“There’s a sorrow and pain in everyone’s life, but every now and then there’s a ray of light that melts the loneliness in your heart and brings comfort like hot soup and a soft bed.”
~ Hubert Selby Jr., Requiem for a Dream
Right now I’m pushing through an aggressive round of drugs and herbs to treat my Lyme disease and various co-infections. Oh goodness yesterday was tough. In fact my misery had started late in the afternoon of the previous day, from which time everything deteriorated.
At first I meditated. Then I tried to distract myself with a thoughtful gift from a friend who had packed me a little bag full of prompts, sounds and smells to take me on a journey through France, all from the comfort of my bed.
Eventually though, my physical pain and discomfort became too much for those kinds of imagination games. My very bones ached, my head throbbed as if it might explode, my skin burned, it felt like a million monsters were scratching and biting at me. Nothing I did seemed to reduce my suffering. How was I going to cope with weeks more of this same horror?
I needed some help.
Reaching over the side of my bed I groped around in my ‘Lucky Dips’ bag, and pulled out the first one my fingers found.
Here’s the little Love Letter I chose for myself. Perhaps it will have a message for you too…
My Lucky Dip Bag #1. All of the items inside were chosen randomly and placed in bags ready for when I might need them. Because of the way I put these packages together I have no idea what the contents will be.
Lucky Dip #1 contents:
An Oracle Card from Doreen Virtue’s Goddess Guidance Deck:
A random note of encouragement from me:
A Kimberley Amethyst I picked up many years ago in the company of my Aboriginal Aunties:
I hugged that rock to me all day and used it as a focus point while I meditated.
‘It will all be worth it’, I reminded myself.
‘My prayers have been heard and are being answered.’
I slept with the crystal under my pillow. I slept! This morning I woke up feeling a little better. Less pain. More optimism. 5 weeks, 3 days to go…
Whatever challenges you’re facing right now, I’m encouraging you to keep going. It will be worth it! You’re in my thoughts, prayers and meditations.
Much love to you, Nicole xx
