“They say a person needs just three things to be truly happy in this world: someone to love, something to do, and something to hope for.” ~ Tom Bodett
Last night the Supermoon shone down upon us. I’ve come home to our farm for a few days to rest and catch my breath, and the moon woke me just after midnight with her luminous glow.
Did you feel the moon magic too?
I’m in love with the energies of this moon and the energetic phase she heralds. It’s the last Supermoon for 2019 – and we’ve had the blessing of a Supermoon every month in this first quarter of the year.
This particular moon is clearing away obstacles to our progress and success – she is helping us to move towards our joy, and strengthening our belief in ourselves and in our dreams.
I stood under her silvery gaze last night and moon-bathed until I felt peaceful, serene and filled up with love and gratitude. I can feel this shift of energy, I can feel doors closing and opening, and I’ve woken this morning with a strong optimism for the unfolding story of my life.
My wish for you is that you can find some of that Supermoon energy for yourself this week!
“We feel most alive when we are closest to death.” ~ Nenia Campbell
I’m in Adelaide right now, staying on my own while I write and work and attend a conference. After dining with friends last night I went back to my hotel and, on a whim, decided to go and check out the outside pool and spa area even though the night was cool and not much good for swimming.
The area was in darkness, but the buildings around us were lit up and pretty and the night sky’s stars twinkled above me. It was so peaceful, there on the roof, and so I sat down in the closest chair to enjoy a few moments of solitude and connection.
‘It makes you feel small and big all at once, doesn’t it?’ said a voice quietly beside me.
I looked around to see an older man sitting in the shadows a small distance away.
‘Yes,’ I answered. Then I apologised for interrupting his peace, for I was sure that I had. I stood up and excused myself, wishing him a good night and was almost back at the door which led to the lifts when I found myself returning to the pool, my legs walking me there all by themselves so it felt.
‘I’m sorry to interrupt again,’ I said, ‘but I just wanted to check that you’re okay. Are you okay?’
‘No, not really,’ he said. ‘Actually…’ and then he paused for a long time before clearing his throat, ‘I’m not really sure how I feel.’
I sat in the seat beside him, both of us looking out at the night sky and the pretty lights. ‘Do you want to talk about it?’ I asked.
He sat there for a long time, the silence thick between us.
‘I went to the doctor today,’ he said, finally. ‘I’m from the country, about six hours drive from here and I came down to town to get my results. They’re not good.’
The silence between us changed, linking us somehow in that quiet space.
‘I knew they wouldn’t be good,’ he said. ‘But I didn’t think they’d be as bad as they are. He said I had maybe two good months left. Maybe less, and then everything would turn to shit and then I’d be gone within another month, tops. If I was lucky. He was a nice young bloke, that doctor. Kind, and I could tell he was talking straight with me, and sort of cushioning the blow a bit…’ He breathed out, a long heavy sigh. ‘But it’s a lot to take in, and sitting in my room I felt suddenly like I couldn’t breathe unless I could see the sky. So I came out here to sit and think about it a bit and try to take it in. And then you turned up.’
‘I’m sorry,’ I said. ‘It must have been a shock.’ We sat there a while longer and then I reached across and took his hand. He clung to mine tightly, his hand warm and dry in mine, and suddenly we didn’t need words at all.
We sat there for an hour, just holding hands and then he said to me, ‘You’re shaking with cold. Come on, let’s go to the bar and I’ll buy you something to warm you up.’
So we sat downstairs in the almost empty bar until midnight, him nursing a fine cognac and me sipping peppermint tea, and I talked to him about dying, and about getting his affairs in order and how he could best manage what was ahead of him, given that he was an older man estranged from his only son, and with his wife passed on from a car accident nearly twenty years ago.
We talked honestly and openly and I shared all I could and on the back of a bar napkin we made him a plan. Then I gave him my phone number, hugged him and went to say goodbye.
