Requiem For These Passing Moments

“Every one of us is losing something precious to us. Lost opportunities, lost possibilities, feelings we can never get back again. That’s part of what it means to be alive.”
~ Haruki Murakami, Kafka on the Shore

“It all goes away. Eventually, everything goes away.”
~ Elizabeth Gilbert, Eat, Pray, Love

 

Sometimes, life is so exquisitely painful that I can scarcely breathe.

Is it odd then, that I find those moments compellingly beautiful too?

I’m not talking about the human me. Not the me who is down there on the floor sobbing in great ugly gulps, or stumbling endlessly through the paddocks with eyes streaming and a great big hole inside me. Or the me sitting silent, numb from shock and horror.

Not, not that me.

There is another me. An eternal me. A me filled with wisdom and kindness and so much love that if all of that soul energy were to dwell within me I would burst open and be nothing but sparks and flame.

That eternal me sat with me last night and held my hand. As I sat at my kitchen table and wrote, earphones delivering me a steady stream of musical novocaine, tears blurring the screen, the keys, the outside world, I was able to slip into that wise observer me and see how alive I was in my pain. How aware I was of the fragility of life. How humbled and overcome all at once. How connected I was with all other souls in this journey of joy and suffering.

Oh lovelies, this is such a wild and mysterious and crazy ride, this thing we call life.

We are, all of us, okay. Even when we’re not.

Holding you in my prayers and meditations,

Nicole ❤ xx

 

Sitting Quietly, Doing Nothing

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Image from Mahaloness.com

“The deepest of level of communication is not communication, but communion. It is wordless … beyond speech … beyond concept.”
~ Thomas Merton

“One does not become enlightened by imagining figures of light, but by making the darkness conscious. The latter procedure, however, is disagreeable and therefore not popular.”
~ C.G. Jung

 

What I need right now, more than anything, is some quiet time on my own.

Some integration time.

Some time to sit with the Universe.

Some time to sit with my Soul.

Some time for thinking and deep reflection.

Some time for sitting in the vast All That Is space – open and empty – so that I can simply allow understanding to come to me.

Do you ever do that?

Do you ever reflect and question?

Do you ever unplug for a while and just be?

I highly recommend it. It’s most enlightening, and it’s something available to everyone.

All you need is you, and some time. A journal might be helpful – for reflection, or to record your insights afterwards. Then just sit. Be. Let the thoughts and insights come. Explore them. Rest. Integrate. Heal. Grow…

Thinking of you, and sending love.

Nicole xx

 

Guided Meditation for Orienting Soul Awareness

“Our soul, our true self, is the most mysterious, essential, and magical dimension of our being. In fact, it is not a separate reality, as traditional Western thought views it, but the cohesive force that unites our body, heart, and mind. It is not a ghost trapped somehow in the physical machinery of our body but the very essence of our being.” ~ Gabrielle Roth

 

This guided meditation is the fourth in a series of seven. Today’s meditation is aimed at helping you orient your conscious awareness to your beautiful Soul energy.

 

It will help align you to your Highest Expression of Self, making you more magnetic to positive energy, love and abundance in your daily life.

You’ll need to set aside about twenty minutes for this meditation. Sit or lie somewhere quietly, using pillows or blankets if needed to make yourself comfortable. Then simply close your eyes and follow the sound of my voice. It’s fine to let yourself fall asleep during the meditation, or immediately afterwards.

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To listen to the meditation, click on the button below:

 

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Image from Quotes Lover

If you’d like to review the other meditations we’ve covered so far, click here.

How to work out what your heart wants…

“…everyone wants to be excited by something magical and wondrous – to be reminded of how they once saw the world …” 
~ John Geddes

You don’t need to figure everything out on your own. There are always signposts, gentle nudges in the right direction, a trail of breadcrumbs, a giant flashing neon sign.

Problem is, when you are stuck in your head (yes, you know what I mean) going round and round with your own lousy thoughts and worries, being steered by your anxieties and insecurities, it can be easy to miss all that guidance.

Late yesterday afternoon as I was standing in the paddock, five black cockatoos flew over my head. As they neared me they began to call. They cruised directly over me, although they had that whole expanse of sky at their disposal. Then they wheeled around at the old hoop pine, flew over my head once again for good measure, screeching at me the entire time, before alighting back in the hoop pine.

