We’re On Retreat!


“In order to understand the world, one has to turn away from it on occasion.”Albert Camus


Today we enter Retreat until Sunday 11 March. It’s a sacred time for me and my team and for our retreat participants as we walk this spiritual path together, learning, sharing, connecting and finding time for ourselves.

This week is also a supportive energy for you if you wish to take time out for reflection, meditation and soul work.

You may not have been able to join us this week here at Sangsurya but you will still be represented in the crystal grid I shall construct at the centre of our meeting space, and in my twice daily prayers and meditations.

Peace be with you.

All my love, Nicole ❤ xx

Soul Journeying OR You Are More Than Your Earthsuit

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“Life’s journey doesn’t start on the highest mountain peak where a clear view of the trail ahead, obstacles and all, is laid out for us to observe before setting foot on the path. No. Life’s journey begins on a low road, in a valley, or even down inside a pit where the trail beyond can only be seen in short stretches, and any obstacles are met as they come. This makes life trying, even scary at times. Have faith that God gave you this life, and hence it is worth seeing through to the end of the trail.” 
Richelle E. GoodrichSlaying Dragons


Hello, lovely friends,

I’ve been thinking very deeply about the private responses you’ve sent me in the past few days. Messages about your secret shames and fears, your despair about not being able to overcome a health issue, or your limitations due to illness or living with a partner or child with an illness, or some other deep-seated issue or problem that has left you feeling unable to be all you hoped you could be.

There was a theme amidst your messages that deeply resonated with me, because it was my own theme for so very long: I am not worthy – I am not worthy and even worse I cannot follow my path…

I am not worthy because I am ill or disabled or afflicted or depressed or anxious or traumatised or unable to get out from under whatever is weighing me down. I can’t share my problems because they make me feel like a failure. They are shameful. I am shameful. I cannot follow my path because I am ill or afflicted or exhausted or broken or unable to do it the way that I wanted to. I have my life on hold and I am waiting for this thing to be fixed, even though I’ve been trying to fix it myself for so long. Or I’m broken from trying and I am ashamed that I have now given up. I am waiting to walk my path. I am waiting to be ready for my spiritual journey. I am waiting to find my gifts or share them.

Dear ones, if that in any way resonates, my words today are for you.

The soul journey happens despite what is going on in our lives. In fact, it’s often because life becomes difficult that a yearning awakens for a more spiritual path. It doesn’t matter  if you’re a little broken or a lot, if your time here on earth is short, or longer and not of the quality you had hoped. Let go of the idea that this is somehow all your fault, and that you must be fixed before you can journey.

This is the journey.

I’m reaching out to you today because I need you to hear this.

You can live broken. It can still be a good life. It can still fill you up and be beautiful despite illness, pain, despair and limitation. You can create and dream and make and connect and love and laugh and adventure and matter – to yourself and to others – even if your life is not perfect, or working out the way you had planned. I know, because I have lived with pain and brokenness and despair and frustration and so many other things. And I still do.

We are souls dressed up in Earthsuits. (Yep, I’m talking about your body here!) Sometimes those suits get awfully dinged up and damaged. Life is a risky business.

But inside that suit is your soul. And souls endure, remaining shiny and unaffected by the dust and damage that your Earthsuit might have accumulated.

In fact, I think that our souls deepen and shine brighter because of the hardships our Earthsuits go through.

Please, stop beating yourself up. Stop blaming. Stop the meanness and the endless stress and self-recrimination. Stop waiting for things to change. Stop needing things to be better. Surrender to where you are. Surrender to what is. This is your one beautiful chance at this life, and it goes by in the blink of an eye. Your Earthsuit might be damaged but you are still here, and life outside your Earthsuit still holds wonder and beauty and magic if only you can allow yourself to keep feeling and experiencing and allowing, in spite of whatever else is going on for you.

You can be a healer and still be broken yourself. You can be a teacher, and never leave your home. You can be an artist or a writer or an entrepreneur and never leave your bed. You don’t need to be perfect or beautiful or young or fit or healthy or able-bodied. You can limp through life and still live it well. If you are alive, even if only just, you can think and feel and dream and you can do soulwork. You can lift yourself out of pain and isolation and back into connection, just be deciding that you’ll live anyway, despite whatever circumstances you find yourself experiencing.

