“No, this is not the beginning of a new chapter in my life; this is the beginning of a new book! That first book is already closed, ended, and tossed into the seas; this new book is newly opened, has just begun! Look, it is the first page! And it is a beautiful one!”
~ C. JoyBell C.
It’s our last day of Soul Sanctuary retreat and, as always, I am a Spiritual Mumma of mixed emotion this morning.
On one hand I am glad this retreat is finishing and I can go home to my farm – to Ben and Nurse Bert and Cafe Dog. I miss them, and I miss the comfort of my own bed and my funny little world. I am glad that this is the final day because I have not worked this hard on a retreat ever. Ever. So much unexpected shift happened with this group and so much extra magic. I have facilitated massive awakening and growth and letting go of huge burdens of emotion and old patterning for my students. I have channelled more for this group than I have ever done for my big working courses where I am meant to do such things. I am exhausted and sleep deprived and feel that a lifetime of massages may not get the knots out of my shoulder girdle and neck. I feel like I have held up the world this week. I am ready to creep into my little bed at home and stay there.
On the other hand I can’t believe it’s Friday already. It has been an amazing journey, and an honour and privilege to be in the company of such brave, beautiful souls. I haven’t laughed so much in ages.
Or cried so much.
I am so fiercely proud of these women and what they have achieved and where they are going to next in their lives.
I am humbled and awed by the scope of love in their hearts, and by the tender way they have worked through their heart pains, hurts, family issues, relationship issues and more. Always gently and kindly supporting each other. Allowing themselves to remain vulnerable and to be helped in return.
I am thrilled and excited to see what they have created for themselves as life plans for 2016. The shape of their dreams and the brightness in their eyes – that spark of passion and commitment – it’s inspiring! I can’t wait to see how it all unfolds for them, and I am looking forward to my continued part in that unfolding.
I will miss them and their kindness, and their hugs and soul-light and the way they push me to give them more and more. To grow them faster.
We’ve done such big work this week. Because it needed to be done and everyone preferred to do the work than to lie by the pool or sun themselves at the beach. Although we had tiny windows of those pleasures too.
It’s been amazing. It’s ending. And new things are opening out for each of us. We can all feel the power and possibility of the coming year. We’ve closed the door on 2015. We’ve stepped across the threshold into this new energy of 2016.
Give me a few days rest now, and then I’ll be bright-eyed again, ready to lead you on your own journey of growth and self-discovery in the year ahead. With my Planner and year-long course, and for a handful of souls who are looking for something more through my ‘Launch’ Project. I promise I will come back and answer every question and comment on my blog and facebook page, and put the final details of the Year of ME Planner up for you once I have gifted myself a decent night’s sleep!
I’ll leave you with a few images from my early morning wander through the Sangsurya hall and gardens.
Hugs and love, Nicole <3 xoxo