New Link to Connect To Your Calling Course Outline!


“We must become the change we want to see.” ~ Mahatma Gandhi

Lovelies, hello!
I’m so sorry we had a technical glitch on this morning’s blog and some of you have been unable to access the course outline through the link.

We will hold off on allocating Retreat Places for 24 hours, to enable everyone to have fair access.

You can find the course outline and all details about the Connect to Your Calling Retreat and Mentoring Program by CLICKING HERE or by downloading the PDF below.

To fill in your Expression of Interest to gain a place on the Retreat and Mentoring Program CLICK HERE.

And if you have any trouble at all please email Chelsi at chelsi@cauldronsandcupcakes.com or Trish at nicolecodyinfo@gmail.com and they will help you out!

Not sure what we’re talking about? You can read all about it on this morning’s blog post.

Are You Ready To Connect To Your Calling? Residential Retreat and Mentoring Program 2019

Much love, Nicole xx

Are You Ready To Connect To Your Calling? Residential Retreat and Mentoring Program 2019

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“I believe there’s a calling for all of us. I know that every human being has value and purpose. The real work of our lives is to become aware. And awakened. To answer the call.” 
~ Oprah Winfrey

This year my August Accelerated Channelling Retreat and Intensive Mentoring Program sold out in one day. Such was the interest that we decided to run the exact same course in February next year.

I promised people we would run the course again and then we asked everyone to wait to apply until we put up the new Expression of Interest and Course Outline. It should have been a simple thing to do, even though we have had to make adjustments to the 2019 program price because of cost increases from our suppliers. But I’ve kept holding off on announcing and filling the course. And I trusted that even though I didn’t know WHY I was holding off, that I needed to heed that intuition.

I became very ill with a virus and severe chest infection in late October and then spent all of November in bed. Among other complications, I lost my vision and I lost my voice and in the end all I could do was meditate. November was a powerful month for metaphysical work. During my many days of meditation I experienced the most intense spiritual journey I’ve had for many years and at the end of that time I understood that I needed to rework the February Channelling Retreat. I received very specific information to share on that retreat and in the supporting online course afterwards.

So, I’m pleased to announce that in addition to the existing Channelling and Sacred Geometry techniques I will teach on Retreat in February, this Retreat and Mentoring has a new focus. Announcing:

Connect To Your Calling – Residential Retreat and Mentoring Program

The next four years 2019 – 2022 are significant for our personal and spiritual evolution, as well as for the evolution of our planet. I know that many of you have incarnated into this lifetime SPECIFICALLY because you have a calling to be of service. You feel that calling deep in your heart. It’s a pull you can’t ignore and YOU FEEL READY TO STEP UP AND BE OF SERVICE in some way that only you can do.

On our 6-day residential retreat, followed by the three-month online group mentoring program I am going to show you how to use advanced Channelling techniques, shamanic techniques using Sacred Geometry, and personal journeymaking rituals and skills to help you:

  • clarify your calling
  • learn how to receive your own channelled guidance about your calling so that you can continue to deepen this journey and your understanding of yourself and your path long after Retreat is finished
  • how to define a path for actioning your calling in the wider world

Channelling isn’t just about connecting into energies and wisdom outside of yourself. It’s also about connecting more deeply to your own wisdom and soul experience. At its most pure channelling is a shamanic practice that will render you more authentically yourself, burning away the contrivances and insecurities that you’ve been hiding behind.

I designed this Intensive Retreat and Mentoring Program to give you the best possible support and experience for your spiritual journey. This course is all about getting you ready to do the work you came here to do or advancing your existing work in the world. If you’re ready and have been waiting for the teacher to appear, here I am.

Throughout our time together I’ll tune you up to these post-2012 energies and actively accelerate your psychic, spiritual and personal growth by teaching you a range of practices and techniques to open you to channelling, to your Higher Self, and to your Oversoul.

Give me six days of your life in early 2019, and a few short, regular, guided sessions each week for the following three months and I’ll take you to places you’d never thought possible in your metaphysical practice, enabling you to connect deeply to your calling and become clear about how to live that calling in the wider world. The practices and techniques I teach you will continue to grow and guide you long after our time together ends.

