How Controversial Should I Be?

“But I know, somehow, that only when it is dark enough can you see the stars.” 
~ Martin Luther King, Jr.

I was working with a client a few days ago, and the topic rolled around to suicide.

She had been suicidal once, at a truly difficult time in her life. With therapy and support her life has now moved beyond the worst of the pain and back to a place of balance. But there is no-one to talk with about what happened, she said, now that she no longer pays a therapist to listen. And she worries people will think she is still in that space if she tries to talk about it with friends or family.

‘I understand,’ I said to her.

‘How could you?’ she answered crossly. ‘Only people who’ve been there understand. I mean REALLY understand.’

‘I can feel into your body, and step inside you where you met that pain head-on. So yes, I can understand it from inside you – as a psychic,’ I said, ‘but I also understand. Me. I understand.’ I said those last words more slowly this time, weighting each one.

‘No way,’ she said. ‘You? I don’t believe it.’ She looked genuinely shocked.

‘It’s true.’ I looked her in the eye. ‘I have stood in that place twice, and both times it was unexpected. Each place was a different planet I hope never to go back to. Both times I found a solution that ultimately kept me here. And you’re right. No-one ever talks about this stuff.’

We were out of time, and this was about me now, not about her.

‘Maybe you could blog about it,’ she said to me as we finished up. ‘I would have found that useful, to have known someone like you could have had feelings like me. I mean, I was so f*cked up and broken and ashamed…’ She paused. ‘To have read that, to read that now, would still be helpful. So, could you?’

What do you think, dear Tribe? I’ve written about being psychic and being incontinent and all other manner of personal over-sharing. Should I break this taboo too?

I’ll be guided by you.

Much love, Nicole xx

Revisiting Our Guiding Card for 2018

“Be the celebrators, celebrate! Already there is too much—the flowers have bloomed, the birds are singing, the sun is there in the sky—celebrate it! You are breathing and you are alive and you have consciousness, celebrate it!” 
~  Osho

 

As May comes to a close I thought it time to revisit the guiding energies for 2018. This year The Sun is our guiding card and her message is a powerful and wise one.

This year is about connection and inclusion. It’s a fine year for all forms of creativity, fertility and innovation. 2018 is heart-focused. Relationships – with yourself, with others, with your work – that’s what matters this year.It’s a great year for healing old hurts, mending fences and rebuilding relationships. It’s also a year where you’re clearly see where to walk away and put your energies to situations and relationships that are more suitable for you.

The Sun shows us that this year we’re supported to spend time in acts of creativity and innovation. Ideas will flow. Things will come together. Making money, making art, connecting in love, original ideas and projects – all of these things will become easier as we work on healing our old hurts, fears and limiting beliefs.
It’s also a year for socialising, for celebrating and for connecting with family and friends.

The Sun’s energy is strongly aligned with our Solar Plexus Chakra – our centre of Self. Our solar plexus is the bright yellow chakra that sits around the navel, and this chakra is all about our identity and sense of self, our individuality and self-sovereignty. It’s time to be more true to ourselves. We need to shine our Light in the world by being who we came here to be. This might have made the beginning of 2018 difficult for you, as you began to feel into the truth of who you are and to see where the life you are currently living may not have been aligned with your innermost truth and values. Shift and realignment can be uncomfortable while we are in that readjustment period – while we’re facing how far we’ve moved away from our true north – and making changes to our behaviours, beliefs, relationships and circumstances.

It’s a time for making things and creating art. For finding a life path that fills us with gratitude, for celebration and for strong growth in our families and businesses. It’s about belonging to or creating a tribe of our own. A time for enjoying ourselves and this gift that is our lives. A time for moving forward together.

After years on a path of struggle and feeling alone in the world, 2018 opens out onto a kinder energy where we can finally begin to feel like we belong. First thought, we might need to break free of the old. That’s okay. The pain of that change will be worth it.

Don’t waste your year on hard work and striving unless that is absolutely the thing that lights you up, and even then make sure there is ample time to smell the roses. It’s a year where we need to slow down, reflect and find ways to have meaningful engagement with ourselves and the world around us.

At its heart 2018 is a soul-centred and abundant year. It holds a very fresh, nurturing and inspiring energy. It’s a year of possibility, creativity, connectedness, communication, collaboration and community. It’s a time where love can blossom, and relationships can thrive. The families we are born into or create for ourselves, our friendships, our work and community connections – all of these will have a greater importance for us this year.

So, as we come into June which is a month for reflection, soul work, for rest and healing and cosy-ing up with the people we love, it’s worth looking back on what we have already decided, overcome or acted upon this year, and celebrating our milestones, however large or small they may be.

You might also find this simple meditation helpful:

Eating The Sun 

Holding you in my meditations and my heart. Thanks for sharing the journey with me, dear friends, Much love,

Nicole ❤ xoxo