Being Held By The Universe

Image by Simon Beedle www.simonbeedle.com

Image by Simon Beedle www.simonbeedle.com

“The best remedy for those who are afraid, lonely or unhappy is to go outside, somewhere where they can be quite alone with the heavens, nature and God. Because only then does one feel that all is as it should be and that God wishes to see people happy, amidst the simple beauty of nature. As longs as this exists, and it certainly always will, I know that then there will always be comfort for every sorrow, whatever the circumstances may be. And I firmly believe that nature brings solace in all troubles.”
~ Anne Frank

 

I didn’t write a post on Saturday, although I intended to.

The Universe knew better. I’d had a huge week of work in the city, both paid clients and out-of-hours emergencies that are just part and parcel of my wider life in spiritual service. There was Alan on Monday night, a man on the brink of suicide. There was Steve on Thursday night – a man on the brink of dying. Steve had been involved in a terrible accident, and he needed my help. I’d hoped to tell you about it but it’s still so raw that I find the words aren’t coming yet. Only tears.

It was a crazy busy week of drama. On top of so many other people who have been in crisis or needing help with major life issues. On top of my Planner community and my regular readings.

I thought I’d been coping okay, even under a full load. I’d honoured my feelings, and sat in my emotions and done my best not to bottle anything up. I’d been gentle with myself. Psychic work is hard. It often drains me. And my tender heart is regularly bruised by life, even as I love and celebrate the journey we all share.

That’s me below, exhausted and shiny-faced with tears after helping Steve to pass over on Thursday night. A process which left me completely shattered. My new computer, which I still can’t use properly, managed somehow to capture a screen-shot of me just after I’d hung up from skyping Steve’s wife. It was about 5am, and I’d been talking with them since just before 11pm the night before.

As I wandered around my city home on Friday morning, packing to return to the farm, all I did was cry. Walk and cry. Clean and cry. Pack and cry. The tears kept streaming down my face and I couldn’t control them. They were just a release of all of the energy I’d accumulated as I spoke to the living and those in the place we go to after death. I was also in deep fatigue after experiencing my second night in four days of zero sleep while I did unscheduled psychic work.

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I really thought I was okay, apart from the tears and the tiredness.

But when we got home to the farm on Friday afternoon I finally understood how emotionally bankrupt I was.

Mother Nature knew. The Universe knew. They whipped up an enormous thunderstorm, followed by lashing rain. After which came another storm, and more rain.

My little farmhouse was a sanctuary, surrounded by trees and cut off by flood waters.

I crept into bed at 4pm, and curled up under the sheets to the sound of thunderous rain upon the roof.  I lay facing the window, watching the play of lightning across the sky, and the trees  swaying and dancing in the wind. I felt safe and loved and deeply connected to the natural world. All night the storms raged, and I moved in and of sleep. In the morning the air was clear and the world was quiet.

Very quiet.

We’d lost phone connection and power.

I couldn’t blog or check my email or do any work at all.

‘See,’ my husband said, ‘even God thinks you need the morning off.’

So I spent my morning barefeet on the grass, sun on my face as I meditated or dozed, and by lunchtime I was completely restored to myself.

Thank goodness for my farm, and for trees and sky and rain and tempest, for birdsong and silence. Nature is medicine for my soul.

Today is my Wedding Anniversary, so I’m taking a day off to spend with Ben. The other fine medicine for my soul. We’ll walk on the beach, swim, rest, find somewhere yummy to eat a meal (and probably take Cafe Dog) and talk about life and all that good stuff.

It’s an incredible privilege to be here on this planet at this time. Even if some days do get hard for all of us. Take care of yourself today and always, and remember that nature is always there to embrace you.

Sending much love to you all. Nicole xx

Image from liftupideas.com

Image from liftupideas.com

20 thoughts on “Being Held By The Universe

  1. I’m glad to hear you were able (with the Universe’s not so gentle nudging) to take the time you needed to restore your spirit and come back to yourself. 🙂 And Happy Anniversary!

  2. You give so much, it is lovely the Universe stepped in and enforced rest upon you. <3 Have a beautiful relaxing day. Sending love to Steve's wife too xxxx

  3. This post made me get all chocked up, I think that is a good thing although not so easy to explain to others why I am feeling chocked up but still ok. You are so amazing and your posts usually move me and connect to me

  4. Thank you Nicole for all that you do for people who suffer. I know I didn’t leave comments in such a long time but I never miss any of your posts. I know why people go to you when they need help. I know because I feel like they do. For some reason even without meeting you or taking to you, i know the power of your connections and the power of your love to the world. Thank you.

  5. Hey Nicole, happy Anniversary to you and Ben – glad you have planned a fun day of nurture. So grateful that you have medicine of the soul to restore you in the midst of all you do for others xx

  6. I looked at your picture after you hung up from helping Steve pass and all I could think was you dear sweet soul, may God Bless you and take care of you. Those of us who love you can be energy draining at times so please always take the time to recharge your spiritual, emotional and physical batteries. You are a gift to us all. Blessings of renewed energy and strength to you, oh and strong time-out boundaries too!
    Felicia Colvin

  7. Please take EXTRA good care of yourself, Nicole… I know you know this, but sometimes I worry! Happy Anniversary to you and Ben — long live your love!!! Lifting my cup of tea to your health… CHEERS 🙂 xox

  8. It was hard to ‘like’ this post, but I’m relieved that you had a literal watershed and that Mother Nature (and your aunties, no doubt) intuited that you needed some big storm healing. Big, BIG love and see you soon (and Happy Anniversary, lovers!) XOXO

  9. Flowers laid at your feet for the love you give, for the transitions you help dear ones through. May the dynamic strength and beauty of Lady Nature continue to replenish and restore you. May the simple leaning forward of Ben, as he takes your hand, fill you with the wholeness and magic of this healing bond. To you, to the Keep the trees bow.

  10. Darling Nicole. … you are one of God’s earth angels. … such a kind soul!
    I hope you and Ben had a wonderful anniversary. .. Thank you for all the work you do for us all, you are loved and appreciated xxx

  11. Thank you Nicole. I always sigh deeply after I have read one of your postings. When I feel a little lost or unsteady, I can always count on feeling re-connected after I have read something you have written. That is a lifeline xo

  12. People who stand with others in their hardest times are my favourites. You are definitely one of my favourites. Love you. I hope you found everything you needed to refill your well <3 xoxo

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