He hugged me again, fiercely, and then he pulled me closer and whispered, ‘I was praying tonight to a God I haven’t believed in since Maggie died, and then you turned up. Thank you. I swear you were sent by the Angels, love. Bless you.’
We parted with tears in our eyes and then I went back upstairs to my lonely hotel room, threw the curtains wide so I could see that pretty night sky and I sat in the dark with a full and aching heart from the beauty and savagery and majestic synchronicity of life, and I cried.
“ When you prepare for something big in your life and work towards it with such intensity, it takes confidence to take a day off and have peace with it. ” ~ J.R. Rim
This is Chelsi and I am hijacking Nicole’s blog.
Kidding aside, I would like to tell everyone that after a very successful retreat (congratulations to everyone who finished Connect to Your Calling Retreat and Mentoring Program!), Nicole will be taking a day off today to sleep in and she is sending all her love to you!
“Whatever you are physically…male or female, strong or weak, ill or healthy–all those things matter less than what your heart contains. If you have the soul of a warrior, you are a warrior. All those other things, they are the glass that contains the lamp, but you are the light inside.” ~ Cassandra Clare
I am so wearied by the New Age teachers and practitioners telling you that the tarot cards have the power, or your Guides, or the Angels, or the dead relatives who sit all around you. Or that your life is goverened by some soul contract or past life karma of which you have no knowledge. I want you to know that this was never true.
One of the things that is most important to me as a metaphysical teacher is for you to understand that your ultimate power lies within you, your ultimate authority and wisdom also. This is YOUR life, and when you learn to tune in to your own wisdom you become empowered to make the decisions that are right for you. No-one knows you better. And everything I teach is for the purpose of helping you know yourself, to connect you to your inner wisdom and to help you forge your own considered path in the world.
It’s our last day of Retreat today, and our participants will leave here having deepened that soul connection and with renewed personal clarity. I’m so proud of all they have achieved and I am excited to be supporting them on the next part of their journey as I mentor them in actioning the Calling they have identified for themselves.
When you stop giving your power away, and learn to trust your inner Guidance, so much more is possible.
How about you? Are you steady and trusting in listening to the wisdom of your heart or are you still looking outside you for guidance and direction?
When you learn to tune in, and you start to trust what you know, your life will change for the better. I promise.
“You never know what worse luck your bad luck has saved you from.” ~ Cormac McCarthy
Did you see my post about psychic anxiety and that sense of impending doom I was suffering from? Well, it’s quite gone now. Perhaps due to the fact that Ben and I were involved in a high-speed impact traffic accident on Wednesday morning. We were stationary at a red light and someone rammed us from behind, doing between 70 and 80 kilometres per hour, the impact sending our own car twenty metres across the intersection.
Luckily the road ahead was empty and we were wearing seatbelts.
We’re both okay. I have severe whiplash and bruising, some torn ligamanets and a very sore jaw from the ashtray full of coins which flew out and hit me on the chin. The car’s a write-off. But hey, it could have been a lot worse.
Thanks for all the messages worrying about why I’ve been quiet. Now you know why.
“Anxiety was born in the very same moment as mankind. And since we will never be able to master it, we will have to learn to live with it—just as we have learned to live with storms.” ~ Paulo Coelho
Over the years I have come to recognise a certain set of feelings which I have given the name ‘Psychic Anxiety’. It’s a very unpleasant sensation that can last from an hour to a couple of days, and it is one of the least fantastic aspects of being spiritually and energetically sensitive.
Don’t get me wrong. It’s not unbearable, and in fact I have worse feelings related to psychic work at times, especially if it involves violent crimes and dead people.
The biggest problem with psychic anxiety is this unshakable feeling of impending doom, dread and unease, that sensation of icy chills and ‘something crawling over your grave’ as my Nana used to call it.
Psychic anxiety became so bad for me yesterday that I threw up and felt ‘off’ for most of the day. There was no logical reason for it, but then I long ago stopped needing logic to explain my life.
