New Link to Connect To Your Calling Course Outline!


“We must become the change we want to see.” ~ Mahatma Gandhi

Lovelies, hello!
I’m so sorry we had a technical glitch on this morning’s blog and some of you have been unable to access the course outline through the link.

We will hold off on allocating Retreat Places for 24 hours, to enable everyone to have fair access.

You can find the course outline and all details about the Connect to Your Calling Retreat and Mentoring Program by CLICKING HERE or by downloading the PDF below.

To fill in your Expression of Interest to gain a place on the Retreat and Mentoring Program CLICK HERE.

And if you have any trouble at all please email Chelsi at chelsi@cauldronsandcupcakes.com or Trish at nicolecodyinfo@gmail.com and they will help you out!

Not sure what we’re talking about? You can read all about it on this morning’s blog post.

Are You Ready To Connect To Your Calling? Residential Retreat and Mentoring Program 2019

Much love, Nicole xx

Are You Ready To Connect To Your Calling? Residential Retreat and Mentoring Program 2019

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“I believe there’s a calling for all of us. I know that every human being has value and purpose. The real work of our lives is to become aware. And awakened. To answer the call.” 
~ Oprah Winfrey

This year my August Accelerated Channelling Retreat and Intensive Mentoring Program sold out in one day. Such was the interest that we decided to run the exact same course in February next year.

I promised people we would run the course again and then we asked everyone to wait to apply until we put up the new Expression of Interest and Course Outline. It should have been a simple thing to do, even though we have had to make adjustments to the 2019 program price because of cost increases from our suppliers. But I’ve kept holding off on announcing and filling the course. And I trusted that even though I didn’t know WHY I was holding off, that I needed to heed that intuition.

I became very ill with a virus and severe chest infection in late October and then spent all of November in bed. Among other complications, I lost my vision and I lost my voice and in the end all I could do was meditate. November was a powerful month for metaphysical work. During my many days of meditation I experienced the most intense spiritual journey I’ve had for many years and at the end of that time I understood that I needed to rework the February Channelling Retreat. I received very specific information to share on that retreat and in the supporting online course afterwards.

So, I’m pleased to announce that in addition to the existing Channelling and Sacred Geometry techniques I will teach on Retreat in February, this Retreat and Mentoring has a new focus. Announcing:

Connect To Your Calling – Residential Retreat and Mentoring Program

The next four years 2019 – 2022 are significant for our personal and spiritual evolution, as well as for the evolution of our planet. I know that many of you have incarnated into this lifetime SPECIFICALLY because you have a calling to be of service. You feel that calling deep in your heart. It’s a pull you can’t ignore and YOU FEEL READY TO STEP UP AND BE OF SERVICE in some way that only you can do.

On our 6-day residential retreat, followed by the three-month online group mentoring program I am going to show you how to use advanced Channelling techniques, shamanic techniques using Sacred Geometry, and personal journeymaking rituals and skills to help you:

  • clarify your calling
  • learn how to receive your own channelled guidance about your calling so that you can continue to deepen this journey and your understanding of yourself and your path long after Retreat is finished
  • how to define a path for actioning your calling in the wider world

Channelling isn’t just about connecting into energies and wisdom outside of yourself. It’s also about connecting more deeply to your own wisdom and soul experience. At its most pure channelling is a shamanic practice that will render you more authentically yourself, burning away the contrivances and insecurities that you’ve been hiding behind.

I designed this Intensive Retreat and Mentoring Program to give you the best possible support and experience for your spiritual journey. This course is all about getting you ready to do the work you came here to do or advancing your existing work in the world. If you’re ready and have been waiting for the teacher to appear, here I am.

Throughout our time together I’ll tune you up to these post-2012 energies and actively accelerate your psychic, spiritual and personal growth by teaching you a range of practices and techniques to open you to channelling, to your Higher Self, and to your Oversoul.

Give me six days of your life in early 2019, and a few short, regular, guided sessions each week for the following three months and I’ll take you to places you’d never thought possible in your metaphysical practice, enabling you to connect deeply to your calling and become clear about how to live that calling in the wider world. The practices and techniques I teach you will continue to grow and guide you long after our time together ends.

There is no more time. We have to step up. We have to be who we came here to be.

In your heart you know that’s true too. You feel that urgency. You’re ready. All you need is a place to start, and some support for that journey only you can take.

