There is no perfection, only beautiful versions of brokenness.
Have you got a dream that just isn’t happening? A problem that just isn’t fixing? A situation that just isn’t resolving? Or an idea you just can’t stop thinking about?
There’s something in the air right now, with the current planetary lineup and the Solstice, which is bringing up our longings, our desires, and calling our attention to where we need to let go or recommit. These new energies are calling old dreams forth, and bringing new ones for us too.
My inbox is filled with messages from people who have held a dream and never been able to achieve it. These are dreams they also can’t walk away from. Inside them is a vision – an idea that calls them to action. An idea that has transfixed them, and which holds some kind of mystical spell over them so that they are unable to give up the vision and move to something else. (Please note – I am talking about callings here, not just love affairs!)
I’m talking about writers who write one genre to mixed success while holding a story in their heart that they are sure is unmarketable and that could destroy an otherwise adequate career. Healers who have been beset by all manner of health problems themselves. Coaches and counsellors whose own lives have been messy or impossible or where they are not making any money even as their clients thrive. Lightworkers whose relationships or finances or personal circumstances are in tatters. People needing to work day jobs which suck the life out of them and leave them with no time or energy to go work on their own project.
There are stories of projects started and never finished, too many project ideas and nothing chosen, ideas that have never taken form at all, and the fear of getting it wrong, of stuffing it up, or failing or of succeeding.
Ah, it’s messy! Sound familiar?
I have been where you are. Yes, I have. And I speak from my heart to yours, hoping that you will truly hear me.
You see, you’ve had this vision. And at the same time you haven’t done it. Or you only half-arsed it. Or maybe life got in the way. Illness got in the way. Lack of money and support and being in survival mode with no energy to devote to your dream got in the way. People who really needed you, or who took everything you had got in the way. You launched it and it didn’t work. No-one came. No-one bought it. Yet the dream remained.
Feelings of failure crept in. You began not to trust yourself. You began not to trust the Universe.
Why would you be given a dream that burned such a blaze inside you, only to be cruelly thwarted and left unfulfilled, with the dream out in front of you as a reminder of all of that failure. Right?
I get it. I’ve lived it.
And I have a new paradigm for you. But it requires a BIG shift of your current thinking.
You see, what if it’s actually not a failure? What if it’s about timing?
What if it’s about truly KNOWING struggle, so that you can speak to that energy in others (as I am speaking to that energy within you right now, having also lived it).
What if the world wasn’t ready for what you had to share if you’d delivered any earlier?
What if it just wasn’t your time before now?
What if you had to let go of some of the dream, or retweak it, or work it up differently?
What if it all happened because your soul and the Universe contrived all manner of stuff to get you into a space of right timing for the sharing of your talents and gifts?
Let go of blame and shame and concepts of loss and punishment. That’s so old energy – and you, my lovelies, are here to work with the NEW. You’re healing. Things are changing. Now is your time. Start small. Expect delays as you regroup and regather and open to new ideas and energies. Open your arms to it all and trust. Know that you will still make forward progress. Know that your dream may come to look completely different to the picture you have held in your head. Know that this is okay. You are here in response to the new energies, and these new energies are co-creative. Get it? You don’t have to do it all on your own. You don’t need to be in struggle and isolation anymore, and it WILL get easier. It is already getting easier.
Make peace with yourself and the Universe and your Dream. It’s not too late. In fact, the timing is just right. Take a nap. Find some gratitude for good stuff to level up your vibration. Start bravely or not bravely in one little corner and trust in miracles and magic and synchronicity and amazing happenings BECAUSE THAT IS THE WORLD WE LIVE IN NOW. Not the echoes of the old world that are bouncing around in your head, causing you so much pain.
So, what next? Recommit to the dream if that is what still calls you. Or bravely let it go, and trust that something new and better will take its place.
You’ve got this. We’re here for you. We love you. You were born for this. Onwards, one limpy little step, nap and cup of tea at a time. Soon enough you’ll be flying. I know it!
Much love, Nicole xoxo