If I can’t write, if I don’t have words, then I don’t know who I am anymore.Nicole Cody
It was a rough day, yesterday. And like on so may other rough days, I cried in the shower, and as I cried words came. When I got out of the shower I hurried to write them down. As I wrote them down a great peace came over me and then I was returned to myself, and I could move on with my day.
That’s the way it always is.
Writing and meditation are my great coping skills for life. That, and cups of tea.
I don’t write these words for anyone else. They are just for me. A purge of emotion, or a way of making sense of myself or the world, or both. It’s something I have done since I was a kid, and my private journals are filled with my scribbles, and stuffed with envelopes and shopping dockets when it was the only paper I could find and the words just needed to come.
But I’m sharing this one with you, because it’s a journey many of you might relate to, and I hope that perhaps one of you may feel encouraged from these words.
Hugs and love from a tear-stained and peaceful Nicole xx
I am Steel
When I was an angry young woman
I wanted to change the world
with my fire.
I pitied the soft-bodied elders
Whose eyes leaked tears
And whose lips spoke comfort.
Where was their rage?
Now, I am older.
My body is soft and sometimes unreliable.
My eyes frequently leak tears –
Of compassion for the journey,
Or love and wonder for the miracle
Of our existence, our fragility, our connectedness.
My lips speak comfort
For the road is hard
For us all.
I still hold that angry young woman’s fire
within me, and her flame
and the crucible of pain and suffering
that is life
has tempered me.
Now I am steel.
Strong enough to carry the load
of caring for community
of caring for myself
Soft enough to live open-hearted and open-armed
to the World.
I am steel, forged by life
wrapped in soft-bodied, eye-leaking, comfort-speaking elderhood.
I give thanks for this great journey.
PS: Want to join me for some healing and meditation?
Lovelies, as you know, I am in Sedona right now. Over the next few days I will be sitting in shamanic meditation out in nature in a number of places in Sedona, using techniques taught to me by my Aboriginal Aunties and from my own channellings, to energize and reactivate songlines, gridlines, portals and vortexes within and around the earth, and also within the human body. If you’d like to participate in these sessions, and be open to some healing energies please come on over and join my free Facebook group. All the details to join are below. Then look for a post titled Working in The Vortex and add your name in the comments. I’ll see you there xx
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15 thoughts on “I am Steel”
Thank you so much for letting us know. Both my husband and I were concerned about the family.
Your words are beautiful Nicole. Thank you for sharing them with us! And great news about the girls’ mother. May she and her family receive an abundance of support, strength and love and anything else that they need to be able to move on from this heartbreaking chapter in their lives. ❤️
This is so beautiful thank you for sharing.
Not sure if it’s ok to ask a question, nearly everyone I know had a rough day too. Everyone was either down and crying or down and angry. What are your thoughts about whats causing this? Astralogical? The sheer state of the entire planet? Some kind of massive energy shift? Even my entirely non magical but lovely partner said that she feels there is ‘something you’d probably understand better than me’ – I don’t understand, I only know I feel it.
Lovely news about the little girls Mum. That’s encouraging.
Blessed Be Nicole, thank you for everything.
Big shifts happening right now, so I am not surprised that energetically sensitive folk are really feeling it. Sending gentle hugs and much love to you xx
Wow, beautiful words… thank you for sharing♥️✨🙏🏻
Thank you Jem 🙏❤
Blessings to you Nicole. My heart just expands reading your shared words and I’m sending you a gentle hug on the wind. Thank you xx
Gentle hug gratefully received 🙏
Thank you for sharing these beautiful words, Nicole. “Comfort speaking elderhood” carries so much wisdom from the decades that have gone before ❤️
It took a long time to get to that place, Michelle – I know you understand xx
So gorgeous Nic
Thanks Kimmie. Love you x
How are the little girls from yesterday’s blog? Is their mother ok?
Mum is conscious, in hospital still but will be okay. The girls are with their grandparents. Thank you so much for caring 💜💕💖