There is no more time. We have to step up. We have to be who we came here to be.

In your heart you know that’s true too. You feel that urgency. You’re ready. All you need is a place to start, and some support for that journey only you can take.

If you’re ready for the next stage of your spiritual journey CLICK HERE to access more information. If you can’t access the link Click Below to download the file:

Then when you’re ready CLICK HERE to fill in your Expression of Interest.

But please act quickly because this course has limited places, a quarter of them are already allocated, and it will sell out.

Update: There are TWO places left, and I’m waiting for confirmation on one of those so please get back to us as soon as you can.

I’m looking forward to working with you, Nicole xx

Accelerated Channelling Course Update

“Every thought is a creative energy that moves the universe to action.” 
― Réné Gaudett

 

Hi, Lovelies!
I just wanted to let you know that we have been inundated with interest for our 2018 Accelerated Channelling course, mentoring and retreat.

Every place has now been filled and we also have a waiting list for this course. Expressions of Interest and Booking Form submissions are now closed.

We are so excited to be delivering this course, and sharing some of this material for the very first time. I know that many of you felt a strong calling to join us, and I wanted to reassure you that it’s not too late. Although our offering for 2018 is filled, we have some good news.

Currently, we are finalising dates so that we can run this same course again in 2019. Once again we expect this course to sell out very quickly. Those of you who were successful with your EOI but weren’t quick enough submitting your booking form to secure a place will be offered advance placement for next year’s course. We will then release details and an early-bird booking opportunity just as soon as we have all the details locked in.

If you wanted to apply this year but felt you weren’t quite ready I recommend you attend either of my one-day workshops that will be held in Brisbane at the end of this month. Foundation Spiritual Practices workshop on June 30 will give you the foundation skills you need to build a regular spiritual and energetic practice to prepare you for retreat. Making and Using Meditation Mala Beads on July 1 will help you to use meditation as a tool for developing your psychic and intuitive connection and is a logical step for those of you who are yearning for a deeper connection with self, Guides and God. Details on both of these courses are available here.

And of course if you want to see channelling in action come join me in Brisbane on Friday night, June 29 for an evening with me and my Guides. Details here.

Much love, Nicole  xx

 

 

 

Energies of June – 2018

 

“Without leaps of imagination or dreaming, we lose the excitement of possibilities. Dreaming, after all is a form of planning.” 
~ Gloria Steinem

Hello, Lovelies :)

Take a deep breath, schedule some downtime, and welcome the energies of June. June is a quieter month that invites us to spend time with loved ones, time on ourselves and our wellbeing, and time resting, recharging and doing what we love.

Cards for the Month:

I’ve chosen two cards for June for you: one from Colette Baron-Reid’s Wisdom Of The Oracle  and one from Steven Farmer’s Earth Magic Oracle. Please note I don’t use these cards in a conventional way, but rather as a stimulus for channeled information.

Here is what I have received from each card:

“Courage is the most important of all the virtues because without courage, you can’t practice any other virtue consistently.”
~ Maya Angelou

June calls us to shift our energy inwards again. It’s a time for rest, healing and working on our own projects. It’s a time for cosying up with the people we care about, for nights in and quiet weekends at home or in the company of our dearest friends, while saying no to anything or anyone that takes us away from our highest priorities.

You might find that this is a lower energy month for you. That’s okay. It’s a month for regrouping, for gentle fun and connection, for extreme self-care and nurturing yourself and those you love.

The second card I’ve chosen is Full Moon. 

“Whatever it takes to finish things, finish. You will learn more from a glorious failure than you ever will from something you never finished.” 
Neil Gaiman

This month is an incredibly productive time for bringing a singular focus to getting something done. You might not have time for other people’s dramas but you’ll find energy for your own projects and passions. It’s all a matter of clear priorities and healthy boundaries.

June also shows us where we need to hand tasks or responsibilities to others. We cannot do everything ourselves, or be all things to all people. June supports us engaging help, finding staff or team members, and asking others to step up and contribute so that our situation is fairer and more collaborative.
It’s a time for visions, dreams and spiritual connection, and for honouring our soul wisdom. Magic can happen this month, if only we make a little time to listen and to connect.