If you’re ready for the next stage of your spiritual journey CLICK HERE to access more information. If you can’t access the link Click Below to download the file:

Then when you’re ready CLICK HERE to fill in your Expression of Interest.

But please act quickly because this course has limited places, a quarter of them are already allocated, and it will sell out.

Update: There are TWO places left, and I’m waiting for confirmation on one of those so please get back to us as soon as you can.

I’m looking forward to working with you, Nicole xx

Accelerated Channelling Course Update

“Every thought is a creative energy that moves the universe to action.” 
― Réné Gaudett

 

Hi, Lovelies!
I just wanted to let you know that we have been inundated with interest for our 2018 Accelerated Channelling course, mentoring and retreat.

Every place has now been filled and we also have a waiting list for this course. Expressions of Interest and Booking Form submissions are now closed.

We are so excited to be delivering this course, and sharing some of this material for the very first time. I know that many of you felt a strong calling to join us, and I wanted to reassure you that it’s not too late. Although our offering for 2018 is filled, we have some good news.

Currently, we are finalising dates so that we can run this same course again in 2019. Once again we expect this course to sell out very quickly. Those of you who were successful with your EOI but weren’t quick enough submitting your booking form to secure a place will be offered advance placement for next year’s course. We will then release details and an early-bird booking opportunity just as soon as we have all the details locked in.

If you wanted to apply this year but felt you weren’t quite ready I recommend you attend either of my one-day workshops that will be held in Brisbane at the end of this month. Foundation Spiritual Practices workshop on June 30 will give you the foundation skills you need to build a regular spiritual and energetic practice to prepare you for retreat. Making and Using Meditation Mala Beads on July 1 will help you to use meditation as a tool for developing your psychic and intuitive connection and is a logical step for those of you who are yearning for a deeper connection with self, Guides and God. Details on both of these courses are available here.

And of course if you want to see channelling in action come join me in Brisbane on Friday night, June 29 for an evening with me and my Guides. Details here.

Much love, Nicole  xx

 

 

 

Are You Ready For Our Accelerated Channelling Retreat?

“Spirituality is not adopting more beliefs and assumptions but uncovering the best in you.” ~ Amit Ray

When I first became serious about my spiritual and psychic journey, when I’d gone past that beginner space and I knew that it was time to make the most of my abilities I searched high and low for a book, a teacher, anything that would guide me.

And I found… nothing.

Are you where I was, way back when? Do you feel a yearning for deeper spiritual connection, a calling to be of service in some way, a desire to be more than you currently are and to live with a far greater degree of self-awareness? Do you want to find a way to make your psychic and intuitive gifts a more normal and natural part of your wider life, and to do more with those gifts?

The course and retreat that I am about to share with you is the course I wish I had found. I’ve created an intensive mentoring course that includes two months of online work with a six-day residential retreat in the middle. The focus (and the name of this course) is Accelerated Channelling Using Sacred Geometry.

Channelling isn’t just about connecting into energies and wisdom outside of yourself. It’s also about connecting more deeply to your own wisdom and soul experience. At its most pure channelling is a shamanic practice that will render you more authentically yourself, burning away the contrivances and insecurities that you’ve been hiding behind.

I designed this Intensive Mentoring Course and Retreat to give you the best possible support and experience for your spiritual journey. It’s everything I was looking for back when I was looking to grow myself psychically in order to move to a more advanced level of practice, connection and self-awareness. This course is all about getting you ready to do the work you came here to do or advancing your existing work in the world. If you’re ready and have been waiting for the teacher to appear, here I am.

Throughout our time together I’ll tune you up to these post-2012 energies and actively accelerate your psychic, spiritual and personal growth by teaching you a range of practices and techniques to open you to channelling, to your Higher Self, and to your Oversoul.

Give me ten minutes of your day for two months. give me six days of your life in the midst of that, and I’ll help you reach places you’d never thought possible in your metaphysical practice. And these practices and techniques will continue to grow and guide you long after our time together ends.

I’m passionate about this course. It combines more than thirty years of my own experience with new channelled information, Soul Journeymaker work, Chakra Wisdoms and Sacred Geometry. I know you’re ready for it – even if you feel like a complete novice right now. What I’m looking for is those of you with that sense of a calling and a commitment to this journey. In these new energies since 2015 connection is easier and things that once took my advanced students months to master I have been teaching to my beginners in just a few hours. Imagine where I’ll take you in our time together!

If you’re ready for the next stage of your spiritual journey CLICK HERE to access more information.

