“Stubbornly persist, and you will find that the limits of your stubbornness go well beyond the stubbornness of your limits.” ~ Robert Brault I’m off to see my Lyme Doctor today, and I’m hoping for a good report. In the last few months I’ve noticed real and sustained change. I have more energy. People […]
Turmeric and Ginger Tea Recipe
“In Ireland, you go to someone’s house, and she asks you if you want a cup of tea. You say no, thank you, you’re really just fine. She asks if you’re sure. You say of course you’re sure, really, you don’t need a thing. Except they pronounce it ting. You don’t need a ting. Well, she […]
Where’s Your Focus?
“Very occasionally, if you pay really close attention, life doesn’t suck.” ~ Joss Whedon On Friday I posted about a beautiful ordinary day, and how much I had enjoyed such simple things as a trip to the farmers’ markets, clean sheets on the line, sunshine and crisp ripe apples. After that post I received two emails, extracts of […]
We Need To Talk Wee
“Shame is a soul eating emotion.” ~ C.G. Jung “We learn humility through accepting humiliations cheerfully.” ~ Mother Teresa A few years ago I wrote a blog post about vomiting in public places. It was quite controversial. Many people thought that talking about vomit was something one shouldn’t do in polite company. Nice girls […]
One of those nights…
“She used to tell me that a full moon was when mysterious things happen and wishes come true.” ~ Shannon A. Thompson Tonight will welcome May’s full moon. I love a full moon. Unfortunately so does lyme disease. Many lyme sufferers find an acute ramping up of their symptoms in the day or two before a full moon. […]
Breathing Yourself To Sleep
“Feelings come and go like clouds in a windy sky. Conscious breathing is my anchor.” ~ Thich Nhat Hanh Do you ever have trouble getting to sleep, or falling back to sleep if you wake up during the night? One of the great issues that many lyme sufferers (like me) experience is insomnia, which […]
A Me Update
“Solar Eclipse Each morning I wake invisible. I make a needle from a porcupine quill, sew feet to legs, lift spine onto my thighs. I put on my rib and collarbone. I pin an ear to my head, hear the waxwing’s yellow cry. I open my mouth for purple berries, stick on periwinkle eyes. I […]
Feeling So Very Grown Up!
“I feel wonderful and sad. It’s the gin.” ~ Stephen Beresford, The Last of the Haussmans I know. It’s a picture of a drink. But it’s not just any drink. That drink is a personal victory. Let me explain…. For the next few days I’m attending an essential oils conference on the Gold Coast. […]
Saturday Night Lights
“There is no night life in Spain. They stay up late but they get up late. That is not night life. That is delaying the day. Night life is when you get up with a hangover in the morning. Night life is when everybody says what the hell and you do not remember who paid […]
A Slow Start is Better Than No Start
“Everything is created twice, first in the mind and then in reality.” ~ Robin S. Sharma It’s fair to say that, thanks to Lyme Disease, I’ve experienced chronic ill-health for a long time. Over thirty years, in fact. And certainly in the past six or seven years, as I have battled with cardiomyopathy, congestive […]
On Overcoming Obstacles
“Nothing in this world can take the place of persistence. Talent will not: nothing is more common than unsuccessful men with talent. Genius will not; unrewarded genius is almost a proverb. Education will not: the world is full of educated derelicts. Persistence and determination alone are omnipotent.” ~ Calvin Coolidge I have always wanted to […]
Lyme Eyes, Magic Eyes
“The eye through which I see God is the same eye through which God sees me; my eye and God’s eye are one eye, one seeing, one knowing, one love.” ~ Meister Eckhart, Sermons of Meister Eckhart If you’ve read my blog for a while you’ll know: a) that I have Lyme disease b) that […]