Best crystals this month?

Smoky Quartz  and Labradorite

Smoky Quartz keeps us grounded and gifts us inner strength and the ability to
listen deeply.

Labradorite. encourages self-care, supports empathy and intuition, and is a gentle and reassuring stone for developing psychic ability.

Essential oils to support your journey?

Young Living’s Joy and Envision essential oil blends are my picks for June. Joy opens our hearts and tunes us in to our own inner wisdom as well as Universal Guidance and Support. It is uplifting, comforting and empowering. Dab a drop of either oil on your Crown Chakra, back of neck, wrists and the soles of your feet, inhale directly or add to your diffuser. Envision helps us to see the possibilities for ourselves and our life. It brings inspiration, intuition, insight and clear vision. Rub a drop together in your hands, breathe in deeply and then wipe your hands in a circular extending movement through your aura. Finish with a drop on your Crown Chakra, Heart and inner wrists.

Want to make your own blend? Each of the following oils will work beautifully on their own for you this month, but they’ll also make a delicious combination for diffusing. Frankincense for spiritual and intuitive connection and restoration of faith. Geranium for stress reduction and emotional balance, and for evoking a sense of peace and goodwill. Orange for optimism and happiness. Pine for being grounded and centred in ourselves as we open to our highest potential. To diffuse add 2 or three drops of each oil to your room or personal diffuser. You can find the oils here.

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Wishing you a love-filled, satisfying and wonder-full June.

Lots of love, Nicole❤ xoxo

Are You Ready For Our Accelerated Channelling Retreat?

“Spirituality is not adopting more beliefs and assumptions but uncovering the best in you.” ~ Amit Ray

When I first became serious about my spiritual and psychic journey, when I’d gone past that beginner space and I knew that it was time to make the most of my abilities I searched high and low for a book, a teacher, anything that would guide me.

And I found… nothing.

Are you where I was, way back when? Do you feel a yearning for deeper spiritual connection, a calling to be of service in some way, a desire to be more than you currently are and to live with a far greater degree of self-awareness? Do you want to find a way to make your psychic and intuitive gifts a more normal and natural part of your wider life, and to do more with those gifts?

The course and retreat that I am about to share with you is the course I wish I had found. I’ve created an intensive mentoring course that includes two months of online work with a six-day residential retreat in the middle. The focus (and the name of this course) is Accelerated Channelling Using Sacred Geometry.

Channelling isn’t just about connecting into energies and wisdom outside of yourself. It’s also about connecting more deeply to your own wisdom and soul experience. At its most pure channelling is a shamanic practice that will render you more authentically yourself, burning away the contrivances and insecurities that you’ve been hiding behind.

I designed this Intensive Mentoring Course and Retreat to give you the best possible support and experience for your spiritual journey. It’s everything I was looking for back when I was looking to grow myself psychically in order to move to a more advanced level of practice, connection and self-awareness. This course is all about getting you ready to do the work you came here to do or advancing your existing work in the world. If you’re ready and have been waiting for the teacher to appear, here I am.

Throughout our time together I’ll tune you up to these post-2012 energies and actively accelerate your psychic, spiritual and personal growth by teaching you a range of practices and techniques to open you to channelling, to your Higher Self, and to your Oversoul.

Give me ten minutes of your day for two months. give me six days of your life in the midst of that, and I’ll help you reach places you’d never thought possible in your metaphysical practice. And these practices and techniques will continue to grow and guide you long after our time together ends.

I’m passionate about this course. It combines more than thirty years of my own experience with new channelled information, Soul Journeymaker work, Chakra Wisdoms and Sacred Geometry. I know you’re ready for it – even if you feel like a complete novice right now. What I’m looking for is those of you with that sense of a calling and a commitment to this journey. In these new energies since 2015 connection is easier and things that once took my advanced students months to master I have been teaching to my beginners in just a few hours. Imagine where I’ll take you in our time together!

If you’re ready for the next stage of your spiritual journey CLICK HERE to access more information.

Then when you’re ready CLICK HERE to fill in your Expression of Interest.

But please act quickly, because this course has only a few places left and it will sell out quickly.