Then when you’re ready CLICK HERE to fill in your Expression of Interest.

But please act quickly, because this course has only a few places left and it will sell out quickly.

I’m looking forward to working with you, Nicole xx

Mini-Retreat Day 1 – Higher Self Connection

“I like to listen. I have learned a great deal from listening carefully. Most people never listen.”
~ Ernest Hemingway

“You are one thing only. You are a Divine Being. An all-powerful Creator. You are a Deity in jeans and a t-shirt, and within you dwells the infinite wisdom of the ages and the sacred creative force of All that is, will be and ever was.”
~ Anthon St. Maarten

 

So often we look outside ourselves for answers, forgetting that there is a source of wisdom that is always available to us – our own Higher Self.

Your Higher Self is the wisest aspect of you. Your soul. The same soul that has lived with awareness through all of this lifetime, the space between lifetimes, and any lifetimes you may have experienced prior to this one.

Your Higher Self is not your conscious mind or your ego, or your subconscious, although it knows all of these aspects of yourself. Instead it is an energy of pure love, compassion and wisdom, imbued with your own unique gifts, talents and preferences.

When you are struggling for answers, when you have lost your direction, it is good to reconnect to your Higher Self so that you can work through your issues with guidance from the part of you who remembers your best self and your potential. Your Higher Self also knows your Heart Path – the direction in life that will give you emotional satisfaction and happiness.

Today we’re going to connect with our Higher Self and then use that energy and connection to explore some important life questions.

To complete this activity in our mini-retreat you’ll need

  • A crystal or stone you can hold comfortably in your hand
  • A journal
  • Some pens and pencils
  • A deck of your favourite oracle or tarot cards that you have chosen just because you love their pictures.
  • A little time set aside just for you. The meditation requires 13 minutes and you’ll need at least another ten for journalling. If you have the luxury, allow an hour. Take more time if you have it, and are ready for a big dose of soul work.

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Guided Meditation for Connecting with Your Higher Self

To do the meditation, hold your chosen crystal, and then sit or lie comfortably, close your eyes, and follow along to the sound of my voice:

 

Journal and Card Activity

Know that you have this connection to your Higher Self, continue to hold your crystal to help strengthen that bridge of connection. Yes, it’s okay to put the stone down and pick it up again – but hold the stone when you are writing, or reflecting on a card.

Journal Prompts:

Use your time to explore the following questions in your journal. Write the question at the top of the page, and then close your eyes for a moment, and feel back into the energy of your Higher Self. Strengthen the white and golden light. Feel that sense of peace and calm and expansion come upon you. Then open your eyes and write your response.

*Important – make sure that when you finish writing your answer, leave space to write one more response below. Give yourself half a page or a full page if possible.

The questions to ask are:

  • What do I most need to know right now?
  • What is my place of greatest possibility in using my talents and gifts?
  • What is my next step?
  • What simple changes can I make to affect greater happiness in my life?
  • What is my Higher Self’s greatest vision for my life?

Write as much or as little as you need. You may feel like you are making it all up. That’s okay. Keep writing. Trust the process.

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Using your Oracle or Tarot Cards

When you have finished journalling, take your cards, offer up a small prayer that whatever you do be for your Highest Good, and then shuffle the deck.

Now go back to the first question. Read the question again, but not your first response.

Shuffle the deck again, asking your Higher Self What else do I need to see in relation to this question?  Choose one card. How you choose is up to you. Split the deck. Fan them out. Top or bottom. Dive right in. There is no right or wrong.

Now look at your card and hold your crystal in your non-writing hand. Really look at the card. Don’t use the book or the ‘proper’ meaning. We are being intuitive here, people! Trust the guidance of your Higher Self. What stands out for you in the picture? What thoughts and ideas do the images provoke? Take a minute or two and write those thoughts down. You may want to use a different coloured pen for this part. I know, you might still feel like you’re just making it all up. That’s okay. Write anyway. Trust that there is a part of you that is wise and that has been waiting for this chance to speak with your conscious mind.

If you need to, draw up to five cards to gain further insight and clarity for this situation.

Then move to the next question and repeat the process.

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Enjoy your reflection time, and if you can, spend a little time in nature today. This weekend has such a powerful ability to connect you in to your own and higher wisdoms. Use that energy well to help you get answers to your questions, and to provide direction for the months and years ahead.

I’ll see you tomorrow, when we’ll be connecting in with our guides and angels!