Poems, Prayers and Promises
“Tell me, what is it you plan to do with your one wild and precious life?” ~ Mary Oliver I saw a new lyme doctor yesterday. Why a new doctor? It goes like this: The first doctor I saw diagnosed me but wouldn’t treat me because ‘lyme was contentious and he was trying to […]
Pomegranate, Kale and Sweet Potato Salad Recipe
“Fun fact #1 about pomegranates: Pomegranates are awesome. Fun fact #2: Pomegranates are like little explosions of awesome in your mouth. Fun fact #3: A lot of people think you’re not supposed to eat the seeds of a pomegranate – but that’s not true, people who tell you that are liars, and they don’t know […]
Talking to Dragons
“Always speak politely to an enraged dragon.” ~ Steven Brust, Jhereg It’s after 3am. An odd time to be posting a blog. Still. I’m wide awake. I might as well stay up now so that I can do my morning meditate soon, as is my daily practice. It’s been one of those nights. The […]
My Day’s Best Medicine
“Always laugh when you can, it is cheap medicine.” ~ George Gordon Byron There is one thing Lyme has taught me that is well worth sharing. Some of the best medicine isn’t prescribed by a doctor. Here’s some of my favourite medicine. The smell of pine trees and sunshine. Posies of sweet little flowers from […]
Lit up like a Lyme Green Christmas Tree
“You’ve gotta dance like there’s nobody watching, Love like you’ll never be hurt, Sing like there’s nobody listening, And live like it’s heaven on earth.” ~ William W. Purkey Well, you know by now that when I’m quiet there’s a good reason. This time? My doctor recommended a new combination of Lyme drugs. Result? […]
My Early Christmas Present
“I wandered everywhere, through cities and countries wide. And everywhere I went, the world was on my side.” ~ Roman Payne, Rooftop Soliloquy Monday was my day off. A day to rest, sandwiched between two days of psychic work on either side. I am in Brisbane right now, and the plan was that Ben […]
I should be grumpy this morning…
“The art of being happy lies in the power of extracting happiness from common things.” ~ Henry Ward Beecher I should be grumpy this morning. Really, really grumpy. I have now completed my third drug-free week from my lyme treatment, letting my liver have a break. At first I was so grateful to not have to […]
And then the Storm…
“Another secret of the universe: Sometimes pain was like a storm that came out of nowhere. The clearest summer could end in a downpour. Could end in lightning and thunder.” ~ Benjamin Alire Sáenz Sunday was Drug Number Four Day in my current Lyme medication regime. Today is, too. Ever the optimist, I had […]
Breathing Through The Pain #LymeWarrior
“Your breathing should flow gracefully, like a river, like a watersnake crossing the water, and not like a chain of rugged mountains or the gallop of a horse. To master our breath is to be in control of our bodies and minds. Each time we find ourselves dispersed and find it difficult to gain control of ourselves […]
Attack of the Gorn
“Of all the things we can feel with our minds and bodies, severe pain is the purest, for it drives everything else from our awareness and focuses us as perfectly as we can ever be focused.” ~ Dean Koontz There is this thing that happens to me on my current Lyme drugs. It started in […]
A Big Green #Lyme Anniversary!
“We are not the same persons this year as last; nor are those we love. It is a happy chance if we, changing, continue to love a changed person.” ~ W. Somerset Maugham I was talking with my sister yesterday, and she said to me, “Hey, are you planning anything special for your thirty year anniversary […]
Are You Giving Yourself Space To Heal?
