“The cure for anything is salt water. Sweat, tears, or the ocean.”
~ Isak Dinesen
It’s been building up for a while.
I do my best to manage it. I meditate twice daily. I ground myself. I sit in awareness and go gently when I need to.
But it’s never enough…
All the things I feel.
All the things I know.
All the things I see.
All the things I feel you hiding.
All the pain I feel inside you.
All the things of yours that I feel in me as I connect with you, hug you, work with you. Recent things, old things, things from childhood. Things sometimes from before even that.
All the injustices and terrible things that I see in the world or in some of my work where I must live with that knowledge, and the fact that I can’t change it.
All the times I can’t keep someone safe.
All the times my dreams become a continuation of the truth and suffering of others so that I might take some of that burden from you, or so that I can share that information with those who are empowered to act.
All the weight of all the things and all the feels and all that raw life.
Sometimes I find myself moving more and more slowly. Getting heavier and heavier in my body and my spirit. It comes upon me and I know that I can only hold it back for so long.
It always ends in tears.
But, after I have cried I feel better. Then I will take a walk, and then a swim in the ocean or a long shower.
Things go back to manageable again. The weight is lifted from me.
I have learned that it is okay to cry. In fact, sometimes it’s the only thing that truly helps.
How about you? What do you do to manage the weight of the world?
I am refreshed this morning, and sending so much love to you as I sit in meditation,
Nicole <3 xoxo