“To conquer frustration, one must remain intensely focused on the outcome, not the obstacles.”
― T.F. Hodge
“A bruise is a lesson… and each lesson makes us better.”
― George R.R. Martin, A Game of Thrones
“The lotus is the most beautiful flower, whose petals open one by one. But it will only grow in the mud. In order to grow and gain wisdom, first you must have the mud — the obstacles of life and its suffering. … The mud speaks of the common ground that humans share, no matter what our stations in life. … Whether we have it all or we have nothing, we are all faced with the same obstacles: sadness, loss, illness, dying and death. If we are to strive as human beings to gain more wisdom, more kindness and more compassion, we must have the intention to grow as a lotus and open each petal one by one. ”
― Goldie Hawn
Hi Lovelies, I thought I’d better update you on why I’ve been so quiet…
One of the drugs I’ve been on for my Lyme treatment has an unfortunate side effect in some people of shortening and stiffening ligaments and tendons. As they lose their elasticity they become prone to tears and rupture.
A few weeks ago I tore ligaments in my right knee as I was getting into bed. It’s healing, slowly, but it has certainly slowed me down. Then on Monday night after I came home from my Lyme Doctor I had a tear and a bleed in my left Achilles tendon caused by Harry the dog bumping into me.
Rolling over in bed a few nights later I ripped ligaments in my right shoulder and injured tendons in my right thumb.
I would not be lying to say that right now I’m feeling a little over it. 🙁 If I were really truthful, I might even admit to having indulged in a full-on howly little emotional breakdown for a minute or two.
So for now I am on bed rest, being well looked after, and trying not to injure myself further until these drugs get out of my system.
I’m also not having such a fun time on the new ligament-friendly lyme meds I’m on either (think vomiting, pain, blurred vision and misery) although that’s a whole other story…
But on an up note I AM getting better. It’s just a lesson in patience right now, like typing this blog with my left hand so at least it’s done, even if it is a very slow process.
This morning my mum rang, and gently suggested I should try and blog something, anything, just to let you all know that I am okay.
I am mostly okay. 🙂 Really.
Forgive me if my blogging remains a bit erratic until I get my body under control. We’re working on it, but like most things, it shall take time. Still, I’m already feeling a bit brighter. Fingers crossed this uphill trend shall continue. I’ll post as I can, so stay tuned.
Thinking of you and sending love, Nicole xx
PS – here’s a useful little quote for times like these: