“Sometimes defiance is all we have.”
~ Stan Grant
Today I don’t want to talk to you, dear friend. I want to talk to that stompy cranky five-year-old who dwells defiantly inside you. I want to talk to that inner child of yours because I can see you two are having problems.
You want to do yoga, but your inner five-year-old wants to binge on Netflix and pizza. You want to work on your project, but your inner five-year-old would rather line up all your shoes in order of colour and style. You have a deadline and suddenly your inner five-year-old is sooooo sleepy that you can’t concentrate. Oh, wait! Your pal just called and invited you to the movies. Your inner five-year-old who was too tired to work is suddenly raring to go and ready for a big night out.
The grown-up you is blaming yourself for all of this self-sabotage. I can hear how meanly you’re talking to yourself, blaming yourself, being down on yourself.
And no-one’s listening to that inner child at all.
Why would your inner child go off the rails and make you do the opposite of all the things you know are good for you or that need to be done even if they are no fun?
That is why I want to talk to your inner five-year-old-child directly.
Hello, Little Friend. I’m sorry that you’re feeling so trapped, so bored, so not listened to. I understand that you are tired of being told what to do all the time. I’m sorry that your life feels like an endless to-do list of chores that leave no room for fun or friends or goofing off or being tired when you’re tired instead of having to keep being busy.
No wonder you’re sabotaging everything your Big Self is trying to do!
But can you do me a favour? Why not try and be friends? Why not let your Big Self do yoga, and then let the Little You have a frozen nice-cream cone afterwards? Why not help your Big You do this month’s bookwork and then settle down on the couch together with Netflix?
And maybe, when your Big You feels a little relieved, or less guilty, or more tidy or more organised or more healthy – because you’ve helped them to take a step towards what they think will help them – maybe after that you can both talk about including more of the things that Little You knows are good for your soul too.
Maybe after a good yoga session you can help your Big You face the fact that the job she’s doing is crushing her soul, or that her partner is mean and will never treat her well. I know you have a lot of wisdom inside you, Little Friend, because you see things as they really are, not as the Big You wants them to be, or fears them to be.
I also know that you understand what makes the Big You light up, what excites her and makes her happy, what makes her soul sing, and what direction her feet want to take her in.
All this foot-stompy cranky self-sabotaging behaviour is making both of you miserable. It’s time to kiss and make up, be best friends again and help each other out.
Your poor Big Self thinks it’s all her fault – that she is lazy and lacking in will-power and commitment and self-discipline. She doesn’t understand that wise Little You is having this temper tantrum because no-one is listening to what you have to say. Imagine how much happier and empowered you will be when you begin working as a team again.
Hugs to you both, Little Friend and Big Friend. You’ve got this. I can’t wait to see what comes next for you!
All my love, Nicole ❤ xx
PS – June Workshops and Pop Up Shop:
If you’re looking for some extra support for your spiritual journey come check out my upcoming Pop Up Shop, Channelling Night and One Day Workshops in Brisbane 29 June to July. On Saturday June 30 I’ll be teaching Foundation Spiritual Practices (the things I used to develop my own psychic and intuitive skills, self-awareness and compassion), and on Sunday July 1 I’ll teach Meditation and Mala Making (this second workshop is brilliant if you are feeling stressed and overwhelmed, stuck or suffering from anxiety or depression). No matter what level you’re at I’ll have something for you on my program. More details here!
All details are on my EVENTS tab at the top of my blog post or here at this link.