Rain and Deep Soul Work


“… so this is for us.
This is for us who sing, write, dance, act, study, run and love
and this is for doing it even if no one will ever know
because the beauty is in the act of doing it.
Not what it can lead to.
This is for the times I lose myself while writing, singing, playing
and no one is around and they will never know
but I will forever remember
and that shines brighter than any praise or fame or glory I will ever have,
and this is for you who write or play or read or sing
by yourself with the light off and door closed
when the world is asleep and the stars are aligned
and maybe no one will ever hear it
or read your words
or know your thoughts
but it doesn’t make it less glorious.
It makes it ethereal. Mysterious.
Infinite.
For it belongs to you and whatever God or spirit you believe in
and only you can decide how much it meant
and means
and will forever mean
and other people will experience it too
through you.
Through your spirit. Through the way you talk.
Through the way you walk and love and laugh and care
and I never meant to write this long
but what I want to say is:
Don’t try to present your art by making other people read or hear or see or touch it; make them feel it. Wear your art like your heart on your sleeve and keep it alive by making people feel a little better. Feel a little lighter. Create art in order for yourself to become yourself
and let your very existence be your song, your poem, your story.
Let your very identity be your book.
Let the way people say your name sound like the sweetest melody.

So go create. Take photographs in the wood, run alone in the rain and sing your heart out high up on a mountain
where no one will ever hear
and your very existence will be the most hypnotising scar.
Make your life be your art
and you will never be forgotten.” 
~ Charlotte Eriksson

Here we are on Retreat. The rain has come in and blanketed us in a cool misty silence during the night. We feel a long way away from the outside world right now.

Today we’ll be doing incredible things, deep soul work, major shift…

…while the outside world moves on, oblivious to the magic happening here.

And that’s okay. This is work we are doing for ourselves. It was never meant for a public audience. I want to encourage you to keep working on what matters to you and what gives you joy too. I want you to embrace that yearning in your heart or the idea that won’t let go.

Do it for yourself.

It will make the world better anyway.

Much love, Nicole ❤ xx

Nicole Update and a Pep Talk!


“I do not think that there is any other quality so essential to success of any kind as the quality of perseverance. It overcomes almost everything, even nature.”
~ John D. Rockefeller

Hello, Lovelies!
Thanks so much for all the love and positive energy that has flowed my way the past week or so. I’ve felt it, and it has helped.

Firstly, for everyone who asked, the dogs weren’t in the car with us. Thank goodness, because they would have been squashed. The other driver has cracked vertebrae but will be okay. I am stiff and sore but getting better. Ben’s even been back to our wrecked car and retrieved all our personal effects. So that chapter of our lives is over and it’s time to think about new cars, new directions and new eras.

It has been a strange week since the accident. Useful, but strange.

I found that there is a place inside me brimful with fear and memories of prior trauma. It came very close to the surface a few days ago. After seeing the doctor we stopped at the coffee place we had originally been heading to before our car crash. I sat with my coffee in front of me and as I picked it up my hands began shaking so much I had to put the cup down.

My heart raced. My eyes filled with tears. Suddenly, every shitty awful thing that has happened in the past came rushing forward. So many. Too many.

Oh my God, I thought. I’m having a breakdown.

Ben put his big hand on my leg. You okay? he asked.

It broke the spell and I half-laughed with tears running down my face. ‘Just peachy’ I told him. ‘Really, I’m fine.’

Of course I am. I’m still here. Life goes on. Sh*t happens. I roll with it.

It made me see how I have stuffed certain emotions deep down inside me as a coping mechanism. Each time I did it consciously and mindfully so that I could keep existing in the moment – through pain or illness, horror or exhaustion. At each instant I talked to myself (often out loud) and said ‘Come on, Nicole. You can do this. You’ve got this. You’re okay.’ Always at a time when I was most definitely NOT okay.

And do you know what?