I’m looking forward to working with you, Nicole xx

Soul Journeying OR You Are More Than Your Earthsuit

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“Life’s journey doesn’t start on the highest mountain peak where a clear view of the trail ahead, obstacles and all, is laid out for us to observe before setting foot on the path. No. Life’s journey begins on a low road, in a valley, or even down inside a pit where the trail beyond can only be seen in short stretches, and any obstacles are met as they come. This makes life trying, even scary at times. Have faith that God gave you this life, and hence it is worth seeing through to the end of the trail.” 
Richelle E. GoodrichSlaying Dragons

 

Hello, lovely friends,

I’ve been thinking very deeply about the private responses you’ve sent me in the past few days. Messages about your secret shames and fears, your despair about not being able to overcome a health issue, or your limitations due to illness or living with a partner or child with an illness, or some other deep-seated issue or problem that has left you feeling unable to be all you hoped you could be.

There was a theme amidst your messages that deeply resonated with me, because it was my own theme for so very long: I am not worthy – I am not worthy and even worse I cannot follow my path…

I am not worthy because I am ill or disabled or afflicted or depressed or anxious or traumatised or unable to get out from under whatever is weighing me down. I can’t share my problems because they make me feel like a failure. They are shameful. I am shameful. I cannot follow my path because I am ill or afflicted or exhausted or broken or unable to do it the way that I wanted to. I have my life on hold and I am waiting for this thing to be fixed, even though I’ve been trying to fix it myself for so long. Or I’m broken from trying and I am ashamed that I have now given up. I am waiting to walk my path. I am waiting to be ready for my spiritual journey. I am waiting to find my gifts or share them.

Dear ones, if that in any way resonates, my words today are for you.

The soul journey happens despite what is going on in our lives. In fact, it’s often because life becomes difficult that a yearning awakens for a more spiritual path. It doesn’t matter  if you’re a little broken or a lot, if your time here on earth is short, or longer and not of the quality you had hoped. Let go of the idea that this is somehow all your fault, and that you must be fixed before you can journey.

This is the journey.

I’m reaching out to you today because I need you to hear this.

You can live broken. It can still be a good life. It can still fill you up and be beautiful despite illness, pain, despair and limitation. You can create and dream and make and connect and love and laugh and adventure and matter – to yourself and to others – even if your life is not perfect, or working out the way you had planned. I know, because I have lived with pain and brokenness and despair and frustration and so many other things. And I still do.

We are souls dressed up in Earthsuits. (Yep, I’m talking about your body here!) Sometimes those suits get awfully dinged up and damaged. Life is a risky business.

But inside that suit is your soul. And souls endure, remaining shiny and unaffected by the dust and damage that your Earthsuit might have accumulated.

In fact, I think that our souls deepen and shine brighter because of the hardships our Earthsuits go through.

Please, stop beating yourself up. Stop blaming. Stop the meanness and the endless stress and self-recrimination. Stop waiting for things to change. Stop needing things to be better. Surrender to where you are. Surrender to what is. This is your one beautiful chance at this life, and it goes by in the blink of an eye. Your Earthsuit might be damaged but you are still here, and life outside your Earthsuit still holds wonder and beauty and magic if only you can allow yourself to keep feeling and experiencing and allowing, in spite of whatever else is going on for you.

You can be a healer and still be broken yourself. You can be a teacher, and never leave your home. You can be an artist or a writer or an entrepreneur and never leave your bed. You don’t need to be perfect or beautiful or young or fit or healthy or able-bodied. You can limp through life and still live it well. If you are alive, even if only just, you can think and feel and dream and you can do soulwork. You can lift yourself out of pain and isolation and back into connection, just be deciding that you’ll live anyway, despite whatever circumstances you find yourself experiencing.

You are worthy just as you are. And there is a path for you in this life that only you can take. No matter how messed up or impossible things might seem to be for you right now. Just by being alive you matter.

Soul work – that space of meditation and reflection, of connection and communion, or asking the big questions and being okay with silence or answers unexpected, that great big process of opening up to yourself and the Universe? You, my friend, are born to it. In fact, because of all this shit you have endured or are enduring, you are primed for something deeper and more meaningful in the way that your soul will journey.

