“Of all the things we can feel with our minds and bodies, severe pain is the purest, for it drives everything else from our awareness and focuses us as perfectly as we can ever be focused.” ~ Dean Koontz
There is this thing that happens to me on my current Lyme drugs.
It started in a small way. Bacteria began dying in my nerve endings. As they die, they release toxins. Awesome…
One night, delirious with fever, I thought that small lizards were hiding in my sheets and biting me. That was exactly what it felt like at the time.
And those lizards were mean!
Then it settled down for a while, and I’d thought that was the last of it.
But as I’ve ramped up my meds, the lizards have come back, and this time they’re bigger!
Now it feels as if large mean lizards are taking random chomps out of me with their hard plastic mouths. These are some hungry lizards, that’s for sure. Chomp. Chomp. Chomp.
Chomp on my cheekbone. Chomp on my thigh. Chomp on my belly, my eyelid, the top of my foot. Chomp on my lip, my hip, the very tip of my nose. Chomp, snap, chomp.
The sensations are horrid. Breathtakingly painful – somewhere between a stab and being tasered, although that only lasts a moment or two, after which it subsides to a less agonising sting. That’s exactly what a villainous lizard with a nasty mouth full of needle-sharp teeth would feel like, right?
Sometimes I can’t help myself and I will gasp with the pain of it. Or flinch and go all wide-eyed.
Which does look a bit odd when you’re out and about. But of course, how are you to know that I am under invisible attack?
My husband and I have developed a code for this now. I call it Gorn Attack.
“You okay?” he’ll ask me.
“Yeah,” I’ll nod. “Just Gorns.”
Have you met a Gorn before? Gorns are a brutal lizard-like race that Captain James T. Kirk fought so valiantly in Star Trek.
Where is Captain Kirk now, I ask? I could really use some help here.
Gorns then made a reprieve visit when Sheldon Cooper was conversing with Tiny Spock in Big Bang Theory. Sheldon was horrified to be attacked by a Gorn. It was his worst nightmare.
I know how he feels. 🙂
I guess it is kind of interesting. Maybe all of this will come in handy some day for a sci-fi story, or if I ever do meet a real live Gorn or end up in a parallel Star Trek universe. I feel I am developing quite an expertise when it comes to handling Gorn Attack. My weapons are primarily meditation, ninja mind control and magic.
I have another four and a half months on these particular drugs. Maybe more. And there is no way I’m quitting.
So, Mr Gorn, bite me!