Every time I did this I truly was okay. I got through things I never thought I’d survive. I managed. Not always gracefully. Sometimes limping through with no style at all. But I kept going. I kept saying to myself, ‘I’ve got things to do. I’ll deal with this later’.

People have been saying to me lately that they don’t know how I have coped, with so difficult many things one after the other. But the truth is that when you’re deep in the middle of something you find a way through.

Am I going to sit and explore all that pain and trauma stuffed down in me? I’ve already done that on many occasions. I’ve done more self-work and reflection than anyone I know. This is what I’ve discovered. If I endlessly replay all the old hurts and traumas I get stuck there. Instead I always look to HOW I COPED and WHAT I LEARNED.

All that pain in me is actually a strength. From it arises a wild and ferocious warrior women who will carry me through any fire and emerge me out the other side. Sure, maybe battered and singed and partly broken, but still here.

When I came home from the coffee shop I sat in meditation and reached into that place of pain. I saw that beside it and equal to it was a place of calm and wisdom and compassion. That tranquil inner place in me was born of the fire. It didn’t come first, it came as a response. It came BECAUSE I had suffered.

I’m sharing this with you because you may have forgotten that you are stronger than you know. You are stronger than any obstacle, any current circumstance. You’ll get through this too.

Holding you, as ever, in my prayers and meditations, Nicole ❤ xx

About That Sense Of Impending Doom…

“You never know what worse luck your bad luck has saved you from.”  ~ Cormac McCarthy

Did you see my post about psychic anxiety and that sense of impending doom I was suffering from? Well, it’s quite gone now. Perhaps due to the fact that Ben and I were involved in a high-speed impact traffic accident on Wednesday morning. We were stationary at a red light and someone rammed us from behind, doing between 70 and 80 kilometres per hour, the impact sending our own car twenty metres across the intersection.

Luckily the road ahead was empty and we were wearing seatbelts.

We’re both okay. I have severe whiplash and bruising, some torn ligamanets and a very sore jaw from the ashtray full of coins which flew out and hit me on the chin. The car’s a write-off. But hey, it could have been a lot worse.

Thanks for all the messages worrying about why I’ve been quiet. Now you know why.

Much love, Nicole ❤ xx

Advice for Emerging Sensitive and Psychic Souls


“May you always find your intuitive voice and may the language of your intuition sing.” 
~
 Jodi Livon

Hello, Lovelies!
If you’re sensitive energetically then you are bound to be sensitive in other areas of your life.  This is especially true if you are going through a process of spiritual or psychic awakening. At a time of awakening, energies and abilities that have been dormant within you begin to assert themselves in your life.  This can be quite a turbulent and confusing time.

With the year’s current astrological events many sensitive souls are going though a period of spiritual or psychic awakening.

The following tips will help you to adjust to these emerging energies and gifts over the weeks and months ahead:

  • Rest.  When you’re growing and changing, rest is one of the best gifts you can give yourself.
  • Avoid crowded places such as shopping centres and football games when you are feeling particularly sensitive or energetically vulnerable.
  • Avoid difficult relationships and people who drain, upset or unbalance you.  Limit contact with the crazy-makers in your life.
  • If fluorescent and other artificial light sources bother you counteract them by spending time in daylight or moonlight.
  • Eat well.  Favour organic foods, with an emphasis on fresh, local produce, with plenty of leafy green vegetables and root vegetables, rice, pulses and yoghurt. Avoid processed food and sugar. Some people may need to avoid meat at this time.  Others may need meat to ground them.  Listen to your body.  If you’re especially sensitive avoid wheat as well.
  • Avoid alcohol, drugs and stimulants. Really be honest with yourself about substances like coffee and how they may affect you. Cut down or avoid if necessary.
  • Take a good powdered magnesium supplement.  Your muscles and nervous system use magnesium to relax and the body burns it like rocket fuel when you are engaging in energy work and psychic activity.
  • Drink plenty of fresh, clean water.
  • Use yoga, qi gung or tai chi to ground you and move energy through your body.
  • Spend time in nature.
  • Spend time on your own, exploring the things that interest you.
  • Spend time journalling and in self-exploration using tools such as crystals or cards if that feels right for you.
  • Avoid chemicals in your cleaning and personal care products. Avoid places that have a strong artificial or chemical energy.
  • Use natural and alternate therapies to help clear and support your body.
  • Meditate.
  • Pray, and talk with God.
  • Explore vibrational therapies such as essential oils, bush or bach flower essences, crystals, music, colour and aromatherapy.
  • Trust, look for support and know that things do get easier over time.