“Rest is not idleness, and to lie sometimes on the grass under trees on a summer’s day, listening to the murmur of the water, or watching the clouds float across the sky, is by no means a waste of time.” ~John Lubbock, The Use Of Life I’m on a fairly savage regime of drugs and […]
Herbal Tea Recipe for Adrenal Fatigue
“My love affair with nature is so deep that I am not satisfied with being a mere onlooker, or nature tourist. I crave a more real and meaningful relationship. The spicy teas and tasty delicacies I prepare from wild ingredients are the bread and wine in which I have communion and fellowship with nature, and […]
Requiem For A Lost Poet – #Lyme
“I don’t need a cloak to become invisible.” ~J.K. Rowling, Harry Potter and the Sorcerer’s Stone I found out earlier this week that a fellow Lyme sufferer in the USA took her own life. I never met Heather, but I know her journey. All late-stage Lymies know, and understand, because so easily, that could […]
Two Steps Forward…
“Progress, of the best kind, is comparatively slow. Great results cannot be achieved at once; and we must be satisfied to advance in life as we walk, step by step.” ~ Samuel Smiles It’s been a frustrating few days for me. I’ve recently changed Lyme doctors, and begun a new regime of drugs […]
Lyme and Making Plans
“She had learned the lesson of renunciation and was as familiar with the wreck of each day’s wishes as with the diurnal setting of the sun.” ~ Thomas Hardy, The Mayor of Casterbridge “Success is when everything that goes wrong, fits in your plan.” ~ Gary Rudz When I was diagnosed, finally, with Lyme disease, back in […]
Nurture in cups and bowls
“I think that women just have a primeval instinct to make soup, which they will try to foist on anybody who looks like a likely candidate.” ~ Dylan Moran It’s been a hard two weeks for me. Meds issues. Doctor issues. Mobility and pain issues. Crushing insomnia. Nausea. And a myriad other bothersome things. Ah, […]
A Quick Update On Me!
“To conquer frustration, one must remain intensely focused on the outcome, not the obstacles.” ― T.F. Hodge “A bruise is a lesson… and each lesson makes us better.” ― George R.R. Martin, A Game of Thrones “The lotus is the most beautiful flower, whose petals open one by one. But it will only grow in the mud. In […]
Slowly Slowly Better…
“I saved a man’s life once,” said Granny. “Special medicine, twice a day. Boiled water with a bit of berry juice in it. Told him I’d bought it from the dwarves. That’s the biggest part of doct’rin, really. Most people’ll get over most things if they put their minds to it, you just have to […]
Update from Lyme Land
“Every day you may make progress. Every step may be fruitful. Yet there will stretch out before you an ever-lengthening, ever-ascending, ever-improving path. You know you will never get to the end of the journey. But this, so far from discouraging, only adds to the joy and glory of the climb.” ~ Winston Churchill It’s […]
Inviting Help into Your Life
“I do believe in an everyday sort of magic — the inexplicable connectedness we sometimes experience with places, people, works of art and the like; the eerie appropriateness of moments of synchronicity; the whispered voice, the hidden presence, when we think we’re alone.” ~ Charles de Lint Divine Guidance. Signs. Help. Answers to prayers. Last-minute […]
Me and That Owl
“Turn your wounds into wisdom.” ~ Oprah Winfrey “The unexamined life is not worth living.” ~ Socrates Last Monday, in my Doctor’s rooms, I received the best kind of news. Although I am still unwell, I have definitely turned the corner in my struggle against Lyme disease. I am no longer dying. I am healing. My life is once again unfurling […]
Heartbreakingly Wonderful News
“How strange that the nature of life is change, yet the nature of human beings is to resist change. And how ironic that the difficult times we fear might ruin us are the very ones that can break us open and help us blossom into who we were meant to be.” ~ Elizabeth Lesser, Broken Open: How Difficult […]
#Lymetime – The Big Day Looms…
“I still think that everyone’s life, no matter how unremarkable, has a singular tragic encounter after which everything that really matters will happen. That moment is the catalyst – the first step in the equation. But knowing the first step will get you nowhere – it’s what comes after that determines the result.” ~ Robyn Schneider, The Beginning […]
Zucchini Bread Recipe – Gluten free, dairy free, sugar free
