Out beyond ideas of wrongdoing
and rightdoing there is a field.
I’ll meet you there.
When the soul lies down in that grass
the world is too full to talk about.Rumi
Yesterday I was searching the internet for something related to my health, and a familiar name came up in the Google results. Bizarrely, my friend Peter Spann’s page came up in the search, so I clicked on it out of curiosity, even though it was completely unrelated to my search topic.
The link led me to a blog post titled I Don’t Want To Die and I read it to the last word. Written in July 2019, it explained Peter’s health situation at that time. At the end of the post Peter shared some wisdom in a section called ‘What I Have Learned’. Peter’s thoughts really spoke to me, so much so that I printed them out to stick on the wall beside my desk. (If you want to know which of the 7 points got to me it was points 1, 2 and 3, and I needed to read them yesterday.)
A little later I jumped onto Facebook and the first post I saw was from another friend, letting us know that Peter had died some hours before.
At first I was so shocked that all I could do was stare at my screen, my eyes filled with tears.
Then, I began to laugh.
Years ago, Peter sat in my lounge room in Brisbane, and we discussed life, death and the meaning of the Universe. Peter had been skeptical but open-minded about some of my beliefs and the work that I did.
If I die before you, and what you say is true, he said, I’ll drop by and let you know you were right.
Thanks, Peter. Thanks for your friendship. Thanks for having been such a bright light in the world. Thanks for finding a way to stop by and say hi. And thanks for the kick up the bum. Message received, loud and clear.
Sending so much love to you, my generous friend, as you travel on life’s next great adventure. I’m glad to hear you arrived safely, and that things are great where you are.
Your friend, Nicole xx
Vale, Peter Spann (1966 – 2021)