For When It’s Hard To Be Grateful…


“But that was life: Nobody got a guided tour to their own theme park. You had to hop on the rides as they presented themselves, never knowing whether you would like the one you were in line for…or if the bastard was going to make you throw up your corn dog and your cotton candy all over the place.”
~ J.R. Ward


I’m still sick.

Each night I go to bed hoping that tomorrow I will wake, miraculously better.

Each morning I wake, still sick.

This morning it was hard to muster gratitude, as an immune-compromised person dealing with the flu. In other people this bug might last a few days. But in me it has taken hold and then ravaged me. I have chest pain that scares me. I’ve lost vision in my left eye. My body aches, and there are a million other miseries (I’ve become neurologically incontinent again, old Lyme symptoms I haven’t experienced for years have revisited…) I am exhausted and broken and this wasn’t part of my plan! But I don’t want to be cranky. I don’t want to focus on the negative, or on my fears, or how wretched I feel. That won’t serve me.

And yes, I am grateful for the birds, and the sunrise, and my amazing husband and our two caring hounds who haven’t left my side. For all of you, and your love and support. But I am also aching and hurting for all of the opportunities lost, and the position I am currently in, and my helplessness in it all.

While I thought on all of this as I lay in bed, I remembered.

I’ve been in this place so often. Of life sucking pretty hard. Of my health letting me down, or other, worse things. Magical New Age Rainbow Unicorn Thinking isn’t going to help me. It is what is, and I can’t change it.

In this hard space, there is still something to be grateful for, despite the general suckfulness of it all.

I am resilient. I am a survivor. I can be grateful for me, and my own tenacity. I can be grateful that I am still here, maybe not standing today but conscious and continuing in my own gritted-teeth way.

That’s what I want to remind you this morning. You are the miracle. Think of all you have been through. Think of everything life has thrown at you over the years.

On the days when life is mostly hard, or maybe even a completely brutal ride, remember to be grateful for yourself and your ability to get yourself through. Remind yourself that you are stronger than this. Be grateful for your resilience and your determination, your courage and your indefatigable ability to endure.

You are worth celebrating. Acknowledging your journey and your strength will light a flame in your heart to keep you going on the darkest of days.

Sending so much love your way,

Nicole xx


Win A Beautiful Healing Necklace

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“The power of love is real whether you can see it or not.”
~ Debasish Mridha

“The way you help heal the world is you start with your own family.”
~ Mother Teresa

Do you remember, a while back, when I created my Love Mala?

Twice a day for one month I prayed that mala. Each bead represented a person, except one. The final teardrop-shaped clear quartz bead I chose to represent everyone. Each of you was contained within that bead, and within my meditations and prayers.

You can see it clearly in the picture below, just above the large crackle quartz on the right hand side at the bottom of the picture.

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That simple bead absorbed a lot of love and good energy during our month together. I also wore the mala every day and only took it off to meditate or to sleep. I liked to think that I was carrying you with me on my journeys – my walks around the farm, my visits to the beach, my hugs with friends, dancing in my gumboots at Bluesfest, absorbing the sunshine and rain and coffee dates and other simple moments of life.

I have now made that single bead into a healing necklace.

The stones I have chosen as its companions are these:

  • Peach Aventurine – a gently creative stone that facilitates healthy decision-making, joy and gratitude
  • Mookaite – Mookaite Jasper is an Australia healing stone that is full of nurture, and that will support you in times of stress, grief, loss and emotional pain. It also protects you energetically, and allows you to adapt to changing circumstances, promoting a sense of peace and empowerment.
  • Amethyst – lovely little stones to boost your intuition and spiritual connection
  • Cats Eye Shell – ocean energy to cleanse your aura and chakras, restoring optimism and your best self
  • Jet – another stone of protection, this one also invites positive change and new opportunity. It helps the body to dissipate physical and emotional pain, bringing a return to emotional balance and well-being.

And of course, that teardrop-shaped clear quartz came from my mala that was made specifically to aid in emotional healing. Its energies are of forgiveness and self-love, and to assist with ending guilt, regret, fear and shame and embracing love and flow and abundance.

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The necklace has been made with much love, and has been sitting charging up on my big rose quartz through the last full moon. The energy of these stones is soft, warm and nurturing, like a big hug. I know that it will envelope the wearer in love.

It’s ready to go to its new home, and I know it will find just the right person to support.

If you’d like to win this necklace, simply submit your name below.

For additional chances to win, add your name below this post on our facebook page. I’ll also be sharing photos of the necklace throughout the week on facebook. Every time you comment or share you’ll have another opportunity to win.