Sending much love to you from our retreat, Nicole xoxo

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Making My Life Work for Me – Week 2

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“Never tell a young person that anything cannot be done. God may have been waiting centuries for someone ignorant enough of the impossible to do that very thing.” ~ G. M. Trevelyan

“Maybe we should develop a Crayola bomb as our next secret weapon.  A happiness weapon.  A beauty bomb.  And every time a crisis developed, we would launch one.  It would explode high in the air – explode softly – and send thousands, millions, of little parachutes into the air.  Floating down to earth – boxes of Crayolas.  And we wouldn’t go cheap, either – not little boxes of eight.  Boxes of sixty-four, with the sharpener built right in.  With silver and gold and copper, magenta and peach and lime, amber and umber and all the rest.  And people would smile and get a little funny look on their faces and cover the world with imagination.”  ~ Robert Fulghum

Welcome to Week 2 of our six week Making My Life Work for Me Program. (If you’re just joining us now, pop back and read the very first post so that you can gather the materials we’ll be using today.) This week our focus is on being open to new ideas, new solutions and things that have been lurking in our subconscious that we have been too stressed, tired, wired or defeated to pay any real attention to.  There’s good stuff in that head of yours.  There’s treasure for sure!

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Instructions:

We will be following the same format each week.  Read through this entire post before you get started. You can do the activities all on one day, or spread them put over the week – whatever works best for you.

Meditation:

We’re going to start with a meditation. But today it’s an active meditation. Find a song or piece of music you love and queue it ready to play.  Hold your crystal and drape your scarf or shawl around your shoulders.  Start your song and then close your eyes.  Lose yourself to the music.  Let the music get right inside you. When the song finishes sit for a minute, absorbing the energy, and be open to what comes next. The music will deliver a message to you.  Be open to it, and write it down in your journal. It could be lyrics, an image, an idea.  Trust whatever comes to you. This week, in quiet moments, expand on what this message means to you, and how you can begin to incorporate this energy in your life.

Visualisation:

Do this straight after your meditation, when you are ready and open for receiving! Close your eyes and use your imagination. See yourself the way you want yourself to be in the world.  Feel the emotions that come with this, and have gratitude and expectation of drawing these things into your life.  Really put some energy into this.  You can repeat this step again this week (even daily) if it feels right.  Thoughts are things, and this is how you manifest in the Universe!

Using Your Journal:

Go back and re-read your Pledge.  Think about your commitment to making this new life for yourself: one that fits you much better, one that gives you far better satisfaction and scope for joy. Hold this energy of possibility in your heart as you work with your journal this week.

Feel free to use your paints, coloured pens, glitter and stickers to make your journal visually attractive.  Get involved in the creation process and let your Inner Child rock your world, in the very best of ways!

Card of the Week: 

2013-03-24 16.30.18Let’s get the ball rolling by selecting this week’s Guidance.  Take your deck of positive cards, or your rune bag.  Close you eyes and offer up a prayer for the Highest Good, and then quiet your mind.

Randomly select a card/rune, trusting that it will have a message to guide you this week.  Write down the name of the card/rune and the message.  Feel free to add any additional thoughts or insights you might have.

The card I’ve chosen this week is well aligned with our theme.

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Trust that there is a wise and creative part of you that wants to help you redesign your life.  All the answers are within you – now we simply need to learn how to tune in and find them!

Week 2 Journal Activity:

On a clean page write a stream of consciousness around the question What can I do?  This is a big question, once you get started, so don’t limit yourself.  You may even want to come back to it over several days. Write as little or as much as you need to. Simply ask yourself the question and then answer it, letting the words pour out of you. If you feel blocked get up and go for a walk.  Play your song again, and then write! Draw pictures or mind map if you feel like it. If you cry or have some other emotional release understand that this is a good thing.

And now for some fun…

Collage – Things that inspire me.  Take your pile of old magazines and place them in front of you.  Holding your crystal close your eyes and say out loud “Universe, I am open to all Guidance and my own Higher Wisdom to show me the things inspire me, and show me beneficial direction in my life.”  Take a moment and sit in that energy, really feeling yourself connecting into and opening to that wisdom.

Then when you’re ready, open your eyes and start flicking through the magazines.  If any pictures or words appeal to you, cut or rip them out and place them beside you. When you have enough images cut them up neatly, and then spend some time arranging them on a page or double page of your journal.  If your journal isn’t big enough, feel free to use a sheet of cardboard. Glue your images to the page and leave it open to dry.  Now you have a strong visual reminder of your inspirations, how can you incorporate more of these energies in your daily life?

