What if it didn’t matter?

“There’s a world of difference between truth and facts. Facts can obscure truth.” 
~ Maya Angelou

I need to give you an update about my memoir. For those of you who’ve been following my blog for a while you’ll know that you encouraged me to turn some of my posts about my time in the Kimberley with my Aboriginal Aunties into a book.

And I did.

A manuscript, anyway.

I shared the completed draft with members of my writing group. The feedback was good. I tweaked it and got it ready to send to an agent. I was feeling pretty positive about it. But my writing group aren’t intuitives or empaths or ‘that way inclined’. I love them but they’re not my tribe.

A friend from our Cauldrons and Cupcakes community also read the draft. She sent me an email that went something like this: ‘I stayed up all night reading it [great, I think, that’s a good sign] and every time you mentioned your psychic experiences you just touched on them briefly and then went on to the next thing. FOR THE ENTIRE BOOK! I want to know how you felt. I want to know how it changed you. I want to know what was really happening. That’s the book I need to read. You can do better.’

Ouch.

I knew she was right.

I rewrote it. And then rewrote it again. Each time I redrafted it I got a little braver, a little more vulnerable, a little more honest.

My writer friends told me I’d gone too far. I wasn’t sure if I’d gone far enough. It was still relatively safe content though, so I was pretty sure it was ready. Before I sent it to an agent I gave it to a couple of people who are mentioned in the book. ‘It’s good,’ they said, ‘but can you take me out? Also I don’t like this bit, even though it’s true. If you print this I’ll take legal action’.

By this time I was thoroughly bummed. It all seemed too hard. I put the project down and walked away from it.

Still, you kept asking me when it would be done. You kept sending encouraging notes and emails. And I knew I had to try again. I just didn’t know how.

Finally Ben asked me what was holding me up. ‘I don’t know,’ I told him.

‘Yes, you do,’ he said. ‘You’re worried about what other people will think. That’s dumb, Nic. Just tell your story. YOUR story. The one only you can tell. What does it matter anyway? You already have people who don’t believe in you and what you do, but you also have people who are waiting for this book. Write it anyway. The story that needs to be told, not the sanitised version.’

It makes me feel sick to my stomach, but I know that he is right. I don’t need all the bits about other people and interesting or funny stories to entertain the reader. They’re simply diversions from what was really happening.

But what will people think if I tell them what was really happening? If I don’t share it, I stay safe. I can keep pretending. I can avoid controversy, judgement, ridicule.

Yesterday Ben said to me, ‘What if it didn’t matter what other people thought? What if it didn’t matter? Then would you write your book?’

‘In a heartbeat,’ I responded, the words out of my mouth before I’d even thought about them.

So, today I’m starting on my ninth and final draft. Not the facts. That was my first draft, and my second, and my third…

This time I’m going to tell the truth, because that’s a whole other story.

Wish me courage.

I still feel sick about it, but it’s time.

All my love, Nicole ❤ xx

A Week For Truth and Discernment – Monday Oracle 29 April 2019

“We have to dare to be ourselves, however frightening or strange that self may prove to be.” ~ May Sarton

Hello, Lovelies!

April calls you to live from your heartspace. This month lifts you above your obstacles, or helps you to blaze a trail through them. Expect magical insights and guidance to help light the path ahead. It’s time to believe in yourself and your dreams even if no-one else yet believes. Keep that in mind as we look at the gifts of inspiration which the card Truth brings us.

Truth speaks of the importance of being able to take off your mask and let people see you the way that you really are. But it’s also about being protective and protecting your inner truth or those tender parts of yourself when you need to. This is an act of self-love and an honouring of your self-worth.

So this is really a message of discernment – knowing when to show yourself and when it’s actually okay to mask or hide or protect aspects of yourself from judgment or from ridicule. This week you’re urged to know yourself and to put thought into knowing when to share.

Truth is also about evaluating your relationships and knowing who you can trust and who you can be yourself with. There will always be people who are judgmental and unsupportive – keep your precious and tender energies and ideas away from people who would ridicule, reject or smash them down. Instead, look for people who can champion the authentic you and the gifts you seek to share with the world.

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Truth asks you to look at where you are not being honest with yourself. Look to where you are numbing yourself with food, alcohol, work, sex or drugs and ask ‘Why am I doing this? What am I really feeling?’

Be brave enough to examine your life honestly this week to make sure that your inner truth is reflected and supported in your outer journey.

Most of all, remember that as much as self-reflection and self-awareness are important skills in your life, so is the ability to laugh at yourself and not take everything so seriously. Look to places where your life or your attitude would benefit from ‘lightening up’, and do your best not to give yourself or anyone else a hard time.

Image by Ryan McGuire from Pixabay

Supportive crystals this week?

Malachite is a stone to help you overcome perceived limitations. It is a stone of manifestation and abundance that gifts focus and resilience. Amethyst helps you to tune in to all forms of spiritual guidance and to make wise decisions. Green Jade works with your Heart Chakra to bring balance and integration of Body, Mind and Spirit. It is positive and nurturing, strengthening self-worth. Citrine (pictured) supports your Solar Plexus Chakra and sense of identity. It is a stone of abundance, clearing blocks of low self-worth and creating flow.

