“If you feel lost, disappointed, hesitant, or weak, return to yourself, to who you are, here and now and when you get there, you will discover yourself, like a lotus flower in full bloom, even in a muddy pond, beautiful and strong.”
Masaru Emoto
Hello, Lovely.
Are you feeling lost right now?
Feeling lost is a very normal human emotion, and it is especially common when we are going through change.
When we find ourselves in that in-between space: in between jobs, relationships, projects… when we’ve given something up, or lost that something which has helped define us…
it’s normal to feel hollowed out, lonely, directionless, lost.
And in that space it’s okay to not know where you’re going.
There is a wisdom in this Universe. It is greater than anything that you will muster as an individual. It carries you along in its flow, whether you are aware of it or not.
This wisdom contrives for us wonders and synchronicities far beyond anything we may ever imagine or dream for ourselves.
So our job is not to have all the answers. Our job isn’t even about asking the right questions.
When life is difficult,
when we don’t know where we are going…
our job is to just keep putting one foot in front of the other.
Learn to fill yourself up on your own. Do the things you can do. Take care of yourself and do the best you can. Honour your own values and principles. Live from integrity.
Trust.
If you keep putting one foot in front of the other, eventually the way will find you – the path will become clearer – new doors will open, new companions will show up along the way.
So for now, keep walking.
We kid ourselves into thinking we ever know where we are going – life is so much stranger and more wonderful than that.
It’s okay to be scared – know that this is all part of the journey.
Keep going and don’t think about it or plan into the future so much or you’ll miss all the glorious stuff going on right now, right in front of you.
The fact is, it’s usually when we don’t know where we’re going that we find ourselves.
Holding you in my heart, Nicole xx
Thank you Nicole. I do feel lost, but it’s not a question of direction or future. It’s so much worse. It’s been long since I learned not to think about the future and I don’t. I live one day at a time, one moment at a time, but in the last couple of week even one moment at a time is such a struggle that I know and I’m aware it can’t go on. It’s true that I’ve been through so much worse and could overcome it all but this just adds to my self judgement because I’m blaming myself for not being able this time to cope. Is it the physical pain due to the chronic illness making it worse? Is it the loneliness because the kids grew bigger and are more independant or is it because now I am for REAL alone because my only friend even when we were one ocean apart has died? I don’t know, but yes, I am lost. Thank you for giving me space to vent…
I am sure that there is nothing I could say that would make you feel any better Nikky and my heart aches for you and the pain you are in but I would just say, you are never alone however much it feels like it.
You are obviously mourning the passing of your friend and that seems like the final straw but I hope and pray that in the coming days you see some light, feel some comfort and get the strength to continue.
Please be kind to yourself, do not judge yourself, this is a dark time for you and you are doing the very best you can in this moment, and that is all you can do.
Sending love from Scotland x
Thank you very much Sandra for your kind words of support. In June 2011, I was ready to give up.The physical, emotional, verbal sexual abuse I was living for over 16 years was too much and at the last minute I sent an online cry for help and within few minutes, this person from the UK was talking to me and calming me down and we became best friends and soulmates and I visited her regularly. I lost her 3 weeks ago. Since 2011, a community of virtual friends and bloggers have helped me through so much, but she was always here with me, every day, all the time, on the phone and on skype. It’s hard
This was great I don’t feel lost but many do
Thank you Nicole💖💖💖 feels like I’m experiencing this in all dimensions of my being🌹🌹
Thank you so much Nicole. I feel you have reached right into my heart this morning🙏🌸🦋