“When I pass a flowering zucchini plant in a garden, my heart skips a beat.” ~ Gwyneth Paltrow I should have titled this post The Great Zucchini Loaf Challenge! I have a friend who is always telling me that they positively hate zucchini. This friend last ate zucchini thirty years ago at boarding school. They tell me […]
A Boat Called Insomnia
“But Pooh couldn’t sleep. The more he tried to sleep the more he couldn’t. He tried counting Sheep, which is sometimes a good way of getting to sleep, and, as that was no good, he tried counting Heffalumps. And that was worse. Because every Heffalump that he counted was making straight for a pot of […]
Catching My Breath
“Breath is the bridge which connects life to consciousness, which unites your body to your thoughts. Whenever your mind becomes scattered, use your breath as the means to take hold of your mind again.” ~ Thích Nhất Hạnh, The Miracle of Mindfulness: An Introduction to the Practice of Meditation The past few days have been a […]
Measuring Progress
“Progress means getting nearer to the place you want to be. And if you have taken a wrong turning, then to go forward does not get you any nearer. If you are on the wrong road, progress means doing an about-turn and walking back to the right road; and in that case the man who […]
A Short Walk
“Many people nowadays live in a series of interiors…disconnected from each other. On foot everything stays connected, for while walking one occupies the spaces between those interiors in the same way one occupies those interiors. One lives in the whole world rather than in interiors built up against it.” ~ Rebecca Solnit, Wanderlust: A History of Walking […]
The Power of Story
“After nourishment, shelter and companionship, stories are the thing we need most in the world.” ~ Philip Pullman The past few days have been rough for me. It’s a lyme thing. Partly because of the pathogens that have invaded and taken up residence in my body and partly because of the ongoing treatment to evict […]
Morning Rewards
“As long as there was coffee in the world, how bad could things be?” ~ Cassandra Clare, City of Ashes It’s still early. But already I’ve meditated. I’ve taken my morning ‘before food’ drugs. I’ve fasted and I’ve given vial upon vial of my blood to be tested for positive signs of health progress. It’s time for […]
Lucky Dip #2
“One good thing about music, when it hits you, you feel no pain.” ~ Bob Marley It’s one of those ‘not coping very well’ kind of days. I’ve been enduring nights of no sleep, constant pain, fevers, sweats and anxiety. But that’s okay. It’s all for a good cause. And I’m prepared for days like […]
View From My Windows
“Set wide the window. Let me drink the day.” ~ Edith Wharton, Artemis to Actaeon and Other Verses My windows are both real and figurative. The picture above is the view from my bedroom window. This view changes hour by hour, and affords me much pleasure. In the early mornings the sky is grey, before becoming […]
Love Letters to Myself…
“Be the one who nurtures and builds. Be the one who has an understanding and a forgiving heart one who looks for the best in people. Leave people better than you found them.” ~ Marvin J. Ashton So today I begin the next round of drugs that are making me well. Problem is, in taking these […]
Coming back to myself
“There is nothing like returning to a place that remains unchanged to find the ways in which you yourself have altered.” ~ Nelson Mandela I am sitting in a cafe at Byron Bay, and it feels like a small miracle. After my six-week fever broke last night, and a powerful meditation shifted me past most […]
My Sweet Poison
“Faith is walking face-first and full-speed into the dark. If we truly knew all the answers in advance as to the meaning of life and the nature of God and the destiny of our souls, our belief would not be a leap of faith and it would not be a courageous act of humanity; it […]
The ‘No Blog’ Blog…
“Sometimes even the mind’s greatest resolve is not enough to conquer the body’s own particular requirements. ~ Nicole Cody Sorry, Lovelies. No blog today. Can’t get out of bed, nor lift my head and everything hurts. Agonisingly so. Thank goodness for my iPad. Still, I am steadfast in walking this path and in my mind […]
Two powerful insights on Change and Healing
“Water does not resist. Water flows. When you plunge your hand into it, all you feel is a caress. Water is not a solid wall, it will not stop you. But water always goes where it wants to go, and nothing in the end can stand against it. Water is patient. Dripping water wears away […]
Where did my day go?