So, let me give you a hug. Your journey is my journey. I’m here for you. You matter to me, and your life matters.

That world of perfect bodies and healthy happy people doing amazing things and living a life you can never have? It doesn’t even exist. It’s all just marketing. Everyone in their lifetime will experience troubles, pain, hurt, frailty and diminishment. Everyone. Most people just don’t talk about it. It’s not very Facebook or Instagram worthy.

Take a deep breath. You are where you are. And it might totally suck. But somewhere inside you is a place untouched by that pain, and perhaps made more beautiful and wise because of it. You’re a soul, and you have every right to be here, and to follow your heart. It’s why you came to Earth, despite all the risks and dangers. Be yourself anyway. Live, anyway. Do, anyway. Be, anyway. Feel, anyway. It’s worth it. All it takes is a little shift in your thinking and your life can open up again.

I love you. I’m here for you. I’m cheering you on. Nicole  xx

PS – If you want help to walk this path you can join my Year of ME membership group – a supportive place where you can belong and fit right in, just as you are (details in my shop – look for the year long course or subscription option), or come along to my Awakening to Spirituality Retreat. You’d be so welcome!

 

 

Waves, Quiet, Prayers and Stones

Have you ever heard the wonderful silence just before the dawn? Or the quiet and calm just as a storm ends? Or perhaps you know the silence when you haven’t the answer to a question you’ve been asked, or the hush of a country road at night, or the expectant pause of a room full of people when someone is just about to speak, or, most beautiful of all, the moment after the door closes and you’re alone in the whole house? Each one is different, you know, and all very beautiful if you listen carefully.”  ~ Norton Juster

Hello, Lovelies!

I’ve been deeply moved by the emails and messages you’ve sent me, and the sharing you’ve made in response to my last two blog posts.

Just Tell One Person…
Chronic Illness? This is a Spiritual Retreat for you!

As I sat with the weight of your stories yesterday I spent time alone on the hill behind our farm in the bright sunshine, thinking about you all and our shared experiences and emotions, and then again I thought of you as I sat by the sea while the shadows grew long in the afternoon.

As the day drew to a close I began a crystal grid for you, to hold space for your unfolding, your healing and your soul journey.

I crafted the grid to help you come back to your own inner wisdom, to a sense of peace and belonging. And I infused every stone with love.

Tomorrow I’ll write more about what’s in my heart right now. Until then know that you are seen and heard, and deeply loved.
Bless. Nicole ❤ xx

 

My Exciting New Card Spread Workshop

“The closer you come to knowing that you alone create the world of your experience, the more vital it becomes for you to discover just who is doing the creating.” 
~  Eric Micha’el Leventhal

 

I’m so excited about my upcoming pop up shop and workshops here in Brisbane on Friday 15 and Saturday 16 September. (You can get all the details here)

Today I’d like to tell you a little bit more about my Intuitive Oracle/Tarot Card Reading Class  which will be held from 1 to 4pm on Saturday 16. 

At this workshop I’ll be piloting a copy of my new Card Spread Workbook for 2018, and the participants will all get a working copy. Doesn’t the cover look gorgeous!

 

In this workshop I will teach you how to choose and prepare a deck of cards to work with as your intuitive soul journey companions.

You will receive a copy of my new Soul Journey 2018 Card Spread Workbook and a Journal.

Using the Card Spread Workbook I’ll show you how to attune to your deck, and how to do a range of simple and more complex card spreads for asking questions, gaining clarity and perspective and finding guidance. It’s a workshop that will suit absolute beginners and people who’ve been using cards for a while.

I won’t be teaching you the traditional way of reading tarot cards – I’ll be showing you how to use any tarot or oracle deck to make a deep connection to your intuition and higher self, as well as being a way to connect with your Guides, Angels and Universal Energy.

In over 35 years of active and mindful psychic development, using meditation, journalling, cards and crystals as tools, I have refined many techniques that I now teach to help you to use these same tools effectively and well.

During our workshop I will also show you how to choose and use a Crystal Keeper for your cards.

You’ll do a foundation reading for yourself, and learn how to go deeper into this soul work with journalling and meditation.