I’m holding you in my daily prayers and meditations, and wishing you well as you reconnect with your own natural intuitive gifts.
Love and Light, Nicole ❤ xx

PS – Looking for more support?

I’ve bundled together four powerful guided downloadable meditations and created a companion workbook to support you as you work with these celestial energies. The Stardust Connection Meditation Bundle will help you to connect with and explore Earth Energies, Ancestor Energies, your Solar Plexus energies and personal power, and the Stardust Energies. There is over an hour’s worth of Guided Meditations and a 38-page workbook. The workbook holds specific instructions for using the four guided meditations, as well as journalling activities and reflection/awareness exercises.

The material in the Stardust Connection Meditation Bundle can be used at any time over the next four years, and beyond. My intention with this bundle is to help you become confident in your direction, your intuition, and your contribution to the unfolding history of the world and humanity. To access the bundle or to learn more about it go to my store or click on this link.

Searching for a Place to Belong?

Need a tribe who will accept, support and understand you? I have just the place. My YOM community. Buy one of my YOM 2019 Planners – digital version or hard copy and I will gift you a month’s membership to our community as well as access to our online members’ only courses. Or simply jump right in with one of our membership packages. You’ll be welcomed with open arms. All the details are in the links and at my store.

Feeling Wiped Out?


“The moon does not fight. It attacks no one. It does not worry. It does not try to crush others. It keeps to its course, but by its very nature, it gently influences. What other body could pull an entire ocean from shore to shore? The moon is faithful to its nature and its power is never diminished.” 
~ Deng Ming-Dao

Hello, Lovelies!

I just wanted to send a little reassurance your way this morning. You see, my inbox is overflowing with panicked messages from people who are suddenly exhausted, smashed, so stupidly tired that they can hardly function. For no apparent reason…

Have you checked out that big moon above us?

It’s super close right now (cos, Supermoon!) and we’ve also just had a very big lunar eclipse.

Add to that some extreme weather and the fact that most of my readers are sensitives, empaths, intuitives and psychics. It’s your nature to be affected by the energies around you, and the energies around you right now are HUGE. Also, you’re composed largely of water, which is the very thing over which the moon exerts her powers.

So it’s only natural that you’re suddenly tired.

It’s okay. It will pass. Right now rest and stay well hydrated. Use this quiet time for sleep, journalling, meditation and soulful connection. Expect insights and answers. Expect clarity and direction.

Embrace your sensitivity. See it as a strength rather than a weakness. Explore this energetic connection and the feelings it brings up for you.

Moon Goddess by Josephine Wall

Guided Meditation Bundle

Need some support to work with the current Lunar Eclipse energies? I have a free meditation and some rituals here.

I’ve also bundled together four powerful guided downloadable meditations and created a companion workbook to support you as you work with these celestial energies. The Stardust Connection Meditation Bundle will help you to connect with and explore Earth Energies, Ancestor Energies, your Solar Plexus energies and personal power, and the Stardust Energies. There is over an hour’s worth of Guided Meditations and a 38-page workbook. The workbook holds specific instructions for using the four guided meditations, as well as journalling activities and reflection/awareness exercises.

The material in the Stardust Connection Meditation Bundle can be used at any time over the next four years, and beyond. My intention with this bundle is to help you become confident in your direction, your intuition, and your contribution to the unfolding history of the world and humanity. To access the bundle or to learn more about it go to my store or click on this link.

Go gently this week, simplify where you can, and remember to take some time for yourself and what matters to you.