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Helpful essential oils?


Wild Orange essential oil supports your Inner Child, and fosters creativity, curiosity and an upbeat mood about life – Wild Orange uplifts mood and replaces anxiety with a grounded optimism too. It’s my favourite oil to use when I am anxious or feeling flat.
Sandalwood is a fabulous oil for keeping you grounded and assisting with overcoming fear, exhaustion and overwhelm. It will help with moving you to a place of emotional and spiritual renewal, and aids mindful awareness and intuition. These oils can be diffused on their own or in combination.

I’m passionate about essential oils and their capacity to support our wellness journey and our spiritual and emotional wellbeing. If you’d like to know more or want to source the oils I recommend and trust visit this site or contact me at channelnc@gmail.com

Want to Join Us For A Tea Party in June?

Are you in the mood for a tea party with friends? Some time with like-minded people in a magical environment that honours nature and the fairy realms and the everyday magic and intuition that resides within us all? An event with yummy food, fun activities and time to talk, meditate, be a little crafty and a little witchy too?

We are so excited to present to you our beautiful High Tea that celebrates the Winter Solstice and all things Fairy! I will be hosting this event with my dear Fairy friend, Sokli, who has lots of Fairy Wisdom to share with us.

Here are all the important details:

St Columb’s Hall – Victoria Street, Clayfield

Saturday 22nd June from 11 am to 2pm.

$97 per person – including High Tea and all Activities (Click here to book your tickets)

DRESS CODE – Fabulously Fairy or A Little Bit Garden Greenery!

This week, sit in your heart. Honour your truth. Dare to show people the parts of yourself you have hidden away. Be brave and vulnerable. You’ve got this!

Lots of love, Nicole ❤ xx

PS: Monday’s oracle card, ‘Truth’, is from the Sacred Power Reading Cards by Anna Stark. I use any cards shown as a prompt for channelled messages and my own intuitive wisdom, so my take is sometimes quite different from the meaning found in a book.

Maybe It’s Time To Be More Fully You…

“Don’t compromise yourself – you’re all you have.” 
~  John Grisham

 

Be yourself. Be authentic.

It’s what everyone tells you.

In fact it’s totally hip to be authentic.

But how far should you go?

I’m creating a new website right now. My old one is awful – a static site I can’t change after my previous developers decided it wasn’t cool to have my ‘weird psychic self’ site come up first in searches for their company name at a time when they were heavily investing in representing large government departments and corporations. They gave me 24 hours to find a new host and booted me off so that they’d no longer be associated with me, because how embarrassing for them!

And this blog was never meant to be my main gig.

I’ve put off this whole new website thing anyway. It seemed a bit pointless to spend the money if I was going to croak it, which is a place I’ve danced around for years. My business is successful despite my awful website and total lack of branding.

But as my business is growing I need a website with functionality. Regardless of my varying health status, I’d rather have a new website. So last year I began this journey of ‘rebranding’. It’s a funny thing, building a website around yourself. You need to be able to say who you are, and to put that clearly out into the world.

I spoke to some trusted business colleagues and mentors first. People who are experts in the whole personal branding thing. People I know and care about.

Well, they all asked me, what is it that you do? You’ve got to be authentic and put that out there so others can find you.

Great, I said. I’m a psychic who…

No! You can’t say that, they all interrupted me.

Every single one of them advised me not to call myself a psychic. Psychics are strange and fluffy and lack credibility and are often just bogus. Also, I’ll alienate the whole Christian market, which is big, apparently. Especially in America. In fact some of my marketing friends told me that being a psychic is maybe not Christian and might also be that other thing. The Satan thing. Being a psychic is not cool. If anything it’s an affliction. Maybe I could call myself something else instead? Intuitive’s cool. Why not be intuitive?

Also, they advised me, just pick one thing. Don’t water down your message.

Okay. Great. Which one thing should I pick? I’ve got a rich and complex life happening here.

I’ve never been one of the ‘hip’ crowd. All the stuff I love is either so old or so out there that I am invisible, way at the front end of trends or following far behind. I trusted these people. So I spent all of last year trying to simplify myself and find less offensive words to describe myself.

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Meanwhile I was also working on my memoir, which is now in its final draft stages. And of course my memoir is all about a period in my life where I am going through this profound psychic awakening and needing to come to terms with that. You know some of that story already – from the time where I lived in the Kimberley and was helped by my Aboriginal Aunties.

I recently gave my draft to a few people to read. My well-meaning writing friends and business colleagues told me to tone it down. But all my tribe, the ones who get me, told me to ramp it up. To include more of me and my weirdness, not less.

The more I work on polishing up my memoir the more I see that my tribe are right. Thanks to all of you I’ve decided that I just can’t do it. I can’t pretend to be a watered-down version of myself just to make other people feel more comfortable. If I can’t be myself, how can I ever ask that of you?

I guess it’s because we all worry about being judged, rejected or ridiculed if we show our true selves – warts and all.

