essential oils?

This week you need essential oils that can help you bring your mind and spirit to a place of clarity, calm and productivity. The following oils can be diffused or inhaled on their own but also blend beautifully together:

  • Rosemary
  • Lemon
  • Lavender
  • Peppermint
  • Cypress
  • Eucalyptus

And always, when your emotional tank is empty, Rose or Geranium diffused or used like perfume on wrists, throat, behind ears and over your heart!

Take some time this week and find your answers. Trust that your own wise soul knows your next moves. Whatever you do, honour your truth!

Lots of love, Nicole ❤ xx

PS: Monday’s oracle card, Energy Balance, is from the Sacred Power Reading Cards by Anna Stark . I use any cards shown as a prompt for channelled messages and my own own intuitive wisdom, so my take is sometimes quite different to the meaning found in a book. 

I can’t write this morning because my heart is broken

“Grief is not as heavy as guilt, but it takes more away from you.” ~Veronica Roth

For hours I’ve sat, empty.

Hollow.

Unable to sleep. Not even able to meditate or pray.

A friend’s twelve-year-old daughter died last night. They turned off her life support. I sat with her and her family and supported them through that awful night, and then when I could do no more I came home.

This little girl didn’t die from cancer, some terrible illness, an accident…

She died because she had been relentlessly bullied and cyber-bullied at the boarding school where her family had thought she was happy and safe. She died because she’d tried to take her own life and she did enough damage that her parents had to finish what she began.

She was twelve. Small as a bird. She’d loved horses and books and playing the violin and baking cupcakes.

Her soul is free now. She has returned to love. We found that space of love together with her last night, and the room was peaceful afterwards, and calm.

But all I can think about this morning was how tiny her body was in that large bed, and how her mother was white with grief and her father broke in front of me and I had no words to make sense of this. For them, or for me.