“Time was passing like a hand waving from a train I wanted to be on.” ~ Jonathan Safran Foer I lost a whole day. I lost yesterday. One moment I was about to go to bed, ready to wake up in the morning and do, well… stuff, I guess. The next thing I know an […]
Nurse Bert Reports
“Nursing is a kind of mania; a fever in the blood; an incurable disease which, once contracted, cannot be got out of the system. If it was not like that, there would be no hospital nurses, for compared dispassionately with other professions, the hours are long, the work hard, and the pay inadequate to the […]
Small and Nasty = Bartonella
Musings The little poets sing of little things: Hope, cheer, and faith, small queens and puppet kings; Lovers who kissed and then were made as one, And modest flowers waving in the sun. The mighty poets write in blood and tears And agony that, flame-like, bites and sears. They reach their mad blind hands into […]
2013 – My Blog in Review
“And it occurred to me that there is no such thing as blogging. There is no such thing as a blogger. Blogging is just writing — writing using a particularly efficient type of publishing technology.” ~ Simon Dumenco It’s hard to believe that two years ago I started my blog with a humble post […]
A Sleepy Kind of Christmas
“I love sleep. My life has the tendency to fall apart when I’m awake, you know?” ~ Ernest Hemingway Hello Lovelies! I’ll keep this short. I have spent most of the past forty-eight hours asleep, after dealing with a serious Lyme-related health incident. I’m recovering now, but I expect to be doing not much else […]
Living my Sacred Promise
“You protect your being when you love yourself better. That’s the secret.” ~ Isabelle Adjani It’s the final day of Retreat, and I’m profoundly grateful that my body has held up for the duration. Just at dinner last night my Lymey eye began to pulse and pain, and I ended up running our after-dinner channelling session […]
Sailing the Lyme Green Sea
“To reach a port we must set sail – Sail, not tie at anchor Sail, not drift.” ~ Franklin D. Roosevelt Hello, Lovelies! This morning I am reminded that I am still out on a wide green sea in my tiny boat, and that occasionally the weather shall be rough. That is the nature of […]
Do you need an Enforced Rest?
“Every person needs to take one day away. A day in which one consciously separates the past from the future. Jobs, family, employers, and friends can exist one day without any one of us, and if our egos permit us to confess, they could exist eternally in our absence. Each person deserves a day away […]
Well, that was a bit premature…
“Patience is the calm acceptance that things can happen in a different order than the one you have in mind.” ~ David G. Allen I was kind of hoping to be sleeping right now. It’s 2am, and I was only fretfully sleeping at best between 8 and 11pm. Now I’m wide awake and I know the […]
Sorry, I didn’t Blog!
“My head aches, my eyes burn, my arms and legs have given up, and my face in the mirror has a grayish cast. The bed, across the room, calls in its unmistakable lover’s croon, Come to me, come, only I can make you truly happy, oh, how happy I’ll make you, don’t resist, remember how […]
Just a little bit tired…
“I must be overtired’, Buttercup managed. ‘The excitement and all.’ ‘Rest then’, her mother cautioned. ‘Terrible things can happen when you’re overtired. I was overtired the night your father proposed.” ~ William Goldman, The Princess Bride Harry and I are a little bit tired today, so we’ll keep this post short. We both had medical appointments in […]
Maybe Visualization Works After All…
“You take the blue pill, the story ends, you wake up in your bed and believe whatever you want to believe. You take the red pill, you stay in wonderland, and I show you how deep the rabbit hole goes.” ~ Morpheus, The Matrix I have teetered between unwell and totally incapacitated for my entire adult […]
The Curious Case of Clothespeg Matching
“Be regular and orderly in your life, so that you may be violent and original in your work.” ~ Gustav Flaubert Something interesting happened yesterday as I was pegging out the washing. Well, interesting to me, anyhow… For all of my life I have shaken out each item, and pegged it neatly by corners or seams. I […]
BLoGGing is HArd!