Here on my blog I am always myself. I don’t hide anything. I have shared it all – the psychic stuff, the health stuff, the ins and outs of my life. And you guys have come and stayed. Thank you.

I promise you I’ll keep being myself. I’ll just do it bigger, and with a website that can support me to support you better in your own journeys.

I’m not just intuitive. I’m psychic. And I won’t be ashamed of that or hide that anymore. It’s my truth.

What’s your truth? What are you hiding or diminishing within you for fear of being judged?

I promise you that the people who will ‘get’ you, and who are the ones worth hanging out with, will be eager for you to just be yourself. If you have to change yourself or hide yourself you’re running with the wrong crowd.

The world desperately needs more authenticity. Not the hip kind. The unhip kind. The kind that allows us to be ourselves despite that self not looking like what marketers, magazines or social media tells us we need to be.

Will you join me in just being yourself?

Hi, I’m Nicole. I’m a psychic, channel, metaphysical teacher and mentor, a business coach, a blogger who loves to cook, a late-stage Lyme warrior who often lives in pyjamas and who favours gumboots and slippers for footwear ( although gumboots are better for dancing on the farm), and a writer who can’t stop writing, reading and acquiring more books.

How about you? I’d love to get to know you more. Feel free to drop me a comment below, or come visit me on facebook. Be yourself, and know I’ll love you for it!

Biggest hugs, Nicole  xx

A Gentle Reminder to Make Room For Life This Week

“Enjoy the little things in life, for one day you may look back and realize they were the big things.”
~ Robert Breault

Hello, Lovelies!

Here we are staring down the final days of January, and the refreshing breeze that is February energy is already being felt. 2018 is a fabulous year for creativity, planning, learning and doing, but don’t forget to make time for some living too.


This year – above all else – is a year for fun, family, relationships, time out, creating things and enjoying yourself. Don’t let the year go by without making time for what matters. Let yourself live a little. Slow down. Smell the roses, or maybe even grow some of your own.

Biggest love and hugs, Nicole  xx

 

The Week Ahead – Oracle for Monday 13 February 2017

“Conformity is the jailer of freedom and the enemy of growth.”
~ John F. Kennedy

Hello, Lovelies!

Here’s the oracle card I have chosen this Monday, and my take on the energetic outlook for the week ahead. I use any oracle or tarot cards shown as a prompt for channelled messages and my own intuitive wisdom, so my take is sometimes quite different to the meaning found in a book. ‘Growth’ is from the Chakra Wisdom Oracle Deck by Tori Hartman.

If you read my forecast for February, you’ll remember that February is all about turning inwards, and tuning in to our own wants and needs, staying true to ourselves and our goals despite our fears or what other people may tell us.

So, what gifts does Growth bring for you this week?

Growth reminds us that it takes time to work out who we are. It’s okay to be unsure. It’s also okay if it feels quite strange to begin honouring our own wishes, desires, decisions and needs after a lifetime of putting them second or hiding them off to one side.

Be aware – a side-effect of you beginning to speak up, or behaving and choosing differently is that some people might suddenly think that you’ve gone mad. Or that you need advice or therapy!

When we shift and change it can be quite confronting for the people around us who are still in the same space, and who expect that we’ll keep on being the same too. Our change creates change in the status quo for them, and change can be uncomfortable.

Growth reminds us that change and uncertainty are okay. There’s nothing wrong with you. You don’t need to be fixed because you’re not broken. You’re just evolving.

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A big old tree began as a seed, which became a tiny seedling. Over time it grew and grew until it took the form you see today. But just like you it’s a work in progress. How the tree looks today is not how it will look in a year’s time or ten years time. Life is about change.

Embrace that concept of change this week. Grow. Move towards the light.

Trust your intuition and instincts. Keep growing, even if you don’t know yet what you are evolving into. It will all be okay. Embrace not knowing. Just keep growing!

Supportive crystals this week? Ametrine, White Howlite, Fluorite, Orange Calcite, Labradorite, Moonstone, Carnelian. Go with the one that feels right to you, or choose a few.

Helpful essential oils?  Young Living’s Joy or Acceptance essential oil blends, or  a combination (or singly!) of any of Rose, Rosemary, Lemon, Vetiver and Lavender. The Joy blend is fabulous if you are feeling anxious or uncertain, or a bit sad or stuck. It’s reassuring and uplifting; wonderful for gently shifting depression and self-doubt.

Holding you, as always, in my thoughts, prayers and meditations, and intending for a you a life of abundance and joy, where you are no longer limited by your doubts.

All my love,

Nicole ❤ xx

Do what you have to do

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Sometimes what we need to do doesn’t feel good. Or it feels unfamiliar, all wrong, and way out of our comfort zone. It can often involve not just effort, but sacrifice.  While everyone else is taking things easy, while everyone else is having fun, you have work to be done.

To learn, to grow, to create the change, to forge our own opportunities – we’re going to have to do things differently.  You came here to make a difference.  You came here to follow the whisperings of your heart. You’re braver than you know.  And stronger.  So, my friend, today don’t just do what feels good.  Do what you have to do. Have courage.  Believe in yourself, and even if you don’t yet, do it anyway! I promise it will be worth it.