We will look at the fundamentals of connecting with your Higher Self and guides, simple meditation techniques, using oracle and tarot cards to give yourself an intuitive reading, and some foundation metaphysical principles for raising your vibration. These are all the things I used at the beginning of my own journey, and that have led me to where I am today.

You will take home your own Soul Journey 2018 Card Spread Workbook, a Journal and a crystal keeper.  Please bring your favourite tarot or oracle deck and a special crystal to task as your 2018 Guiding Stone. Bring them from home or choose from the selection at Nicole’s Pop Up Shop. You’ll also need something to write with. Afternoon tea will be served. Suitable for beginners and advanced practitioners. This workshop is open to adults only (or those 16 and above whose parents deem this a suitable workshop for them!)

Bookings Essential!

Cost: $165  – Please RSVP to Dana at nicolecodyinfo@gmail.com 

Want me to turn this into a home study or online course? Please let me know in the comments and I will organise one for early 2018.

Biggest hugs and love, Nicole  xx

What Happens When We Die?

“There once was a girl who found herself dead.
She peered over the ledge of heaven
and saw that back on earth
her sister missed her too much,
was way too sad,
so she crossed some paths
that would not have crossed,
took some moments in her hand
shook them up
and spilled them like dice
over the living world.
It worked.
The boy with the guitar collided
with her sister.
“There you go, Len,” she whispered. “The rest is up to you.”
~ Jandy Nelson, The Sky Is Everywhere

 

Welcome to the third post in my Wednesday series on death and dying.

Last week I talked about the end stage of life, and what you might expect as a loved one or carer. Today, I’d like to discuss the moments after death, and what happens for the person who died.

Let’s start with Antoinette, a friend of mine who lost her life to breast cancer at age forty-two, leaving behind a loving husband and two little girls. Antoinette had battled cancer for a number of years. She was the first friend who ever contacted me after she died. Let me share her story…

 

Antoinette

When Antoinette’s time came, it came quickly and she went downhill very fast.  She did not want to die in a hospital, so her family brought Antoinette home, arranged for medical care, and went about their lives with her firmly in the midst of it all.

My friend had been ravaged by cancer. She was bald, skeletal, and frail as a bird, with a hugely bloated stomach and a deep pallor. As I sat holding her hand in the days before her death, my friend would whisper to me about what she was experiencing as she faded in and out of consciousness.  It was very beautiful, she said, and her Dad had come to help her (he had died some years before)  but she was very afraid.  There was a beautiful garden and people dancing, and she really wanted to join them there.  She was tired and couldn’t keep fighting, but she felt so guilty to be leaving her family when her job with them wasn’t finished. 

As her body began to shut down Antoinette’s words became slurred and incomprehensible to others, but I could still hear her voice as loud and clear as a bell. Her mum and husband would come into the room, and her physical aura would immediately strengthen as she tried to be strong and stay with them.  When they left the room her physical aura became instantly weaker and her etheric aura (her soul energy) grew bright again.

The day of her death a strong pink and gold light descended upon Antoinette, and the whole room was filled with a Divine presence.  I don’t often work with Angels or people who have passed over but my friend’s room became filled with Angels that I could physically see.  As soon as they arrived she began the journey of letting go, and became more and more peaceful.

We all gave Antoinette constant attention and love, and told her that it was okay for her to go to the Light.  My friend was leaving a young family behind, and she resisted death with every breath while the living were in the room with her.  Finally a beautiful moment allowed her to begin the process of finally letting go.

I saw the spirit of a charming man, perhaps in his forties, just as if he was really in the room with us.  I couldn’t hear him, but Antoinette could.  “Dad’s here”, my friend whispered, but she was also distressed – she knew her life was coming to an end.  I had never met Antoinette’s father, and did not know what he looked like.  When I described the man I saw later to her mother without saying who I thought he was, she said – “oh yes, that’s my husband’’.  He’d been much older when he died, but he appeared to Pinkie at an age when he was strong and handsome.

