If you go out for several hours into a place that is wild, your mind begins to slow down, down, down. What is happening is that the clay of your body is retrieving its own sense of sisterhood with the great clay of the landscape.John O’Donohue
I was reflecting on this time a year ago. We had just come out of a savage year of drought and bushfires, and then into our first COVID lockdown at our farm. If you’d told me then that in twelve months I’d be living back in Queensland, in a treehouse on a mountain by the beach, I’d have laughed in your face. I had no plans to be anywhere other than where I was.
And yet here we are…
The Universe somehow contrived to reposition me, and this new place just works better. It’s flowing better. It feels more right.
It’s hard to explain how living in our new treehouse makes me feel.
It’s as if a lost part of myself is coming alive again.
Although I am deeply fatigued, and we are far from finished this move, I already feel renewed, hopeful, and supported.
It’s as if something inside me has realigned itself with a version of me I’d forgotten was possible.
So, amid all the busy-ness I am taking frequent breaks to stop and breathe it all in. I’m surrounded by old trees and rainforest. I’m serenaded by birdsong. The ocean is right at my doorstep. I’m connected to family, to old friends, and new ones. There’s good coffee and bookstores and so many things to love.
I want you to know something. This kind of shift is possible for you too. There have been so many times in my life when I have been despairing, unwell, unsupported, dying even, and where anything good seemed impossibly far away. At those times all I could do was trudge forward. Or stay stuck but keep breathing. The only thing I can say for certain is that I never gave up.
Now, suddenly, it feels like I have stepped into a beautiful dream. It’s a dream I’ve worked hard to achieve. And let’s be clear – I still have health issues, my energy is still variable, and there are still plenty of things that need to be dealt with or suffered through. But even so, I’m in a place right now (physically, emotionally, financially) that for a long time I thought was impossible.
Please, don’t give up on your dreams. Even if you have no idea how to make them happen. Even if they seem completely impossible.
If you can hold the thought, and carry that dream in your heart, there is ALWAYS a possibility that your dream, or better, will show up in your life.
That’s what I’m holding space for, in my daily meditations and prayers – that you find your way forward to your dream too.
Love, cinnamon buttered pretzel donuts (who even knew these were a thing???) and dreams come true, Nicole xx
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Your new home sounds so delicious! I may have missed photos of your new home. If that’s the case, can we see pictures? I know you must have boxes everywhere inside, so how about outside photos? It sounds like paradise! I’m so happy for you Nicole! You deserve a wonder-inspiring home. Take lots of self nurturing breaks all during this process!
Love to you,
Lisa from Oregon
Hi Nicole ~ firstly, thank you so much for this extremely inspiring post that holds so much hope. I have been holding you in thought & prayer for your move (both before during all the packing up & sorting & going forward to your actual move into your new home). My hubby and I have had so many moves in our 40 years together, including twice to Botswana and once to Namibia (we live in South Africa and hubby is a Mining Engineer, hence all the moves). So I can relate, especially to the exhaustion & all the chaos. I absolutely adore your blog and have followed you for a number of years. You are the most amazing and precious soul. I hope that all that you have given and continue to give to others, returns to you a hundred fold. You so deserve it. I wish that you experience improved health in your lovely new home, along with magical moments of making marvelous memories. Be happy, be lucky and may the stars smile down on you & yours and may the Universe favour your future path. Most of all, besides improved health, I wish you deep-seated contentment & wonderful serenity. One thing that I have long admired about you is how you manage to find those precious pieces of peace in each day ~ long may you continue to do so. Sending you bundles of bright blessings and loads of love, Sue xx
Sounds so lovely Nicole. I have a similar dream in my heart…to be surrounded by nature and to listen to birdsong. Congratulations on achieving yours.
Yes… certainly feeling the shift… visceral and embodied. I’ve yet to land in my ‘new sacred space’ yet… the in-between, the letting go. The almost there. Thanks Nicole💖💖
it sounds like paradise. Where is this wonderful place you live?