Stormclouds, Music and Melancholy

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“When you come out of the storm, you won’t be the same person who walked in. That’s what this storm’s all about.” 
~ Haruki Murakami, Kafka on the Shore


The air is tinged with cold and that strange electricity that comes before a storm. I am watching from my upstairs bedroom, stuck in the city and longing for home.

The new meds I am on to treat the lyme and other bacteria are having brutal effect these past few days.  Seems I have my own storm raging inside me.

I am wracked with fever and with pain. My eyes are fogged and my brain has turned to cotton wool.

It’s hard to type. Hard to think. Hard to read.

So I am mostly lying here, watching the sky and listening to music.

And somehow, there is so much beauty here.

I am profoundly grateful for my life.


25 thoughts on “Stormclouds, Music and Melancholy

  1. With you………and also feeling profoundly grateful for your life. Love, hugs and gentleness beautiful xoxo

  2. There is beauty everywhere amidst our pain, thank you for reminding us……even though you are suffering… bring joy and inspiration. Thank you, your photo and the music are wonderful examples. Love to you xx

  3. Warm gentle hug all my Love and special healing thoughts to you. The music is marvellous and feels very healing and nurturing ….stay warm. Lyn

  4. gosh nicole, you bring tears to my eyes. i hope your latest storm passes quickly. i just read a book called “The Field” by Lynne McTaggart. it came out about 12 years ago but i just read it. distant healing is possible so i will pray for you and see you as healed. even unskilled people can do this. we are all connected. i am opening my heart and soul and sending a prayer for your complete healing. love, pamela

  5. i don’t know how you do it, but your honesty gives me courage, comfort and hope. sending love to you & your loving family through the storms x x x

  6. Blessings, honey. It’s been storming here, too. Wishing you joy and gratitude abundantly, and peace and health.
    Thinking of my sweet grandmother playing the piano. 🙂 Thank you.

  7. Hello Nicole I thought of you as I read the local Bendigo Advertiser dated 11th July. Believe it or not the local sponsored race two at the Bendigo Greyhounds late last month in an effort to bring recognition to Lyme disease. They were thrilled that their call of awareness for Lyme disease created so much attention. Evidently there is a closed facebook group you can join by contacting you never know someone somewhere may have effective treatment without the horrific side affects God Bless Georgia xx

  8. The music is such a beautiful thought .When I have a storm brewing inside me I will think of you my sweet . May your storm soon calm. We are all thinking of you .
    love Cherry xxx

  9. So….three lovely days of trekking through Cauldrons & Cupcakes from the beginning, here I am, up to date and looking forward to following along what’s to come!

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