Were there any surprises?  Did you notice any particular themes?

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Gratitude:

What’s already working in your life?  List five things in your journal each day that you are grateful for in your life.

Nightly Healing :

Get into bed and spend five minutes lying quietly in meditation with your eyes closed.  Call on God, Universal Energy, your Angels, your Guides, your Ancestors, whomever you feel comfortable and safe with.  Ask for their help.  Fill your body with white light, and then draw coloured light (just allow a colour to come to you) through your crown chakra (an energy point on the top of your head) and send it anywhere in your body that needs healing.  Feel the warmth as the energy radiates through your body, uplifting and healing you.  Know that answers will come while you are sleeping.

Give thanks, send this same healing gift from you to anyone or anywhere else if it feels right, and then sleep.  Expect dreams that inspire, heal and inform. Wishing you a wonderful week.

Much love to you, Nicole ♥ xx

Are you brave enough to follow The Call?

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Have you ever had a crazy, crazy hunch, or an idea you just can’t get out of your head?

Maybe in the middle of being a Dentist you start thinking of Art School.

I mean REALLY thinking about Art School.

You become a closet hoarder of Art School brochures, you haunt their on-line curriculum, and while you spend your days peering into people’s mouths, part of you is dreaming about how different your life could look…

It goes from being a wild idea to the tender beginnings of a plan. (For more information on how to protect that tender plan or idea read this!)

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Or you wake up thinking about Peru.

Of all places!

Your whole life Peru hasn’t even been on the radar and now it’s everywhere. There are posters of Peru in the Travel Agent’s window, your friend lends you a book about Peru, there’s a show about it on the Discovery Channel. Your dreams are filled with llamas and Machu Picchu.

You can’t explain why, but suddenly you have an overwhelming urge to go there.

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It’s known in my world as ‘The Call’.

Maybe it’s God. Spirit. Angels. Your wise Higher Self. Guides.  Your own heart…

Whatever it is, it’s calling you, and it won’t let up.

Art School.  Peru.  Walking across Spain. Entering that competition. Calling your friend from College all those years ago. That idea for the book/TV show/film/restaurant/rock band/charity/house makeover/epic adventure.

You find the seed of a strange and unexpected idea inside you, that grows into something bigger.  It gets reflected back to you from all angles. Waking, sleeping and everything in-between – there it is. The Call.

And in my experience, when you follow that Call, life begins to gift you all manner of support, synchronicity, helpful people and lucky breaks.

You meet your soul mate.  You finally work out what you want to be when you grow up.  Your spiritual and psychic gifts kick in. You do that thing, that leads to the thing (and there could be a bit of a chain of that happening, so insert extra ‘things’ here if necessary) that gets you to this amazing new place of flow and happiness in your life.

You look back later, and see how it all came together; how your life changed direction, how endings and beginnings merged to provide you with a clear path, and a deeper understanding.

When you get The Call will you pay attention? Are you brave enough to say yes? Are you bold enough to follow your heart?

♥ Because what will your life look like if you don’t?

What do you have to lose? ♥

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Using Crystals to Access Information – Day Three

Using crystals is a great way to begin accessing information for yourself and others, and can gently open you up to greater levels of spiritual and psychic gifts and awakening.

Although quartz crystals are the most common stone for this sort of connection, I believe that you need to work with the crystal you are drawn to.  My very first working stone was an aventurine shaped roughly like a heart that fit nicely in the palm of my hand. (For more information on how to choose a crystal click here.)

Crystals are great teachers.  They can hold much wisdom, and allow us to tap into information stored within us, within our Higher Selves, within the Akashic Records, and within Guides and other energetic Beings.

When I was young I never, ever thought I would be able to channel or do work at the level I am at now. I was such a skeptic even though my own natural abilities had been evident much of my life. I was okay with receiving information as it came to me, but felt very uncertain about attempting to make it happen deliberately.  I was uncomfortable with even trying this sort of activity, but I found as my resistance decreased and I became more open, things flowed much more easily.

So it doesn’t matter if you feel awkward or uncomfortable with today’s activity – just enter with a sense of innocence and childlike curiosity and you might be amazed at what comes to Light. ♥

Meditation for Accessing Guidance and Information from a Crystal:

Choose a stone you feel drawn to work with, clease it and then sit somewhere comfortable so that you can follow this meditation.  You may like to burn incense or light a candle to further enhance your experience.