People who are psychic, or sensitive, generally feel the highs and lows of life more acutely. I like this diagram below, because for me it represents the differences between me and someone who is less sensitive.
Most people live in the middle of the red and green lines, and can go to the high or low ends of those fields but may seldom do so. They also usually have a physical robustness to them.
Energetically sensitive people are represented by the blue line. We feel and react to energies both above and below those regular red and green bands, although we may also live somewhere in the middle of our band of felt frequencies most of the time. Sensitive people are just that – sensitive – and without the robustness of some other folk. We may act with great robustness for a while, while we are needed or need to get things done, but that sort of energetic output is always at a price. And sometimes that price is high. Still, while we are not robust we are resilient, and sensitive souls have great inner strength to draw on. Remember that. Sensitivity is not weakness.
The blessing of sensitivity is that we can feel, see, connect with and know some wonderful and amazing things. It is easy for us to tap into creative flow, to feel love and gratitude, to notice things around us and with the emotions of people around us, and to get high on life…
The difficulty is that sometimes it connects us into those more extreme energies, and this is a painful experience on a soul level, tough emotionally and sometimes physically hard as well.
Usually if I get a psychic message or connection out of the blue (in other words I’m not consciously inviting or controlling it) it feels like this – a big bang on an otherwise normal day:
I get a sudden flood of images, sounds, sensations, feelings, knowledge – all flooding me with a great intensity. It’s momentary, it passes; although the information will remain, the emotions and energetic kick dissipate quickly.
Psychic anxiety is different. It’s like an unseen hand rachets up the control knob. I can’t turn the emotions and energetic kick down or off, but I am also given no information. All I have is the feeling, sometimes so strong that it wipes me out in the same way a severe migraine might. Like an old TV with no image on the screen, cranking out a discordant sound that makes you want to cover your ears or run away screaming.
I know that certain things affect me. When there are polar shifts I end up flat and exhausted, a little depressed, and often with big hormonal swings. When there are solar flares I feel restless, unable to sleep, irritable and wound up tight.
But this, this is different. And I’m grateful it doesn’t happen too often. It’s always tied into great disaster, injustice, cruelty, suffering, death. It’s either building up to happen, or happening as I feel it.
In the days to come the news may let me know what it was all about. That’s how it was for September 11, the Bali bombing, the tsanamis in 2004 and 2011.
Sometimes I find out years later – a massacre in Kosovo, in Iraq, in Rwanda…
Sometimes I never find out at all.
So I ride it out. I keep myself away from crowds. I swim in the ocean. I sit under trees, walk in the rain, spend time in the gracious and calming company of my cows.
When I feel stronger I meditate. I pray. I light candles. I flood the world with love. It’s all that I can do. A tiny flicker of light in what can seem like a sea of darkness. But I do it anyway and hope that somehow it helps.
If you ever feel that same hit of psychic anxiety remember that it will pass. Take care of yourself and withdraw from situations that overburden you emotionally or energetically. Eat foods that ground you, and get plenty of rest. Hydrate. And then, when you can, radiate love and light back out into the world. Focus on what is good in your life and practice gratitude. Don’t focus on what is troubling you. It might not seem like those simple acts of self-care and energetic expression will help much but trust that they can make a difference.
Embrace your sensitivity – it’s actually a strength. Keep shining your light in the darkness and stay true to you.
I’m thinking of you, and sending love, Nicole ❤ xx
“The real warriors in this world are the ones that see the details of another’s soul. They see the transparency behind walls people put up. They stand on the battlefield of life and expose their heart’s transparency, so others can finish the day with hope. They are the sensitive souls that understand that before they could be a light they first had to feel the burn.” ~ Shannon L. Alder
As most of you know, I’m psychic. I’ve been this way to varying degrees my whole life. It’s something I tried to hide when I was younger. Something I even tried to erase. For a long time I was ashamed to be psychic. I was so worried people would find out and judge me badly.