My whole body tingled, and the hairs rose on my arms. You see, that morning I’d been struggling with where to go next with my writing. I have several unfinished projects, each of which will take me in a very different direction. Which one should I run with? I just couldn’t decide…

When those black cockatoos turned up in the paddock I was flooded with knowing. Here were my black sisters, my Kimberley Aunties, flying over to comfort, reassure and remind me. Suddenly the direction I needed to take was writ clear in my mind, as well as my heart.

Today, if you’re in that place of needing some clarity – here I am, waving a big sign for you.

You have this awesome internal guidance system inside you, called your SOUL. And your soul communicates with you by intuition.

If you’re uncomfortable with the concept of a soul, then perhaps think of this energy as your own internal wisdom and most heartfelt, honest preferences.

Your soul isn’t governed by your head. Your mind is just a helpful super-computer at your soul’s disposal. You won’t get the answers you seek from your mind alone. Being stuck in your head is most often a fruitless exercise, or at least one of diminishing returns the more time we spend there.

The magic starts when our heart and mind connect and share wisdoms with one another. The heart knows, and the mind has the genius to make it happen.

Image from Scenic Reflections

Image from Scenic Reflections

Right now, if you’re feeling lost or stuck, it’s perfectly okay to ask for a sign or some kind of answer that gives you clarity – or at least a place to start. Then trust that your Soul and the Universe will use everything at their disposal to get that message to you.

For me, yesterday, it was black cockatoos.

You’ll know what it is for you. Your soul will make the message or the messenger look brighter, shinier, more obvious – this thing, whatever it is, will just stand out more. It will be meaningful for YOU.

It might be a sign on the back of a bus, a song on the radio, an article in the newspaper, a recurring image or idea. Don’t worry about what it could be – just trust that this thing will make itself known to you!

Eg: You’re thinking about returning to study, and you need to have your application in today, but is it the right thing to do? On the way to work you get stuck behind this bus…

Suddenly, you have your answer. You’re on fire. You just KNOW what you need to do!

There’s another thing I need to tell you, to help you recognise what it will be. It won’t be mind driven. Mind-driven solutions are logical, expected and rational. And quite often they leave us dragging our feet. Our heart won’t be in it. We won’t light up when we think about it. It will be an answer or solution we feel we should take, one that will be a crowd pleaser or the sensible choice. Tune in – part of you will be sitting in deep resistance to that particular idea.

If that’s how you feel, that’s not your thing…

Yesterday, as I watched my black cockatoos and thought about my wise Aunties, and as my heart knew which direction to take, I was filled with bright energy and hope. My eyes pricked with tears.

And I also knew the answer had been in me all along. It was just my mind that was objecting…

Your heart always knows what it wants. Your Soul is perfectly equipped to get that message to your conscious mind.

The whole Universe is contriving to help you live your best life.

So ask. And trust.

I have so much faith in you…

I’ll leave you with the sounds of the black cockatoos, Much Love, Nicole xx

The Art of Surrender

Image from Lucie Chen

Image from Lucie Chen

“Always say “yes” to the present moment. What could be more futile, more insane, than to create inner resistance to what already is? what could be more insane than to oppose life itself, which is now and always now? Surrender to what is. Say ‘yes’ to life and see how life suddenly starts working for you rather than against you.”
~ Eckhart Tolle

We’ve all surrendered before. To music, to love, to pleasure. It’s something we welcome – losing ourselves in the moment, merging ourselves with the emotion, the sensation, the grand scheme and the minutia. We give in, we let go, we surrender to the flow.

But what about when life isn’t going so well?

How often do we fight against where we are at?

How often do we resist the space we find ourselves in?

No. I will not be sick. NO. I will not be upset.  I will not be helpless. I will not be weary. I will not be uncertain or directionless. I will not be devoid of inspiration. I will not be apathetic or depressed, exhausted or miserable. No. NO. NO!

Immerse by J Derek Howard

Immerse by J Derek Howard

Oh, sweetheart. You are where you are…

Stop fighting.

Because life, you see, is what it is. You are where you are.

Why resist the truth of this moment? Why keep swimming upstream?

You are where you are.

Surrender to what is. Surrendering is not condoning this space. It is not you saying to the Universe YES, I WANT THIS AWFUL PAIN. I WANT THIS FAILURE. Or even, I DESERVE THIS TERRIBLE THING.

Surrender is simply letting go.

Right now I am sick. Right now I am hurting. Right now I am lonely. Right now things aren’t going so well…

Drop back into that river. Let the river carry you.

And it will.

When you stop fighting and let go, it becomes easier. The river carries you. You can merge with the fullness of the moment. You own the feelings. You own the truth of what is.

