I’m Taking A Short Road Trip

“Go outside. Don’t tell anyone and don’t bring your phone. Start walking and keep walking until you no longer know the road like the palm of your hand, because we walk the same roads day in and day out, to the bus and back home and we cease to see. We walk in our sleep and teach our muscles to work without thinking and I dare you to walk where you have not yet walked and I dare you to notice. Don’t try to get anything out of it, because you won’t. Don’t try to make use of it, because you can’t. And that’s the point. Just walk, see, sit down if you like. And be. Just be, whatever you are with whatever you have, and realise that that is enough to be happy. 
There’s a whole world out there, right outside your window. You’d be a fool to miss it.” 
~  Charlotte Eriksson

 

Early next month I will celebrate my fiftieth birthday.

My husband has been bothering me for months, asking what I want to do to celebrate. And I kept avoiding his question. I didn’t think I wanted a big party, but part of me was trying to juggle the possibility, and all that ended up doing was deflating my party mood.

To further muddy the water I’ve been working on the final draft of my memoir, and combined with a year of hospitalisations, near-death experiences and lingering complications, as well as my background companion Lyme disease, the realisation of just how long I have been living with chronic illness and all that has stolen from me has been quite confronting.

Finally, after a long walk down to the river and back, I had a clear head. I am alive. That is what turning fifty is all about. I am still here, and it is up to me to fill my bucket with the things that matter to me. Fifty is no mean feat for someone who has nearly croaked it four times now. So I came up with a list of options. A birthday celebration list, and this is it:

  • A road trip with Ben, and he has to make some excellent playlists for me as a soundtrack for our adventure
  • A small but fancy and delicious High Tea with my sister and a group of my closest girlfriends
  • A weekend away writing, where all I have to think about is words on the page or going for a long walk to ponder a plot point. A place where my meals are cooked and my bed is comfortable, and I can get a cup of tea whenever I want.
  • A holiday, somewhere new, anytime in the next year, where I can sip champagne with Ben and count my many blessings
  • A raucous dinner party at home with my neighbours and Byron Bay pals, followed by a bonfire in the backyard, under the stars
  • A big meetup with Dana and all my students, YOMmers, and Cauldrons and Cupcakes peeps – with tasty treats and crystals and lots of hugs and fun
  • An early morning beach walk and meditation, with time for ritual, journaling, oracle cards and reflection time, just on my own with the big sky and my Aunties and Ancestors above me and the earth beneath my feet.

 

I brought my list to Ben. This is it, I said. I’m going to do one of these. Can you help me pick?

He read over the list, and then he smiled.

Do all of them, he said.

We’ll start with the road trip.

 

So today that’s what we’re doing. A few totally unplanned days away, wherever the road takes us, while a dear friend looks after the dogs and the farm.

Elle, I haven’t forgotten your question about God, the Universe and why stuff happens. In fact I’ve been thinking about it all week while we’ve had no phone or internet here at the farm. I’ve begun a blog post to answer it but it till needs a bit more thought. It was a big question, and it deserves a decent and considered answer. Expect one in the next few days.

Meanwhile, maybe it’s time for you to write a list of your own, my friends. Just because you can. Just because you’re alive. And that’s worth celebrating every day of the year.

Sending you all my love, some hugs and a very good virtual cuppa, Nicole xoxo

 

Manifesting Your Best Self – A Journal Adventure

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Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others. – Marianne Williamson

If thoughts, words and intent are the building blocks from which reality is shaped, can there be any better manifestation adventure for you than to create your best self?

Why settle for boring, or mediocre? Why limit yourself? Why be unhappy, toiling away in drudgery while your dreams sit in a box on a dusty shelf? This life is no dress rehearsal – there is no second chance to get this right. Commit today to making your life the best that it can be.

Journal Activity:

Begin by writing the following passage into your own journal.

Pour your heart into it. Let the Universe hear your plea, and feel your desire. Decorate your words, use coloured inks or stickers to help convey the dreams and emotions within you.

Then choose one or more of the journal starters below and begin writing. You can use the same journal starter more than once if it really resonates for you.

Dear Universe, 

Even before I was born I was excited about this life.  I was so busy choosing my talents and gifts, packing my bags, getting ready for the adventure. I couldn’t wait to get here! Everything began to line up for me, and suddenly, here I was, in this body, ready to begin…

There is so much I want to do with my life, I have so much to share, and I can feel that energy building up inside me again.  I can feel things lining up to support me in living my best life, and sharing my gifts with the world.

I’m a little nervous, and a little scared, and what I need now more than anything is some help to shine. But I know your job is to help, and my job is to accept that help, so we’re going to get along just fine. I’m ready – let’s do it!!!

Choose from any of these journal starters and begin manifesting your new life:

  • If I could have any wish right now it would be
  • The three things that would make the biggest difference in my life are
  • What would be most helpful to me is
  • The thing that excites me most about the future is
  • If I wasn’t so scared of failure I would truly embrace
  • If I had time, money and freedom, I would
  • The things that make me special are
  • The things I would most love to share with the world are
  • The legacy I’d like to leave behind is
  • The one thing I would change about myself is
  • The one thing in me that I’d like to polish and polish until it shines brightly is
  • If it were possible I would
  • I know it sounds outrageous but
  • The seven things I would like to see more of in my life are
  • If I could win any prize right now it would be
  • My ideal life would look like this –
  • My ideal body, style and habitat are
  • My version of a deluxe life is
  • The most magical thing I could draw to me right now is
  • The thing that is beginning to change my life is
  • It won’t be long until
  • I wasn’t ready before, but now I find I’m eager to

Soundtrack to My Life:

Music has the power to transform our emotions, and when we transform our emotions we transform our lives. This week you’re going to make a mixtape. If you’ve never made one, there’s a very simple how-to guide here on this video – they intend the playlist for someone else, but the special person who will be the recipient of this great music you’re choosing is YOU:

Choose songs that mean something to you, that evoke a mood, that stir emotions within you and make you feel positive, excited, inspired and uplifted. Listen to your mixtape often! The more you feel inspired and uplifted, the more you will begin to grow, evolve, become.  We need your unique gifts, talents and perspective in our world. Your heart always knows what it wants, and if you listen, it will always guide you well.

Shine! Be your best self – there is no-one better qualified.

Now make a wish – and know that the Universe will do its part to make it come true…

Much love to you ♥ xx