It took a group of kind Aboriginal Elders to help me to see and accept that I was born this way, and that sensitivity is a gift in my life rather than a problem. Because of their guidance my life is infinitely richer for embracing and owning my sensitivity. These wise old women also saved my mental health by normalising my experience through their own cultural teachings.
All of us are intuitive – that’s our birthright as humans, and it’s hardwired into us. Even the most disconnected or ‘non-believing’ of us will still have gut feelings or hunches strong enough that we can acknowledge and act upon them.
But some of us have a much greater sensitivity than that.
The Checklist below lists many of the varied experiences that are common for people who are sensitive, empathic, intuitive and psychic. If you have experienced any of the following (not as a result of mental illness, or a drug or illness induced state!) then it is highly likely you are a sensitive soul too. Sensitivity is not a weakness – in fact it can be one of your greatest strengths.
How many of these have you experienced?
precognitive dreams or visions
awareness about people, places, objects or events that has no rational cause nor explanation
an ability to know information about people
sensing the energy field around people or places, and having that affect your body or emotions
seeing energy, faces, or other images either in your mind’s eye or through your own eyes
hearing voices or knowledge not your own – either as a physical sound, or as a voice, knowing or thought that arises inside you that you somehow understand is not your own
having remembrance or recognition of past lives
walking into a room full of people and having an immediate understanding of what has happened before you entered based on the feeling or energy of the room
being drawn to psychic activities and tools, such as cards, books, courses, energetic healing modalities and crystals – where you feel compelled to have or work with these, even when your rational mind protests or doesn’t understand
sudden recognition of things previously not known to you – such as knowing the names or uses for things outside your profession or fields of study, or knowing your way around a place you have not ever visited
being strongly aware of when a person is hiding something or concealing their true thoughts or feelings
sensing, seeing or hearing Guides, Angels, those who have crossed over, and other energetic beings
knowing when someone is lying and knowing it with an unemotional yet deep certainty
connection with star people, recurring dreams about or remembered incidences of UFO or alien encounters – these are often not threatening or unpleasant
recurring dreams for which you have no explanation
strangers opening up to you and sharing their life stories or intimate details of their lives, unprompted, and with complete trust
a strong sense that you are here to do something, to contribute something, to help in some way – this feeling becomes stronger over time until, if you haven’t worked out what it is yet, it becomes almost a sense of despair or desperation
saying or writing things without knowing where the information is coming from
performing healing, art, writing, music and other creative acts where you suddenly ‘know’ what to do, even if you have never been shown before
understanding animals, children or others with no voice to communicate
sudden strong emotions flooding over you that are totally unrelated to what is happening right now
knowing who is on the phone as it begins to ring without having seen a name or identifying number
having insights or understanding about a person’s health or mental health that later proves to be correct
having a deep sense of impending doom or distress hours or days before a dramatic world event
I’m sure there’s more that I could add to that list, but that’s a start…
Tomorrow I’ll share some tips for how to support yourself better if you identify as sensitive. It’s a normal, natural and beautiful thing, and your energies and abilities are very much needed in the world. Remember that! Much love, Nicole ❤ xx
“Belonging is important for our growth to independence; even further, it is important for our growth to inner freedom and maturity. It is only through belonging that we can break out of the shell of individualism and self-centredness that both protects and isolates us.” ~ Jean Vanier
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It helps keep me centred and aware, no matter how stressed my life is. And it helps me navigate the hard spaces in life, as well as taking advantage of the times of flow.
This Planner shows you how to choose a focus for your year, and to prioritise acts of self-care. It will show you how to use tarot or oracle cards to give yourself supportive and accurate readings for guidance, and how to use a crystal in meditation. There is also a strong emphasis of gratitude and living from a place of personal responsibility. There are sections to help you take control of your finances, and to complete quarterly reviews so that you can learn from the previous months and take action where necessary to adjust your path to one that better supports your goals.
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