Love Letter To My Left Eye

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“Yet it is in this loneliness that the deepest activities begin. It is here that you discover act without motion, labor that is profound repose, vision in obscurity, and, beyond all desire, a fulfillment whose limits extend to infinity.” 

~ Thomas Merton

One of the more insidious aspects of stealth pathogens like Lyme and its various co-infections is that these bacteria hide in the most annoying and unlikely of places.

Inside me there are a whole host of squigglies that have taken up residence in my eyes.  My left eyeball in particular has been giving me enormous grief, although both are bothersome. As my medications kill the bacteria, the bacteria release toxins as a parting gift. My eyeballs are battle grounds right now…

It’s frustrating.  Not only do I get horrendous pain and light sensitivity, I also get spasms, twitches, tics and vision distortion. In a world where I rely so much on my eyes, having them temporarily out of action has been getting me down.

I was feeling quite cranky about my lyme-y eyes, especially my left one. Funny what chronic pain can do to you.  Problem is being cranky is not a great healing energy, and not very well aligned with my usual thoughts.

My poor eyes.  It’s not their fault.  They have been doing their best for me; working hard, adjusting to obstacles and continuing to be of service.  Even in their current state I’ve realised how grateful I am for them – how lost I’d be to suddenly have no vision at all.

So I decided to write my problematic eye ball a love letter. Perhaps, next time you are frustrated with your body, instead of directing that frustration at yourself, you could send some love and appreciation too. Most situations flourish far better with kindness, and you might find yourself feeling a whole lot better about things…

Dear Left EyeBall,

It seems I have taken you for granted my whole life.  Like many relationships, it’s only once I’ve noticed an absence that I understand just how much you do for me. I’m sorry about that. I am glad that this illness has given me the opportunity to truly ‘see’ my eyes for the miracles that you are.

Because of you I can see auras.  I can see faces.  I can read books and communicate clearly, even when I don’t say a word.  I get to see sunsets, tiny insects, everyday wonders and glimpses of those special things that forever change you.

You are my guide as I navigate the world, seamlessly letting my brain know where to place my feet or my hands, coordinating food and beverages to my lips, letting me recognise people and places. You gift me independence. You give my life ease.

I’m glad that you blink and cry, squint to protect me from harsh glare, and widen when things delight me.

Right now I’m going to give you a rest so that you can heal. I’m choosing to hold a picture of myself bright-eyed and sparkly. I’m choosing to see you well and  working perfectly. I’m sending you love, and bathing you in white light. I wish you well, little eye. Take all the time you need.

Much love and gratitude, Nicole xoxo

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22 thoughts on “Love Letter To My Left Eye

  1. Sending Love Letters to problematic body parts = LOVE IT! You have such a *magical* way of seeing life and things. And you also have a *magical* way of posting exactly what I need at exactly the right time. Sending you Healing Light and lots of LOVE. Thinking of you always. And YES, you’d be a perfect pirate lady for Pirates of the Caribbean!!!

  2. Oh, Nicole, what a lovely gesture for your eye … it is true, we take the systems of our miraculous body for granted, and only when something is out of whack do we pay it attention — sometimes, even smothering it with attention. Gratitude for its role is so important. Thank you for this reminder. I send you healing energies filled with Divine Love.

    xo Namaste ~~

  3. sending you lot’s of LOVE…you are beautiful and I noticed the gold earring really adds the final touch! healing loving light to your left eye and U each and every moment…XX

  4. I am also sending love to your eyes! With extra love to left eye! Yes we are blessed to have all our senses and body and limbs to get out of bed each day! Love to all of our body as well!
    Happy Tuesday….xxxxx

  5. Hang in there. Keep your attention on your eye being held in the thought that ‘it is already perfect. Already whole and healed.’

  6. Dear Nic xx
    Sending love to your left eye and right as well – gratitude to them on behalf of every single one of the thousands of souls you have assisted through seeing and translating the information held in their auric field and for seeing my aura almost 10yrs ago, communing empoweringly about imbalances, qualities and potentials that uplifted my weary heart and mind and spirit as i left life as a lawyer and started again studying medicine xx
    deep gratitude to your whole beautiful being xx
    xxmelinda
    Tea and commune when feel – am there on ur call xxx

  7. Here’s a glass raised to your left eye! I love how you wrote a letter to it as a means of turning your frustration into gratitude.

    On a side note, this reminds me of a feature that I read many years ago in Vogue about how one of the editors was forced to wear an eye-patch for a while. She said that she had to go out and buy a who new wardrobe of sharp blazers and dark, maritime-appropriate clothing because the eye-patch was just not working with all her pretty florals!

  8. With such love and affection shown, why, it’d be a wonderful thing to be your left eye 🙂 That’s love and nurturing in action. So. Beautiful. xxx

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