 

Then the spirit of an older woman turned up – my Guides explained that she was a relative from Antoinette’s husband’s family – who had died before Antoinette or her husband were even born.  Her presence soothed family members, even though they could not see or hear her, and did not know she was there.  I watched this older woman standing unseen to all but me in the energy field of Antoinette’s husband, strengthening and supporting him, and witnessed the most moving scene as he then began to recall how he and Antoinette had met, and some of the special moments in their lives together.

Hours before Antoinette’s death, the spirit of a physically stunning blonde young woman turned up by her left side.  Antoinette’s eyes widened in amazement and delight.  “My friend’s here, my beautiful friend.  I don’t believe it.  She’s here!” cried my dying friend.  I watched this beautiful girl lean over Antoinette’s broken body and stroke her cheek, whispering to her, and as she did this Antoinette’s physical aura became paler and paler and her breathing laboured.  Then her etheric aura completely disengaged and floated to the top of the room, held by the most slender and delicate silvery cord.  I left then and went home, so that my friend could share her final moments in privacy with her family.

Even though I knew Antoinette was meant to be leaving us, and would be well guided and looked after, I was very upset at losing my friend, and found it hard to sleep that night.  Just after I finally dozed off I was woken by a bright light in my bedroom, which was filled with the fragrance of sweet flowers. My beloved friend was standing at the end of my bed in a pink dress, and with raven hair down to her waist held by a jewelled head band.  She looked years younger and radiantly beautiful.

“Thank you, Nicole,” said my friend, smiling widely.  “I’m okay, and I understand everything.”  She then gave me some short messages for her Mum, husband and family.

I heard from the family the next morning that Antoinette had passed away ten minutes before I saw her.

A girlfriend rang later that day to see how Antoinette was.  I told her of our friend’s passing, and the things I had experienced with her before her death.  This girlfriend had gone to school with Antoinette and knew her very well.  From my description she immediately identified the girl who had come to Antoinette’s bedside as a childhood friend who had died tragically in the company of Antoinette when they were just eighteen.

My girlfriend asked if I would be prepared to share what I had seen with the family of the girl who had died so many years ago.  I was able to share my experiences with that girl’s family, who took great comfort from the fact that I had seen their long-lost daughter and sister, and that the girls were together again, looking after each other. A photo they showed me matched the girl that I had seen exactly.

I’ll share with you with the final thing Antoinette said to me on the night of her death as she stood at the foot of my bed.  “Don’t worry Nicole.  God is everywhere.  It all makes sense when you get here.  It’s really okay, and so am I.  I love you.  Tell them all it’s okay.  It’s all just love.”

 

And here’s another reassuring story, although this one is very different.

Angela

When my friend Angela died, in the early hours of the morning, her spirit stayed in the hospital room for a long time afterwards. At first it was hard for her to believe that she was truly dead. There was quite a period of adjustment for her until she could finally feel a deep love for herself, and for her body. In life she had never felt beautiful, or good enough. In death she looked down upon herself and her loved ones and felt only love.

As dawn approached she slipped out of the room, and understood that with her thoughts she could travel freely. She gave me a running commentary as she travelled from the confines of the palliative care ward in Lismore. Angela spoke with joy about what it was to feel free. The world was so beautiful. She flew back over her home, and visited her dogs and her garden. She flew down to the coast to watch the sun come up over the lighthouse in Byron Bay. She could see dolphins! She could see so far, and the dawning morning was one of the most precious gifts she ever received. She was euphoric.

Angela’s spirit came backwards and forwards to our realm until her funeral a few days later. She was calm, joyful and completely at peace in a way she had never been in life.

Image by micahkiter

Image by micahkiter (The link takes you to great drone footage of the Byron Bay Lighthouse)

 

And this final story is of a stranger.

The Motorbike Man

I witnessed a terrible road accident a few years ago, involving a motorbike. It had just happened when we came upon it. There had been two people on the bike, but I only saw an empty helmet, and a rider who still wore his helmet, but who was horribly injured. As I sat in the car in the middle of the traffic jam, waiting for the emergency responders, a man in motorbike leathers came to the open window of our car. He asked me to help his friend. I poured all my love into the injured man, and prayed for him. I called upon his Guides and Angels and Ancestors. I prayed for the paramedics who were working on him, and I asked for the outcome for the Highest Good for all.

It was only much later that I found out the young man I’d been speaking to had actually died in that accident, and he’d stayed because he wanted to make sure that his friend would live. By an uncanny twist of fate I later met this friend again, at a cafe in Brisbane. You can read more about that here.

 

In every instance that I have sat with the dying, and with their body afterwards, their soul has left their physical body and stayed for at least a short while with their loved ones here, or taken a final tour of important places.

Wherever our soul travels to after this life, I know that we reunite with loved ones who have already passed, and that we feel nothing but radiant joy, love and calm. We return to love and we are never alone.

Whenever I have communicated with souls after their passing they have been at peace. Anger goes. Shame goes. Fear goes. Pain goes. All that is left is love.

Image from tatamom78 at www.photobucket.com

Image from tatamom78 at www.photobucket.com

I also know that love gives us ability to reconnect with and visit our loved ones in small ways, once we are no longer in a body.

Haven’t you ever felt the presence and love of someone dear to you who has died? We might not talk about it often, but it is a common occurrence.

I certainly don’t have all the answers to the mysteries of life and death, but I have seen so much that goes beyond what was ever taught to me or held as true around death and dying that I cannot but believe that we go on, that love goes on, and that love is all there is.

 

 

Thanks for reading. Next week I’ll be talking about suicide and also about grief. If you have any questions you’d like me to cover in this series, please contact me here on the blog or at cauldronsandcupcakes@gmail.com

Wherever you are, go in peace today, and know that you are in my thoughts, prayers and meditations. I’m wishing you well. I’m sending you love,

Nicole❤ xoxo

Sitting with the Big Questions

“I have always believed, and I still believe, that whatever good or bad fortune may come our way we can always give it meaning and transform it into something of value.”
~ Hermann Hesse

 

I still can’t see.

I still can’t see except for a brief window each morning before exhaustion and overwhelm kick in. In that brief window my left eye has reasonable vision. I can read large text and navigate the world around me more easily. I can write. I can feel briefly safe and more normal. By lunch-time clarity is melting away. By nightfall everything is a blur.

I’ve always believed that there is something to be learned or understood from every experience, if only I am brave enough to ask the big questions. If only I am brave enough to sit open and unknowing – waiting for whatever insights and answers may come.

For days now I have been asking myself ‘What am I not seeing?’ It seemed a sensible question, given my current circumstances.

I’ve had some major realisations around access and disability and what matters in life. I’ve thought deeply about helplessness and dependence and my difficulty with asking for help. I’ve sat with the truths of my need to serve, and my fear of not making a difference. Of my old childhood anxiety around feeling like a freak and never fitting in. Of not being loved if people knew my truth – if they truly ‘saw’ me. Of the pain of ‘not being seen’ by those I love.

I’ve owned the need for self first, of slowing down, of finding grace in impossible situations, of enlightenment through suffering. I’ve watched from outside myself as a part of me has danced with a range of emotions.

And I kept asking myself – What am I not seeing?

What am I not seeing?

Eventually the words themselves became a noose that drew tighter and tighter. I’d stripped myself bare. There seemed nothing more to find. My world grew smaller and darker, my depression and frustration more profound.

I tried to sit in that place of darkness and stuckness. I hoped that by sitting there some great breakthough would come.

Nothing.

Nothing!

Suddenly it came to me, and the realisation was so powerful that waves of relief flooded my body. I am psychic after all. I live between worlds. I have always seen what others cannot.

All this question of ‘What am I not seeing?’ was doing was keeping me stuck in my head. In my rational self. A useful place to be in small doses, but the one perspective I will ever find there will be my own.

‘Not seeing’ ultimately gave only limited answers. It closed me down.

But now I Knew I had the key within me to bring light back into this dark space.

I reframed my question.

What can I see?

The boundaries of my tiny existence exploded. I moved from my head to my soul.

Everything changed.

I still might not be able to see with my eyes, but I can see so much more clearly from this new perspective, and I know there is much here to learn and explore.

How about you? What can you see?

Sit with it for a while. I think you’ll be glad that you did.

Please know that you’re in my thoughts, prayers and daily meditations.

All my love, Nicole <3 xx