As you stop the struggle, be it an emotional, physical or spiritual one, you may find that you sink like a stone. Don’t panic. Haven’t you ever sunk deep into love? Didn’t you do that with reckless abandon?

At the bottom of the river it’s so quiet and still. There’s room for your frightened soul to expand again.

And as you do, you’ll rise up. Soon you’ll be floating, and the current will take you.

One morning you’ll find yourself washed up on a new shore, bathed in sunlight, caressed by a gentle breeze scented with the sweet fragrance of new possibilities.

Stop fighting.

Let go.

Surrender to what is.

And know that you are beautiful, magnificent, courageous, loved…

Cloud Oracle – A Reading for your Emotional Well-Being

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“May your trails be crooked, winding, lonesome, dangerous, leading to the most amazing view. May your mountains rise into and above the clouds.”
~ Edward Abbey

Today I’ve channelled through some messages for you for emotional guidance and support. Right now there is strong energy for personal growth. The image you choose  will help support you through these changes.

Instructions for using today’s post

Scroll down through the following cloud images and then let yourself come back to the one you are most drawn to.

When you have chosen your image, scroll further down for your message; designed to help you focus on emotional well-being, decision making and life direction.

Trust that you will be shown what you most need to know right now.

Love and Light,

Nicole ♥ xx

The Wisdom of Clouds…

1.  Golden Clouds with Moon

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Image by Ionflavio

2.  Tornado

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Image from www.fanpop.com

3.  Heaven Afire

4.  Evening Clouds

5.  Streaky Dawn

6.  Storm Front

7.  Rainbow Clouds

8.  Heavenly Messengers

♥ The Healing Message and Gift of each Image ♥

Each cloud image has a message for you. I have also selected a crystal for your emotional support and wellbeing.  You could wear or hold this crystal, pop it in your pocket, under your pillow or beside your bed. (If you’d like to know more about working with crystals click here) The Power Word is a word to remind yourself of the quality you most need and that you are strongly attracting right now.  You can turn it into your own personal mantra by saying “I choose ___________ ” (insert your Power Word). Your Magical Healing Environment is a place or activity you’ll find supportive and healing.

1. ♥  Golden Clouds with Moon – Clarity and Perspective After a long time of feeling muddled and confused you are being gifted with a wonderful insight into your current situation, and wisdom to make sound decisions about your future.  There is a profound linking of heart and mind happening within you, giving you one of the most powerful periods in your life for creating lasting positive change.  ♥ Best Crystal – Turquoise ♥ Power Word – CLARITY  ♥ Magical Healing Environment – Anything that energises you.  Join the gym, go for a run, sit in the sunshine, take a yoga class, go dancing – just get your body moving!!!

2.  ♥ Tornado – Harnessing the force within. Inside you everything is coming into focus.  Everything is building within you, enabling you to unleash incredible forces of creativity, inspiration and personal power.  Set your mind on what you want to achieve, get clear, get a plan and go for it! You can move mountains right now.  The Force is with You! ♥ Best Crystal – Clear Quartz  ♥ Power Word – FOCUS ♥ Magical Healing Environment – Anywhere where you can have that conversation, make that deal, forge that relationship, get that job done.  Don’t be afraid to seek a mentor, or a powerful ally.  Get advice and help from experts.  Do everything you can to make your vision come true!

3.  ♥  Heaven Afire – Heart Healing.  Love, passion, connection, sexual fire and personal charisma are all coming your way. You are beautiful when you glow from within with self love, self confidence and clarity about who you are and what you want in life. Expect relationship breakthroughs, reconnection and new starts! ♥ Best Crystal – Red Garnet  ♥ Power Word – LOVE ♥ Magical Healing Environment – Anything that nurtures you and makes you feel beautiful inside and out.  Get a haircut, update your wardrobe, have a massage or a beauty treatment, go surfing, laugh, dance and let your heart sing by doing what gives you joy.

4.  ♥ Evening Clouds – Endings and completions.  Take heart – you’re coming to the end of a major cycle in your life. Use this energy to tidy up the loose ends, to finish what needs finishing and to put everything in order. Simplify, and rest wherever you can. In every ending is the seed of a new beginning. Know that a bright new future is ahead of you and that you are well loved, guided and protected as you make this transition. ♥ Best Crystal – Snowflake Obsidian  ♥ Power Word – COMPLETION  ♥ Magical Healing Environment – Anywhere where you can have time on your own to think, to plan and to finish things. Spend time with your journal at a favourite cafe, go to the library, stay home on your own, or go for long walks in nature.