“A challenge only becomes an obstacle when you bow to it.” ~ Ray Davis Blogging ish hard when: Your eyes don’t work Your brain is on vacation you need tozoom the page to stupid percent magnification to see anything the keyboard for your compuzer seems like a monster swapped it for a foreign langwage. But I’m […]
Tribute to Eye Patches
“There was a single blue line of crayon drawn across every wall in the house. What does it mean? I asked. A pirate needs the sight of the sea, he said and then he pulled his eye patch down and turned and sailed away.” ~ Brian Andreas, Story People: Selected Stories & Drawings of Brian Andreas Eye […]
Lyme and the Witches’ Mark
“The fables of Witchcraft have taken so fast hold and deepe root in the heart of man, that fewe or none can (nowadaies) with patience indure the hand and correction of God. For if any adversitie, greefe, sicknesse, losse of children, corne, cattell, or libertie happen unto them; by & by they exclaime uppon witches. […]
She’ll be Apples…
“Bean finds the best apple in our tree and hands it up to me. “You know what this tastes like when you first bite into it?” she asks. “No, what?” “Blue sky.” “You’re zoomed.” “You ever eat blue sky?” “No,” I admit. “Try it sometime,” she says. “It’s apple-flavored.” ~ Rodman Philbrick, The Last Book in the […]
It’s an Eyeball Thing…
“If you can’t laugh when things go bad – laugh and put on a little carnival – then you’re either dead or wishing you were.” ~ Stephen King, Under the Dome I have an eyeball thing going on right now, so I’ll keep this post short. My poor left eye is not happy with all these meds […]
Thoughts on Housekeeping
If your house is really a mess and a stranger comes to the door, greet him with, “Who could have done this? We have no enemies.” ~ Phyllis Diller I’m finally home at my beautiful farm. We arrived early yesterday morning, and I enjoyed a whole sunshiny day at home, doing homey kinds of things. I’d […]
Pay Attention to the Messages You Get!
“There is nothing so strong or safe in an emergency of life as the simple truth.” ~ Charles Dickens Sometimes, I wish I’d had more faith in myself as I was starting out. One of the things I always teach my students is the importance of trusting and paying attention to the messages they receive when […]
Stormclouds, Music and Melancholy
“When you come out of the storm, you won’t be the same person who walked in. That’s what this storm’s all about.” ~ Haruki Murakami, Kafka on the Shore The air is tinged with cold and that strange electricity that comes before a storm. I am watching from my upstairs bedroom, stuck in the city and […]
Love Letter To My Left Eye
“Yet it is in this loneliness that the deepest activities begin. It is here that you discover act without motion, labor that is profound repose, vision in obscurity, and, beyond all desire, a fulfillment whose limits extend to infinity.” ~ Thomas Merton One of the more insidious aspects of stealth pathogens like Lyme and its […]
Meanwhile, back in Lymeland, an Owl showed up!
“The universe is full of magical things, patiently waiting for our wits to grow sharper.” ~ Eden Philpotts I’m sorry to keep you hanging for my Owl and Orchard Man Story, and for my ongoing adventures in the Kimberley. Truth is, I’m just not up to writing much right now. So instead, I shall share […]
It’s Lyme Time!
“What to do if you find yourself stuck in a crack in the ground underneath a giant boulder you can’t move, with no hope of rescue? Consider how lucky you are that life has been good to you so far. Alternatively, if life hasn’t been good to you so far, which given your current circumstances […]
The Patient should be Sleeping
“It is an awful thing to be betrayed by your body. And it’s lonely, because you feel you can’t talk about it. You feel it’s something between you and the body. You feel it’s a battle you will never win . . . and yet you fight it day after day, and it wears you […]
Lyme Schlyme!
“I keep sailing on in this middle passage. I am sailing into the wind and the dark. But I am doing my best to keep my boat steady and my sails full.” ~ Arthur Ashe The past few days have not been among my best. Physically I’ve struggled. It started earlier this week, of course, […]
On illness and being unreliable…
“I’m a very loyal and unreliable friend.” ~ Bono One of the issues you need to deal with when you or a family member lives with chronic illness is your unreliability factor. When I speak of chronic illness, I am talking about any condition that lasts for more than a few weeks, that doesn’t conform […]
Midnight Visits
“Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength, while loving someone deeply gives you courage.” ~ Lao Tzu I’ve been herxing badly the past few days. Herxing is a strong physical reaction to the die-off of pathogens, which release toxins into the body. It’s a good thing – or so I tell myself. It […]
Soundtrack to Pain
“One good thing about music, when it hits you, you feel no pain.”~ Bob Marley Music saved my life earlier this week. Music and drugs. Those of you who follow my blog will know that I am suffering from end-stage Lyme disease. I’ve recently embarked on a protocol of high dose antibiotics, antibacterials, herbs and […]
Cream of Celery Soup Recipe
“The thought of two thousand people crunching celery at the same time horrified me.” ~ George Bernard Shaw Poor George! It’s quite the visual, isn’t it. Perhaps even worse than zombies… Still, I digress. Today it’s all about soup. Soup is my go-to when I’m feeling poorly. Easy to make, easy to eat, and you get […]
Life, blurred.