Next Monday night at 8pm Brisbane time – the 15th of June – I will put every name in a hat, and then draw one out.

I’ll announce the lucky winner here on Tuesday June 16.

Good luck!

Much love, Nicole


Letter Writing Challenge – Week One


“One of the deep secrets of life is that all that is really worth the doing is what we do for others.”Lewis Carroll

“The smallest act of kindness is worth more than the grandest intention.”Oscar Wilde


Welcome to Week One of my Letter Writing Challenge. Over the next six weeks, every Monday, I am posting a theme and ideas, and asking you to pen a short (or long!) letter to someone, and then pop it in the post or otherwise deliver it to them.

Here’s what you’ll need:

  • Your favourite pen or writing implement
  • Writing paper, cards or postcards
  • A small crystal or stone
  • Between five and thirty minutes each week to sit down and write your letter.

Today’s letter is a warm-up. A few words or sentences that express our appreciation. Ready? Let’s go!

This Week’s Theme :  The Simple Thank You

Start by holding your crystal or stone in your hands. Close your eyes, and build an energy of gratitude in your heart. Feel your heart swell with emotion. Pour that energy of gratitude into the crystal and then continue to sit in meditation for a minute or two longer. Think of your daily life, and a person in your life who somehow contributes to your day going well. It could be a teacher, the person who makes your morning coffee, the smiling lady at the sandwich shop, or the author of a great book you are reading. Trust that the person you think of first will be the right person for today’s activity.

Once you have been guided to a person, write them a short note.

You could use a note card, a postcard, or a piece of paper.

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Write a few simple words or sentences to express your thanks to that person for the contribution they make to your life, and what that means to you. Then sign your name.

So many people live without recognition and acknowledgement of their efforts in helping others. This week our little challenge will go some way towards reversing that. We’ll be sharing a little spark of love and goodwill in the world, and that’s always a good thing.

If you don’t know the name of the person you want to thank, just write

Hi! I just wanted to say thank you for___________________🙂 Sign your name xx

Here are some suggestions:

  • Thank you for making such great coffee. It’s the best part of my morning.
  • Thanks for being my friend.
  • Thanks for being my sister/brother/father/mother.
  • Thanks for making me laugh.
  • Thanks for being there.
  • Thank you for always having the best fruit selection.
  • Your lunches are amazing. Thank you.
  • I love your yoga classes. Thank you!
  • Thank you for always giving such friendly service.
  • Thanks for being so kind to my pet/child/partner.
  • Thanks for helping me with.
  • I really enjoyed __________________ Thank you!

You don’t need a long letter. Just a few words or sentences is fine. In fact, you could even carry an extra card in your bag or pocket this week, and pen a spontaneous note of thanks when the mood takes you.

When your note is finished, post it off. Or hand it over with a smile. Or leave it with a tip after your coffee or meal.

It is also perfectly acceptable to leave your note on someone’s desk, in their pocket or lunchbox or briefcase, or on their pillow (no – I am not endorsing crazy stalker behaviour here!)

Happy Writing!

Lots of love, Nicole xx

PS: If you want to share what you’ve done, pop over to our facebook page and say hi, and share away!

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Starting from a Place of Gratitude


“The unthankful heart… discovers no mercies; but let the thankful heart sweep through the day and, as the magnet finds the iron, so it will find, in every hour, some heavenly blessings!” ~ Henry Ward Beecher


Whatever we focus on, we draw to us. Whatever we constantly think about, adding strong emotion to that thought, magnetises us to that thing.

Why then, would we choose to only focus on our worries?

Why would we continuously speak of all our injustices, difficulties and pains?

To think constantly on such difficult things will help us to see more of the same.

When we can find gratitude for something in our lives, no matter how small, and truly feel that thankfulness in our hearts, we begin to come back to a place of flow.

If your life is difficult right now, or simply if you wish to create a life of more abundance and satisfaction, start by cultivating gratitude in your heart.

Start each day from a place of gratitude. Count your blessings. Name at least three things in your life for which you are grateful. They may be small and simple – being grateful for your life, for the sun coming up, for birdsong, or a fresh breeze, or a good cup of tea. Small blessings count just as surely as large ones.

Miracles happen when you make this a regular practice. I know it to be true because of the way gratitude has transformed my own life, and helped me live through hardship with an open heart.

Sending you so much love today.

I’m grateful that you’re sharing the journey with me.

I’m grateful for your support.

I’m grateful to count you as a friend.