5.  ♥ Streaky Dawn – Synchronicity and Helpful People. The Universe is conspiring right now to end your social isolation and bring you connection in the form of friendships, employment and other social, emotional and financial opportunities. Expect miracles, breakthroughs and amazing co-incidences.  ♥ Best Crystal – Fluorite ♥ Power Word – SUPPORT ♥ Magical Healing Environment – Reconnecting with people Take a course, join a group, invite some friends over, volunteer, speak to strangers, be helpful and smile often!

6.  ♥ Storm Front – Unexpected Changes  Can you feel it? The wise SOUL part of you is orchestrating big maneuvers, so don’t be surprised if suddenly you feel the urge to make a change, to commit to something new, to take back a commitment that had previously felt right.  You are gathering momentum.  Things can’t stay the way they are.  Get ready – change is coming!!!  And the change is needed.  And the change will be good! ♥ Best Crystal – LABRADORITE  ♥ Power Word – MOMENTUM  ♥ Magical Healing Environment – Inspiration  Books, uplifting websites, lectures, courses -anything that gets you into that positive and inspired head space and that gives you the tools you need for what’s coming next. Be unstoppable!!!

7.  ♥ Rainbow Clouds – Easing and Relaxing  The hard part’s behind you.  Make sure you spend some time relaxing now, and letting go.  Bring fun and light-heartedness back into your life.  Practice gratitude and live with an open heart.  ♥ Best Crystal – Citrine  ♥ Power Word – EASE  ♥ Magical Healing Environment – Holidays.  Whether it’s an afternoon, a weekend or something longer, plan an escape and take yourself away!

8.  ♥ Heavenly Messengers – Divine Connection  Loved Ones who’ve crossed over, Guides, Angels and other BEings of Light are all connecting with you now.  Be open to their love, wisdom and messages.  Trust in your unfolding psychic abilities. Live from LOVE ♥ Best Crystal – Amethyst  ♥ Power Word – CONNECTION  ♥ Magical Healing Environment – MEDITATION.  Go quiet, and go within.  Spend time on your own, and in nature.  Read, think and journal.  Practice connection and connect with like-minded souls for support at this time.

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Know that you are in my daily thoughts, prayers and meditations.

If you enjoyed today’s post you may also like The Healing Power of Flowers and Fairy Blessings or my Magical Cupcake Readings!

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Leaving the Nest

“Don’t listen to those who say ‘you taking too big a chance.’ Michelangelo would have painted the Sistine floor, and it would surely be rubbed out by today. Most important, don’t listen when the little voice of fear inside you rears its ugly head and says ‘they all smarter than you out there. They’re more talented, they’re taller, blonder, prettier, luckier, and they have connections.” I firmly believe that if you follow a path that interests you, not to the exclusion of love, sensitivity, and cooperation with others, but with the strength of conviction that you can move others by your own efforts—and do not make success or failure the criteria by which you live—the chances are you’ll be a person worthy of your own respects.” – Neil Simon

It’s the last morning of my Channelling Intensive Retreat.  What  a crazy, wonderful, agonising, brilliant roller-coaster ride it has been.

To me it is still breath-taking that my students are brave enough to put themselves in my hands, even when they are fearful, even when they are filled with doubt, and then look at me with their shiny-bright eyes and say ‘show me’

They have trusted enough to open their own connections to psychic gifts.  They have connected to all manner of Guides, Angels, and Light BEings. They have learned to work as healers, and to bring energy through their hands.  They have learned to gain insights from meditation and from channelled writing. They have learned to use shamanic tools, and to work with crystals. They have learned to trust their intuition in gaining insights and clarity for others.

I am so very proud of them.  It has been humbling to watch them grow before my eyes from frightened and confused students, to Souls who are wired up and ready to go.

Today I shall kick them all out of the nest. That’s as terrifying for them as when they first arrived, because now they go back to the real world, opened up and changed in ways that mean they can never go back to how they were before.

Without risk, we can never fly.

If you have a calling, then be brave and follow your heart.  We need more people to live strong.  Living strong and following your heart will change the world. That’s the world I want to live in – the world where we shine our Light, and live with authenticity and grace, freely sharing our talents and gifts.

You came here to BE the difference.

I have so much faith in you.  So go shine your Light.  Be brave, and stand tall.  You are magnificent, and the world is richer with you in it. Bless ♥ xx