“I had nothing to offer anybody except my own confusion.” ~ Jack Kerouac Sometimes, life gets smudged around the edges and my crisp lines fuzzle into fluffy lumps of something but I haven’t got the word for it. No words is hard for a writer. Or when you forget the shape of things or what her […]
Howling at the Moon
Those are the same stars, and that is the same moon, that look down upon your brothers and sisters, and which they see as they look up to them, though they are ever so far away from us, and each other. ~ Sojourner Truth It’s 2 o’clock in the morning and I’m wide awake; fretful […]
My Friday Morning at the Mullumbimby Farmers’ Markets
Excitement! I went on a short outing today to my favourite local Farmers’ Market at Mullumbimby. After the last few horrendous days of Lyme herxing I appreciated the fresh air and change of scenery… My first stop was an excellent breakfast from The Nomadic Kitchen – Rice, banana and tomato sauce, and fried egg. I can’t […]
Living in the Lyme Light…
“Although the world is full of suffering, it is also full of the overcoming of it.” ~ Helen Keller (June, 1880 – June, 1968) I’d love to be blogging something wonderful for you, and indeed that was my intention – I’ve got so much good stuff planned – but the past few days I’ve been […]
Loving myself lopsided…
“The play is done – the curtain drops, Slow falling to the prompter’s bell; A moment yet the actor stops, And looks around, to say farewell. It is an irksome word and task; And, when he’s laughed, and had his say, He shows, as he removes his mask, A face that’s anything but gay.” ~ […]
Vomiting in Public Places OR The Controversial ‘Vomit Post’
“Girls blush, sometimes, because they are alive, half wishing they were dead to save the shame. The sudden blush devours them, neck and brow; They have drawn too near the fire of life, like gnats, and flare up bodily, wings and all. What then? Who’s sorry for a gnat or girl?” ~ Elizabeth Barrett Browning […]
Fear of Crossing Roads
“No one has traveled the road of success without ever crossing the street of failures.” ~ Unknown I have an embarrassing confession. I’m not good at crossing roads by myself. It’s a legacy of the neurological damage caused by chronic Lyme Disease and various co-infections. Like most things it’s worse when I’m tired or unwell. My reaction […]
Rain is better than drought…
I love a sunburnt country, A land of sweeping plains, Of ragged mountain ranges, Of droughts and flooding rains. ~ From ‘My Country‘ by Dorothea Mackellar We endured eight hard years of drought at our old farm – a cattle property in the Lockyer Valley. Slowly the grass turned brittle as straw and the dams […]
My Left Eyeball…
“What does not kill me, makes me stronger.” ~ Friedrich Nietzsche I had intended a different post for this morning, but I have an eyeball problem. I’ve been on my Lyme drugs, well the first of them anyway, for a month now, and they are doing strange things to me. All night, apart from the ‘normal’ […]
Diagnosis – Lyme Disease
‘All delays are dangerous in war.’ ~ John Dryden There’s a war going on in my body. In fact it’s been going on for a quarter of a century. First there came the enemy invasion. There was no loud and obvious display of force. Instead it was an invasion by stealth. A mass of tiny […]
Not knowing…
“Waiting is painful. Forgetting is painful. But not knowing which to do is the worse kind of suffering.”~ Paulo Coelho Is it better to know or not know? It’s a question I’ve asked myself so many times that I can no longer trust the answer. I am dancing a slow dance with something that is […]