Night Time At My Farm

“The sky grew darker, painted blue on blue, one stroke at a time, into deeper and deeper shades of night.” 
Haruki Murakami

After a short holiday we arrived back at our little farm in the Byron Hills yesterday. It was so good to be home, so good to be in our own space, to find our dogs happy and content, to see our friend who housesat for us tanned and relaxed and well.

I’d thought I would tumble into bed early, but as all the lights turned out and night wrapped itself around us I found that I was wide awake. Leaving everyone sleeping I snuck outside and sat on the steps, looking up at the dark bowl of the sky above my head.

The air was alive with the call of frogs and crickets, the chitter of bats, the grunts of koalas, the flap of owl-wing. The soft night was tinged with chill, and fragrant with spring blossoms and that honest smell of cows and damp earth. The sky was bright with stars.

The trees breathed in rhythm with me. The world turned. And gently, gently something within me clicked back into place again. I was home!

I finally put my weary body back to bed, sliding between the cool clean sheets in the darkened room. I woke this morning not remembering having fallen asleep, but having slept deeply and well.

There is such comfort to be had in embracing the fullness of my life.
Today I’m wishing that heart-fulness for you too.
All my love, Nicole ❤ xoxo

 

 

Are You Weathering These Recent Storms of Change?

“Never lose hope. Storms make people stronger and never last forever.” 
― Roy T. Bennett

The energies right now are all about change. Lots is coming up to be dealt with, things that have been hidden are being forced out into the open, things that need to be acted upon are being thrust upon us and where we aren’t in alignment there is opportunity for shift and growth. It’s messy, but ultimately positive, even if it feels like we are in the middle of a hurricane.

I’ve needed to make some unexpected and hard decisions this week – shutting doors on some situations so that I can open new ones that may lead to better things.

By last night when I left the city to head back to our farm I was beyond exhausted. I’ve had too many things on my plate lately. Deadlines and workloads and stresses piled up upon each other so that I was glassy-eyed and hollow after days of late nights and worry.

As we sat in traffic I sifted and sorted through paperwork, talked with Ben, put a plan together. A good plan. I could feel it in my bones. A feeling of peace came over me. Many of us are deep in change and repositioning right now, and all of it is for the greater good, as painful as it might feel in the moment. I knew last night that somehow I had passed a significant milestone, and that after being stuck lately things would begin to gather momentum again.

Clouds gathered as we left the city behind us. An eerie green twilight descended. Eventually I put my work away and using the weather radar on my phone we navigated to miss the worst of the storm cells which were dark with hail and heavy rain. It took two hours longer than usual to get home and we arrived to find the power out.

All my ideas of sitting at my computer went out the window. We unpacked by torchlight, took our showers by candlelight and then went to bed.

Rain came soon after, loud on the tin roof, blanketing our little cottage in a comfort of peace, white noise and solitude. There was nothing to be done but snuggle beneath the blankets and watch the sky light up from time to time with a fierce bright blaze of lightning followed by the rumble of rolling late-night thunder.

This morning I have woken full of hope. The air is clear and clean and crisp as a new apple. The power has come back on in the night. I can see my way forward and I’m excited by the opportunities this change has created out in front of me.

How about you? How are you navigating life’s storms?

Know that we are in a significant period of clearing, shifting and healing right now. Embrace that as a positive thing. Pull back when you need to. Have a Doona day if it helps. Trust that things have a way of working out better than you might have planned. And if you’ve been hanging onto things for far too long that are no longer working for you? Let go. Choose again. Choose something new.

We can’t have a rainbow without rain, and storms are sometimes needed to sweep the past away and give us that fresh start we never knew we needed.

Sending so much love your way, and holding the intent that you find your rainbow too,
Big hugs, Nicole ❤ xx