Bless ♥ Nicole xx

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Kindness Challenge – Week One

Image from Reem Writes

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“What this world needs is a new kind of army — the army of the kind.” ~ Cleveland Amory


Hello Friends, and welcome to Week One of our six week Kindness Challenge.

To participate in today’s challenge all you need to do is select and perform one of the following kindness activities. The beneficiaries of our acts of kindness for Week One will be strangers.

Of course, if you choose to do this activity more than once, or to work on one each day that’s absolutely fine as well. In fact, it’s wonderful.🙂

Okay, Kindness Ambassadors, let’s go!

  1. Give a smile and a warm hello to someone in the street.
  2. Wave and say thank you to the man or woman holding the stop/go sign at the roadworks or pedestrian crossing. (There was an especially grumpy man who does this job at a major roadworks near me. I consider it a personal victory that after six months of smiling and waving and saying hello and thank you to his stony face he now waves and smiles back at me every single time!)
  3. Give a smile and a genuine thank you to someone who has served or helped you. Eg: Thank you, that coffee was delicious. Thank you, I look forward to my lunch here every day. Honour a serviceman or woman by thanking them for their service to your country.
  4. Give a smile and a compliment to a stranger. Pay attention to the girl who sells you your newspaper, or the shy youth at the supermarket checkout.  Notice the lovely handbag or perfume or haircut or tie or interesting jewellery or smile or skill or attitude of another person. Be genuine and mean what you say. Here are some examples: Excuse me, I love your shoes. Wow, you added that up in your head so fast. That was an awesome reverse park. The flowers in your garden are beautiful. You have such a well-behaved dog.
  5. Donate some old blankets to a pet shelter, or some clothes, books or other unwanted goods to a charity so that they can help someone you’ll never meet.
  6. Write a letter to a company/school/business/service praising an employee or volunteer who has been helpful to you and given exceptional service or done something you feel needs positive acknowledgement.
  7. Practice a few minutes of Bliss Bombing. (See note below)

The Art of Bliss Bombing

Bliss Bombing is really good for shy people. If you aren’t able to get out and about, do this to a plane flying above you, a car going down the road, or to a place in the world that you feel needs a little extra kindness.

This is a gorgeous activity, and one of my favourites. If you’re able to, take yourself to a public place, like a mall, coffee shop, or a bench in a park near where people are walking by.  Sit somewhere unobtrusive.  When someone walks past, shoot a radiant shower of golden sparks from your heart to theirs and silently bless them with love.  You can even send joy and love from your heart to trees, animals, plants, bus-loads of commuters and overhead planes.  You might  want to say to yourself, “I bless you with love.  Know joy today.”  If anyone catches your eye, just smile.

Feel your open heart begin to tingle with energy and joy.  In that place of energetic connection look around you at the world and you will see that it IS brighter and more beautiful because of YOU.

Congratulations, Kindness Ambassadors! Today your kindness has helped contribute to a positive flow of energy in the world.

It’s okay to let your face crack open from smiling.  Thank the Universe for this amazing experience we call life.  Expect an outpouring of feel-good emotion. ♥ Don’t be at all surprised at how the Universe will mirror your love and energetic abundance back to you.

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Image from Lopez Family Now

Blessings at my back door!


“If you have a garden and a library, you have everything you need.”
(Si hortum in bibliotheca habes, deerit nihil.)
― Cicero, Letters to His Friends, Vol 2: Books 7-12


In my pyjamas, sipping tea in the backyard after a rough night. It’s so breathtakingly beautiful here at the farm that I can’t help but feel a little cheered. I thought I’d share my morning with you…

hungry birdyEveryone’s ready for breakfast.

herbspotThings are busy growing.

stickThere’s quite a bit of stick chasing and stick chewing going on.

bunny 2A rabbit has come by to visit! I hope he doesn’t eat too much of my garden.

frangisThe mist is lifting and it’s going to be a magical day.

Lots and lots of love to you, Nicole xx





Stormclouds, Music and Melancholy

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“When you come out of the storm, you won’t be the same person who walked in. That’s what this storm’s all about.” 
~ Haruki Murakami, Kafka on the Shore


The air is tinged with cold and that strange electricity that comes before a storm. I am watching from my upstairs bedroom, stuck in the city and longing for home.

The new meds I am on to treat the lyme and other bacteria are having brutal effect these past few days.  Seems I have my own storm raging inside me.

I am wracked with fever and with pain. My eyes are fogged and my brain has turned to cotton wool.

It’s hard to type. Hard to think. Hard to read.

So I am mostly lying here, watching the sky and listening to music.

And somehow, there is so much beauty here.

I am profoundly grateful for my life.