You are worthy just as you are. And there is a path for you in this life that only you can take. No matter how messed up or impossible things might seem to be for you right now. Just by being alive you matter.

Soul work – that space of meditation and reflection, of connection and communion, or asking the big questions and being okay with silence or answers unexpected, that great big process of opening up to yourself and the Universe? You, my friend, are born to it. In fact, because of all this shit you have endured or are enduring, you are primed for something deeper and more meaningful in the way that your soul will journey.

So, let me give you a hug. Your journey is my journey. I’m here for you. You matter to me, and your life matters.

That world of perfect bodies and healthy happy people doing amazing things and living a life you can never have? It doesn’t even exist. It’s all just marketing. Everyone in their lifetime will experience troubles, pain, hurt, frailty and diminishment. Everyone. Most people just don’t talk about it. It’s not very Facebook or Instagram worthy.

Take a deep breath. You are where you are. And it might totally suck. But somewhere inside you is a place untouched by that pain, and perhaps made more beautiful and wise because of it. You’re a soul, and you have every right to be here, and to follow your heart. It’s why you came to Earth, despite all the risks and dangers. Be yourself anyway. Live, anyway. Do, anyway. Be, anyway. Feel, anyway. It’s worth it. All it takes is a little shift in your thinking and your life can open up again.

I love you. I’m here for you. I’m cheering you on. Nicole  xx

PS – If you want help to walk this path you can join my Year of ME membership group – a supportive place where you can belong and fit right in, just as you are (details in my shop – look for the year long course or subscription option), or come along to my Awakening to Spirituality Retreat. You’d be so welcome!



We’re On Retreat!

“God is all that exists. Every stone, flower, tree, animal and human being are on a spiritual journey to recognize their true self, their divine essence.” 
~  Swami Dhyan Giten


Today we move into our week-long meditation retreat.

It’s a time to go within. A time of discovery, connection and revelation.

A gift to ourselves of peace and spaciousness –  a gift of solitude and reflection in our otherwise busy lives.

Next week I’ll share some simple activities you can do at home to make the most of these energies that are so supportive of us as we journey within. And I’ll hold you all in meditation as I work with this group, including you in our soul work.

Sending much love your way,

Nicole  xoxo

Mini-Retreat Day 5 – Our Final Day


“Connecting with yourself and knowing yourself is a monumental and life changing event.”
~ Bryant McGill


It’s the final day of our Accelerated Channelling retreat today, although we still have another month together of online lessons and sharing.

It’s also the final day of your Mini-Retreat, although you still have a whole lifetime of being able to work with your Higher Self, your Guides and Angels and you, of course!

We are at the beginning of a new energetic era. Everything is faster. Spiritual connection comes quickly. Psychic abilities develop easily. This is an era of communication, collaboration, integration and balanced energy.

In this new era you cannot have spiritual and psychic development without also having personal development. This is a journey of integrated growth. Of being in alignment with your heart, your values and your soul calling.

So on this last day of our retreat, I am calling on you to sit quietly with yourself and feel into that space within. Psychic development must be about your own journey first.

Today sit awhile with your soul. Call upon your Higher Self and your Guides and Angels if needed. Use your journal and your cards. Sit in nature and allow yourself the gift of deep listening. And then consider these questions. Let the answers come, and then sit again, just listening. Let the awareness and the questions and answers sit with you. Don’t feel that you need to act or to understand all at once. Clarity and wisdom often take time.

Questions to explore:

  • Where am I out of alignment?
  • Where is my integrity compromised?
  • Where am I moving in the right direction? (Celebrate this and then go deeper with this direction. Where else can you go? What comes next?)
  • Where can I end things?
  • Where can I begin?
  • What are my gifts?
  • How can I best serve myself, my loved ones and humanity?

Thank you so much for joining us as we have journeyed through the past five days. The remainder of this week and next are a fabulous time for further insights, self enquiry and clarity of direction. I hope that you are able to make use of the energies to deepen your connection to soul and source.

Holding you, as ever, in my thoughts and meditations, Nicole xx