Lots of love, Nicole ❤ xoxo

The Owl and the Moon by Christy Patino

Holiday At the Farm!


“There is more to life than making a living. Do not work more than you live.” ~ Mokokoma Mokhonoana

Hello, Lovelies!

Right now we have a friend and her little girls vacationing with us here at the farm. Each day the girls have farm chores to do – watering the gardens and fruit trees (it is very dry here right now), feeding the goldfish in the big ceramic pot that sits by the front door, and feeding some hay to the cows and all the new little calves. It’s a late calving season this year, and we’ve had three new calves in the past week and another few will probably arrive soon too!

Amidst all the farm work there has also been time for breakfasts at our favourite Byron Bay cafe, swims in the pool, outings to the bookshop, cooking lessons in my little farmhouse kitchen, time for reading and for colouring in our January Mandalas.

I’ve still been working, sneaking off into my office to write blogs, work on our retreats and courses and to do readings for clients. But work has that relaxed holiday feel to it, and it has been a pleasure to sit down at my desk every day to write and craft our projects for the year ahead.

Yesterday was particularly exciting. We decided that dinner would be a cocktail party on the verandah. No special reason – just because we could.

It was compulsory to wear a flower in our hair, and we all put on some party clothes. Ben chose a great selection of music, and then we sat outside and snacked and talked and laughed the night away. We also had a great box of cards that we took turns choosing, that prompted us to share something we were proud of, grateful for, favourite songs, achievements. That part was probably the highlight of my day!

I made non-alcoholic mango cocktails for the girls, and we adults shared glasses of Prosecco with preserved hibiscus flowers in the bottom of each glass for a fancy party effect.

Our food included fresh local oysters and prawns (shrimp), and a selection of cheeses and dips, crackers, olives, cold meats, fruits and snacks. Delicious. And of course a few morsels seemed to slip off those platters and into our dogs’ tummies. Although I can’t see how that happened!

What can be better in life than creating new shared memories with friends?

Today? More Planner time for me, a little writing time and cooking lessons: foundation biscuit mixture and variations, and later we’ll make tacos for dinner.

I’m wishing you a year of balance, connection, fun and meaningful work too.

Much love, Nicole ❤ xx

Opening To The Shifting Energies


“The first peace, which is the most important, is that which comes within the souls of people when they realize their relationship, their oneness with the universe and all its powers, and when they realize at the center of the universe dwells the Great Spirit, and that its center is really everywhere, it is within each of us.” 
― Black Elk

The energy of 2019 has come quietly in, unannounced, in these last days of 2018.

It began its transition yesterday and today it is anchored here, waiting for us to acknowledge the shift.

But I’m sure you already feel it in your bodies.

Empaths, intuitives, sensitives and people who are more deeply connected to the moment will have noticed.

Maybe yesterday you felt alive and hopeful for the first time in a long while. Or perhaps you felt bone-weary.

Did you suddenly notice the extra weight you are carrying, or the reduced flexibility or mobility of your body? Did you notice the dryness of your skin, your belly’s bloated protest at the food you were eating, or have an urgent craving for something more healthy? Did you want to dance or run or swim or hike? Or sleep? Did you crave company? Or solitude?

Did it feel like you had woken up in a stranger’s body, only to find it was your own?

The energies of 2019 are grounded, practical and more than a little magical. And they bring with them a reorientation of ourselves – back into our bodies and back into connection with the Earth.

That’s a very good thing indeed.

So, tune in today. What’s your body telling you? Listen to it, and then act on it. Let it be the start of a beautiful time of healing, reconnection and empowerment for you as the year unfolds.

Much love to you, Nicole ❤ xx

Navigating Christmas Without A Loved One


“You will lose someone you can’t live without, and your heart will be badly broken, and the bad news is that you never completely get over the loss of your beloved. But this is also the good news. They live forever in your broken heart that doesn’t seal back up. And you come through. It’s like having a broken leg that never heals perfectly—that still hurts when the weather gets cold, but you learn to dance with the limp.” 
Anne Lamott

Christmas is not always an easy time. There are many of us for whom Christmas brings stark reminders of families broken, loved ones lost, and empty chairs at our tables.