Nicole Cody’s Guided Meditation for Connecting with Crystal Wisdoms – Day 3

It is useful to keep a journal to record any impressions, information or names from your meditation sessions. You might even feel inspired to draw or paint!

(PS – The stone I used today during this meditation was a Canadian Labradorite – that’s it in the picture below.)

Storing and handling crystals

If possible, wrap crystals you are not using, or that you are transporting, in a natural fabric such as silk, cotton, wool, linen or hemp.  Use your intuition when selecting fabrics – maybe a patterned scarf, a scrap of velvet, a bag you found at the markets, or even a pretty handkerchief could be used. 

You may also wish to place crystals on a window ledge, in a potplant, or in a positive energy place within your home. 

Once you have cleansed your crystals, be selective about who you allow to touch them because stones will absorb the energies of the people who handle them.  You may find that there are some stones you need to keep just for you, while others may invite handling from anyone!  After working with a stone for a long time, and investing a lot of your own energy into it, you may find that just holding that stone will take you to a positive, calmer, more meditative or healing state.

Dealing with Psychic Anxiety

Over the years I have come to recognise a certain set of feelings, to which I have given the name ‘Psychic Anxiety’. It’s a very unpleasant sensation that can last from an hour to a couple of days, and it is one of the least fantastic aspects of being spiritually and energetically sensitive.

Oh, don’t get me wrong.  It’s not unbearable, and in fact I have worse feelings related to psychic work at times, especially if it involves violent crimes and dead people.

The biggest problem with psychic anxiety is this unshakable feeling of dread and unease, that sensation of icy chills and ‘something crawling over your grave’ as my Nana calls it.

People who are psychic, or sensitive, generally feel the highs and lows of life more acutely. I like this diagram below, because for me it represents the differences between me and someone who is less sensitive.

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Most people live in the middle of the red and green lines, and can go to the high or low of those fields, but may seldom do so. They also usually have a greater physical resilience, a robustness to them.

Energetically sensitive people are represented by the blue line.  We feel and react to energies both above and below those regular red and green bands, although we may also live somewhere in the middle of our band of felt frequencies most of the time. Sensitive people are just that – sensitive – and without the robustness of some other folk. We may act with great robustness for a while, while we are needed or need to get things done, but that sort of energetic output is always at a price.  And sometimes that price is high.

The blessing of sensitivity is that we can feel, see, connect with and know some wonderful and amazing things. It is easy for us to tap into creative flow, to feel love and gratitude, to notice things around us and with the emotions of people around us, and to get high on life…

The difficulty is that sometimes it connects us into those low energies, and this is a painful experience on a soul level, tough emotionally and sometimes physically hard as well.

Usually if I get a psychic message or connection out of the blue (in other words I’m not consciously inviting or controlling it) it feels like this – a big bang on an otherwise normal day:

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I get a sudden flood of images, sounds, sensations, feelings, knowledge – all flooding me with a great intensity.  It’s momentary, it passes; although the information will remain, the emotions and energetic kick dissipate quickly.

Psychic anxiety is different.  It’s like an unseen hand rachets up the control knob.  I can’t turn the emotions and energetic kick down or off, but I am also given no information. All I have is the feeling, sometimes so strong that it wipes me out in the same way a severe migraine might. Like an old TV with no image on the screen, cranking out a discordant sound that makes you want to cover your ears or run away screaming.

I know that certain things affect me.  When there are polar shifts I end up flat and exhausted, a little depressed, and often with big hormonal swings.  When there are solar flares I feel restless, unable to sleep, irritable and wound up tight.

But this, this is different.  And I’m grateful it doesn’t happen too often. It’s always tied into great disaster, injustice, cruelty, suffering, death. It’s either building up to happen, or happening as I feel it.

In the days to come the news may let me know what it was all about.  That’s how it was for September 11, the Bali bombing, the tsanamis in 2004 and again last year in Japan.

Sometimes I find out years later – a massacre in Kosovo, in Iraq, in Rwanda…

Sometimes I never find out at all.

So I ride it out.  I keep myself away from crowds.  I swim in the ocean.  I sit under trees, walk in the rain, spend time in the gracious and calming company of my cows.

When I feel stronger I meditate.  I pray.  I light candles. I flood the world with love.  It’s all that I can do. A tiny flicker of light in what can seem like a sea of darkness. But I do it anyway and hope that somehow it helps.