If you are navigating Christmas this year while also grieving loss or going through great struggle I want to reach out to you. In the midst of the barrage of happy Christmas movies, fairytale endings and Hallmark Moments I want you to know that I am sorry for your pain, and the hardship this time of year can bring. Please also know you’re not alone. There are many of us whose hearts hurt at Christmas, even as we celebrate, because of loss. If your grief is raw and new it’s also okay to put things on hold, to do things differently, or to let the anniversary days like Christmas slide by unacknowledged until you are ready to face them again.

I’d like to share something I do at Christmas that may be useful for you too. I have found it helpful and healing to make a private little Christmas Altar each year. This way I remember the dead, the absent, the lost. An altar is simply a small dedicated spiritual space that is meaningful to you in some way.

On my altar I place fresh flowers, a candle and some favourite crystals. Things that bring me comfort, and a sense of sacred. Then I place photos or objects that represent a loved one who will not be at my table. That way I can still have them near me, and I can flow love to them and have them be part of my life over the festive season.

The beautiful big owl in the photo above was given to me one Christmas by my friend Angela. She passed away a few years ago. It will be central to my display.

I’ll place a tiny wooden boat for my brother, and a ceramic pelican for my dad. A sparkly stone for my sister and roses for my mum and all of the women in her family who have shaped and grown and loved me. My family all live far from me. But now they are here on my altar even if they cannot be here in person.

I’ll add a photo of Ben’s parents from when they were young, and pictures of my grandparents too. I have cupcake-shaped candles for my darling Kate, who passed away too soon in 2010 ( I went back to her facebook page last night and was lost in there for an hour reading her old posts and laughing at what a dag she was and crying cos sometimes I still miss her more than breathing), and Julie who passed away in 2014. My Grandparents, all now passed, are here in photographs too and I will place a glass of sherry, Christmas Cake and some gingernut biscuits out because these are all the things they would have loved to eat, and later I will eat some and think of them. On Christmas Day I will play The Twelve Days of Christmas by the Ray Conniff Singers, because my Pa used to play that for us every year, and shed a few happy-sad tears.

It’s not the same as having them at my table, but it’s the next best thing. People coming to my house will think that I have simply gathered flowers and candles and photographs and a few ornaments together, but for me it is something healing and emotionally significant that helps me to feel the reassuring weight of my loved ones around me.

Perhaps making your own Christmas Altar will help you this Christmas too.

Sending so much love your way, Nicole ❤ xx

Follow Your Longing – Monday Oracle 10 December 2018



“The biggest adventure you can take is to live the life of your dreams.”
~  Oprah Winfrey

Hello, Lovelies!

December is a month for planning and dreaming, interspersed with fun, curiosity, friendship and celebration.  Keep that in mind as we look at the gifts of inspiration which the oracle card Seven of Swords brings us.

This week we’re reminded that our imagination exists for a reason and so do our longings. They create the sparks that make a trail of light through the darkened world, leading us to the things that will give us satisfaction, and for which our soul yearns.

Seven of Swords encourages us to stop wishing and start acting this week. If there is no time for action then at least we can create a plan, we can make decisions, we can choose to make space in the near future for more of what matters in our lives.

Feel into your envies, your frustrations, your jealousies and your hungers this week. Don’t be ashamed of them. Don’t turn away. Be brave enough to look into the face of what they are showing you. Let your soul come alive with desire again. Unchain yourself from the humdrum of duty, obligation and routine. Allow possibility to slip into your heart and illuminate you with hope once more. Vow to yourself that your future can be different, and then make room for that to happen.

Supportive crystals this week?

Petrified Wood (pictured) promotes compassion, wonder, curiosity and benevolence. It is a stone for healing old hurts and allowing hope back into your heart. Amazonite helps you to live bravely and from your heart, especially in regard to your creative projects. It will boost self-confidence and self-worth. Tree Agate heightens your intuition, connecting you to synchronicity, soul wisdom, guides and universal energy. It will help you to work out your priorities and where to best spend your precious energy. Snowflake Obsidian is a wonderful stone for any form of pattern-breaking, helping you to invite or invoke change.

Image from Celestial Earth Minerals

Helpful essential oils?

Coriander essential oil is a good choice for your diffuser this week. It helps you to know yourself, and to reconnect with your truth. To make an effective blend to boost confidence and optimism add Bergamot, Geranium and Cinnamon Bark in a ration of 4:3:2:1.

Cinnamon also gives that lovely spicy Christmassy feel to a blend, helping put you in the holiday mood.

I’m passionate about essential oils and their capacity to support our wellness journey and our spiritual and emotional wellbeing. If you’d like to know more or want to source the oils I recommend and trust visit this site or contact me at channelnc@gmail.com

A space to learn and grow

The next four years 2019 – 2022 are significant for our personal and spiritual evolution, as well as for the evolution of our planet. I thought long and hard about the best way to support your growth over that time and have decided that beefing up the content in my YOM membership area was the best way to help you grow, adapt and step more fully into your authenticity and the life-path you chose for yourself pre-birth. You’ll see this membership group evolve into an Academy of Learning over the next twelve months so that my team and I (human and energetic) can serve you the best way I know how.

My membership space is a place where I can walk you through the year, explain all the aspects of the month ahead and the crystals we’ve chosen, where I do special webinars with my tribe to teach you new skills and share important information, and where I channel with my guides in live webinars, and answer your questions and provide general support. I often jump into our private Facebook group to pull cards and bring through messages for our members too. And did I mention what an incredible, loving and supportive space our YOM Community is? There is real friendship and belonging there. It’s a safe space, a heart space, and a place for great personal transformation. I totally heart it!

The format of YOM is constantly evolving. In 2019 you will have access to the foundation YOM online course as well as twelve free additional mini-courses and live events over the next year as well as our wonderful private Facebook group.

There are yearly subscription and monthly subscription options. Our Planner and a range of physical support materials and packs and online courses are available too. Everything you need is available through our store.

Holding you, as always, in my thoughts, prayers and meditations, and intending for you a life of abundance and joy, where you are no longer limited by your doubts.

All my love,

Nicole ❤ xx

PS: Monday’s oracle card, ‘Seven of Swords’, is from the Inner Child Cards – A Fairy-Tale Tarot. I use any cards shown as a prompt for channelled messages and my own own intuitive wisdom, so my take is sometimes quite different to the meaning found in a book. 

When You Lose Track Of Time You Know It’s Love!

“How did it get so late so soon?” 
Dr. Seuss

At 8.30pm last night I told Ben I’d be in bed soon. I just had to do one little thing first…

A little after 2am this morning I looked up and to my surprise hours had suddenly flown by.

Has that ever happened to you? You got engrossed in something and lost all track of time?

The picture above is of my desk, at the end of my last big session of putting our pre-order Planner and Mala packs together. I was listening to music, channelling crystals for people and making special personalised essential oil blends and writing Christmas Cards and pouring love into everything and my night just vanished!

So I’m writing my blog now and scheduling it it post for me in a few hours and meanwhile, hopefully, I’ll be asleep.

Oh my goodness, I am so proud of our Planners and Malas and all our new online courses. I’ll tell you all about them tomorrow and they’ll all be up in our store for you tomorrow too. But first I need some sleep. After I do my 4am meditation (at 3am) because it seems dumb to go to sleep for an hour only to wake up and meditate. I’ll be sending you all lots of love and light and blessings to help you navigate the last of these current energetic shifts.

The pic below is me happy and loved-up and ready for my meditation. Yay for big nights of soul-calling work. (And yes, I still can’t see properly so I am not looking directly into the camera because I couldn’t see where to look!)

Love you! Nicole ❤ xoxo